rumors suck.

i heard the same thing from two people. they're acting more than friends.why is it so hard to be faithful? he is my entire life. every stupid thing he does i forgive him for. i tell him it will all be okay. that i'll love him forever, no matter what. because that's what you do when you love someone, right? you don't let things stand in your way. you love them continuously with all your heart. but he makes it hard. every day i hurt a little more with every thing i hear. it's just like he doesn't care anymore. it's like he was before. he's becoming who i worked so hard to forget about. i can't handle life without him. i need him. so much. but how do you forget about the guy who forgot about you? i would do anything for him. i thought i was the one who made his life complete. the only one he ever loved. he promised he wouldn't lie. he promised he would treat me like i should. that we would make this work. yeah, looks like that's working. i don't understand. why does it have to be me? i just give up. and i'm almost serious about that. but it's so hard to move on from someone you haven't stopped thinking about for close to two years. it's hard to just let go of your entire world. the person who knows everything about you. the guy you use to trust with every secret. it's too hard. but this is hurting way too much.</3

'cause when you're fifteen, & somebody tells you they love you. you're gonna believe them.

-mistylee. forever&always.