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Rev. Dr. Monte Canfield

Rev. Dr. Monte Canfield
Location
Newcomerstown, Ohio, USA
Birthday
December 28
Title
Rev. Dr. Monte Canfield
Company
Retired
Bio
Retired Protestant Pastor and Theologian, jointly credentialed in the United Church of Christ and the Moravian Church. Education: BA, MA, M.Div, Thd. Public Service: NY State Office of Executive Development, Management Intern; Federal Exec. Branch: Executive Office of the President, Budget Examiner, Bureau of the Budget; Interior, Director of Energy and Minerals, Bureau of Land Management; Non Profit: Ford Foundation, Deputy Director, Energy Policy Project; Congressional: Director, Office of Special Projects; Director, Division of Energy and Materials, General Accounting Office; Private industry: Vice President, Grow Group, Inc.; Chief Executive Officer, US Paint; Owner, the Energy Center, St. Louis. Christian service: Pastor, First Congregational UCC, Ottawa, Illinois; Pastor, St. Paul's UCC, Port Washington, Ohio; Pastor, Moravian Church, Gnadenhutten, Ohio.

Rev. Dr. Monte Canfield's Links

Memoirs and Biographical (also see Motorcycling Memories)
Musical Tribute Essays, Playlists, Videos
Motorcycling Memories
The Christian Calendar Series
Essays on the Exodus and the Ten Commandments
Reflections on Faith
FEBRUARY 16, 2009 4:46PM

A Letter to my Friends: OS and me

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This is directed primarily at my OS friends on my friends list, but it might be instructive to others who may have fallen into the same self built trap that I have.


Hello, my dear OS friends.

OS is, an has been,  a wonderful therapy for me since I found it, especially given my current medical problems.  It keeps my brain active and motivated; and it keeps it off of me.

Plus the warm friendships I have developed here have been so supportive, genuine and honest, much more than I thought possible on the internet.  I so do love the community aspect of OS and try to contribute to it and build it up in many ways, including the Must Read Posts lists each week.

OS for me is addictive.  And I have an addictive personality.  This means that a lot of the life that I could be having outside of OS, even given my medical problems, has all but dried up. I can't get too far from my LazyBoy but there are a lot of things besides OS that can be done from this chair.

When Sue comes home I am on OS, but often also when she is here for the few hours we have together before she goes to bed.  Then after she goes to bed it is more OS, until 2 or 3 in the morning.  I get up about 10 or 11 AM and start back on it about noon every day and it repeats itself.

I am normally a voracious reader of novels and biographies.  I haven't opened a book this winter. 

I subscribe to Newsweek and three motorcycling magazines all of which are piling up unread. 

I used to read in some detail every day on the internet the Washington Post, the New York Times and the Huffington Post, along with some Politico, the Nation and Salon.  Now I hardly look at them. 

I like to watch the MSNBC talking heads even though they often irritate the hell out of me.  But they are better than the others.  Now they provide a bit of background that I hear now and then, and ocassionally look at over the top of the laptop screen. 

I like to actually listen to music, not just have it on as background noise.

I love to watch basketball and the Cavs are now a great team.  I turn them on and mostly ignore them because I am reading or writing on OS. If it gets loud I will look up and see a replay.  That is hardly enjoying a game.


The biggest part of the time consumption on OS is something that I have done to myself, well, actually I have done it all to myself but this one is pretty obvious. 

 I  have insisted to myself that I go out to every friends blog at least two or three times a week, sometimes more, and read whatever new they have written.

And when I read a post I always comment on it.  I think it is important to the writer to know that someone read it who took the time to write a simple thank you.  And I will never change that.

But what I am going to change to start to get a bit of the rest of my life back,  is to not go out to every friends blog several times a week. 

I will rely partly on the damned too short feed on the right side of my blog pages to catch new friends posts.  A lot of time that won't work because a post can be there for only a few minutes before it is bumped. 

I will rely more importantly on friends sending me notices of their new posts.  I do not call it "blog whoring" and I think that word should be trashed and never used again. 

