I have to say I am hating Aspergers right now.  Sure, in the scheme of things having a kid with Aspergers is no biggie, I GET THAT.  But.  Right now I am just tired of it.  Rex started a new school.  He got involved in band, which seems like a good fit, but it could go south any minute. 

Why am I hating on Aspergers?  It is the difficulty I see my son experiencing daily.  He just can't fit in.  He can try, but until other kids embrace the differences of all kids, it just is not going to happen.  My son barks.  A fellow student may say hello to Rex, and instead of just saying hello back, Rex barks.  It freaks the other kids out, yet he keeps doing it.  WHY?  

 A barking, nose picking, loud kid in middle school is usually the lonley kid.

As his mom, I know what a cool, smart, and creative kid he is.  He has made amazing art for our home, and tells facinating stories that I really should be writing down.  He knows he is viewed as weird and different, yet makes no effort to sease some of his odd behavior.  He just can't help it.

I get mad at myself for feeling like he needs to change in order to fit in.  I know historically kids with Aspergers grow up to be amazing contributers to our society, but when yours is in middle school struggling to survive it is difficult to see down that road.