All of my friends are mutual friends.  They have agreed to receive notices and I and have asked every one of them to notify me.  Many do, many don't.  But I will no longer go searching for what they are writing.  I wish that were not so, but the reality is that I can't get more balance in my life if I am obsessing about "having to" go search out the new posts of my friends.

If that doesn't provide enough balance then I will take a close look at the Must Read list. I play the  effort it takes to do  it down but the truth is it takes a lot of time to find the posts, write the reviews of the posts and just physically get all the links into the post and then reply to the comments. 

My problem with the List is not just the time consumption.  It is whether it is doing much good for the effort expended.  I have tested that on Vol. 4 and Vol. 5 the only way I can, and I found that there are very few new comments on those posts after I post the list. 

The problem is that comments don't tell me much because I know that there are many more page hits than either comments or ratings.  I wish those posts had a hit counter so I could see how many more hits they got after the List is posted.  But it is not obvious to me that the List  is accomplishing the intention of increasing readership for the posts and the writer.

So, bottom line, I love OS and I care very much for the friendships I have developed here.  And I hope to keep them and gain new friends as I go along.   I am not leaving.  I am not unhappy.  The problem is me, not OS. But I must cut back.  Sue hasn't asked me to, but I know it is what I need to do.  I hope that you all understand that.

I am pretty sure than a number of you do, who have told me in PMs that you just can't keep up, or that OS is eating into time that you should be using for other things.

 I would be glad to get anyone's comments on what you think about the addictive nature of OS and how you handle it.  I would imagine that those of you who do not have addictive personalities don't have a clue what I am talking about.  All I can say to you is that you are very lucky, and I envy you. ;-)

Monte

 

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I am too addicted to comment. I totally understand. Must keep balance and perspective in life. Wishing you nothing but peace and contentment.
Dear Monte,
I hear what you are saying. I, too, feel as if parts of my life can sometimes get shortchanged by my devotion to OS.
The policy that you have proposed is a wise one. You're right--I'm one of the worst users of the word blogwhoring. I will strike it from my dictionary.
We're all trying to form a circle of support here, but we all have lives to tend to, too. Balance is the best thing.
Thank you.
I've basically gone through the same thing Monte, only with me it hasn't been my health, but the death of my wife that has left me crippled, and looking for immediate responsiveness. It angers me at times that I am so easily diverted from matters that would better serve my best interests, and am getting back into them slowly, one small step at a time. I appreciate your work.
monte, i can fully relate to what you're describing here, and i know i'm not the only one. just keeping up with my friends' posts feed can take up a fair chunk of the day, not to mention trying to read and comment on posts by people who've kindly read and commented on mine. i'm still trying to figure out some system to control how much time i spend on OS, but haven't struck the right balance yet.

i've got to say, when i joined three or four months ago i never imagined it'd be the sort of addictive thing it has become. that being said though, i've had far worse addictions, so i try to keep it in that perspective. there are definitely worse things i could be doing with my spare time, and i've done all of 'em:-P
I agree dear Monte, I agree. I have so many things to do now.
It is too hard for me to comment some days. My fingers just don't work. i get sucked in this site.
I am so addicted, and I just aint ready for the 12 step program yet.
Monte, I'm not sure if you were aware, but I had to pull away from OS for a month to get my work in order. This site is so full of creative minds, it is very hard to pull away. I have been here since yesterday and I have enjoyed every minute of being here - making new friends and catching up with old friends. But, I MUST pull myself away by night's end and stay away again for awhile, because I have gotten absolutely no work done!

I think we all understand, and will always look for one another when we are here. Please take care of yourself and enjoy life! OS is just one part of it - a wonderful part of it, but just a part.

Best wishes. :)
Monte, we love you and understand. When you find a terrific book, please recommend it to us in a short post, comments can even be closed!
Uh-huh. Sounds very familiar.
It is addictive, but it's still new for me and I'm hoping that as the newness wears off my time spent here will moderate.

As for your List I do have stat counters on every page I publish. When you cited my post "Each Night I Participate in a Disturbing Threesome...pinned between my two Labradors," there was a big jump in traffic to that post. It was obvious because after it was initially published the traffic had dwindled to just a few visits per day, and then the sudden jump.

I am in awe of your abilities Monte, I want to read more about Wilma and your step dad!

We must all seek balance in our lives. With that in mind I'm out the door to count bald eagles and search for baby seals on the shoreline. It's a beautiful day!

One last thought:

Whatever you do,
Don't neglect Sue!
I tell people this site is theraputic. As a singleton, it connects to me to a world of friends, and as a writer, it mentors me. But too much of anything isn't good.

If you wanted to keep doing the critique could you pull back to maybe once a month? And perhaps limit the number on the post?

Or just do it whenever you want, if you want. Or not. The main thing is for you and Sue to be as comfortable as possible.

All best, whatever you choose, and feel good.
I remember books. I always liked them.
I definitely know it's true Monte. I have vastly scaled back my time on here. I have easy access to computers all over. PC's and laptops with my work. So I can keep a screen up on the PC's for easy access to check in every few hours. But with my near melt down on here a week or so back, I decided it's quality of time, not quantity of time on here.

I have scaled back on all aspects to get back on my horn. I had not gotten to the point where I was neglecting my family, but it probably would have. So I applaud this post. Everyone knows the addiction is true. I think it's the number one reason most people leave.

I'm not leaving either, but thankfully for most, you'll see me less.

You know I love you like my slightly older brother. :-)
We can always e-mail each other too since we have that.

Stay in touch and all the best with your pain, may it subside and you be happy.

Much Love,
Your little brother G
I feel for you Monte. I have been away for nearly one week and my inbox was swamped with links to read. It's just not possible to keep up with those AND the other things I have missed AND what has posted since last night. I feel like a zombie just trying to touch base and read at least one link per writer (if they have sent me three in the past week, the chances are slim I will get to them). It's just too damn time consuming and demanding mentally and emotionally, especially if, like you, I would take the time to make long, thoughtful comments.
It is hard to keep up and I can see that many new writers have shown up in the past few weeks as I have been out in the romantic fields. I enjoyed being "unaddicted" for the past week as much as I missed the reading and comment threads (not to mention, writing my own stuff). But I can't devote as many hours every day to this without shortchanging other people or aspects of my life so I am feeling less guilty about it now than I was when I first went off for a few days.
You put a tremendous amount of work, effort and your heart into everything you do here, Monte but I completely understand. You may have a little withdrawal at the beginning, but you will also feel a renewed sense of purpose enjoying other things that you have left behind. And, when you poke you nose in, you will be more inclined to read what interests you rather than what you feel "obliged" to.
We know you are a big presence here and if you don't have time to comment, I for one, will not take it personally. You deserve to enjoy your time on OS and not feel owned by it.
My paper book reading has diminished but there are so many podiobooks and audio books available.

As for 'blogwhoring', it has become necessary. There are so many members now, that it is possible for an article to get drowned out.
Oops. Sorry Monte I confused your List with another list:
People's Picks 2/7/09
This is the list that I was included on.
I appreciate your list because it has pointed out a number of good posts that I might have missed, and if you liked it that's a good endorsement.
Monte,

So much of what you write here, I, too, experience.

For simple self-preservation, I've had to go back to a thorough reading of the NYTimes (well, no so thorough---but at least the columns and editorials) so that I can engage in conversations with non-OSers on occasion.

I think we will all keep an eye out for you---send over an occasional holler when we post ---and watch for your posts as well.
We won't let you get lost (you are too valuable for that)---but we will let you wander away.
Monte - you are so wise. And thoughtful. What you describe sounds VERY familiar. I am so behind on my Newsweek and other pubs, as well as my Book Club books. I wish I had more or better suggestions. A few small things -

1) Make deals with yourself - do NOT get on OS until you've done xx number of chores/hours of something else
2) Release yourself from the self-imposed expectation of keeping up with all your friends. It's impossible to do and it creates unnecessary stress.
3) Perhaps ask (some or all) of your friends to submit one or two entries for Must Read - then it can be more of a collaborative effort & you won't feel like you have to read everything in order to make the list.
4) And clearly, although I love it, it does not have to meet some weekly deadline either.
5) Make a list (clearly one of my favorite things!). Perhaps even post it on OS - of the other things you want to be doing - and we can hold your feet to the fire to make sure you are!
6) Set aside at least ONE day a week where you do NOT get on OS at all! This will be hard, but it will help. You will realize that you CAN indeed live without it. Pretend your Internet connection is out or your electricity is off. Don't you remember how freeing that feeling is - you just CAN"T do anything other than sit in the dark and play games.
7) Try yoga. I know it hasn't seemed to help Greg or me terribly much in our OS addiction department, but still - you can easily modify the breathing and exercise parts to your condition and it does help (when I do it actively!) keep me centered.

ok, that's all. I think the list is a great thing. I saw more hits after I made the list. Also, I think it just needs to gain some steam - along with the Daily Crawl. I've just today added a link to your blog for the Must Read List(s).

Namaste,
Lisa
I too became quickly addicted, but after a week or two of neglecting everything else in my life, I had to quit. I don't get to read everything I want to. I try to read certain people, and a few extra, and I almost always comment, and thumb when I read. It has worked better for me to only read a couple of times a day, and not to read before I have completed my own post if I plan to post. It really is addictive, and cool, and interesting....but no substitute for real life. Good luck. Carol
I'm glad that you have set your priorities straight, Monte. I need to do the same. I'm glad that you will still be popping in from time to time.
Yes, Monte, I agree. In fact, a month or so ago when I was determined -- in no small part because of the amount of time I spent on here -- to toss it all in, I found myself writing this instead:

http://open.salon.com/content.php?cid=90080

You and several others were good enough to take the time to comment on it.

In any event, the only way I have of dealing with the addictive (and yes, I have the same personality problem) nature of OS is to ... well, shut down the computer and walk away. That sometimes helps. I'm hoping spring will arrive soon and I'll be too busy doing outside work.

The hell of it is, I'm really conflicted about you spending less time here. I thoroughly enjoy almost everything you write, and my day is usually brightened by both your posts and your commentary.

But needs must, chum: Sue and your home are far more important than any of us on OS.
Hey, you do what you gotta do. There IS a life outside of OS--go live it!

Thanks for all your wonderful posts and comments and for providing the must-read list.

Best of luck!

Leeandra
Absolutely. I feel OS eating into my time too and I am not nearly as prolific as you are Monte. It is addicting. It makes us feel good, but we need to be careful to balance our time and our lives. I think I need to make a rule of sitting down to a scheduled hour or two a day of OS time and then not come back throughout the day (as I currently am doing) Good luck to you!
Because I have to work, I cannot comment as much as some do, but at times I try to follow your lead when some things ignite a deeper response and more writing than others. Because I am busy, I often rate only because I can read quickly, writing, not so fast.

This does feel addictive to me, and yet, I feel like my writing is improving in a way that nothing else I have ever done to support such an improvement has provided. For that, I am eternally grateful.

The friendships here, some are deeper than others, but many feel of the kind of kinship that we all seek in real time, and in physical proximity to one another. I think that it has been the willingness to write vulnerably and openly here that has made such kinship possible. Who wouldn't want to be a part of that!

So Monte, friend of mine, I am grateful for any and all contact with you and in whatever way you need to balance your real life, and knowing that OS is a part of your real life now, I am your friend and capable of adjusting to any change that makes your life more satisfying for you and for Sue.
You got to do what you got to do! A balance between "real world" and "cyberland" is a difficult thing some times(heck, it's sometimes hard balancing things just in Cyberland --- I've been neglecting other sites I use to go to, just to hang out here. I need to setup a schedule!! :) )
I understand completely, Monte. Most of us feel likewise in some regards; and would prefer to live in the real world.

peace, my friend
Oh, Monte! You are not alone!

First of all, because I work from home, managing my OS time has become a necessary evil. I literally have to set a timer so that I'm not on here for hours and hours.

Much of this stems from my own self-imposed rules: 1) read everything that everyone sends me, 2) respond to every comment personally, 3) read blogs of those who comment on mine, 4) check out friends' new posts when I see them.

This is IMPOSSIBLE and causes me a ton of guilt. I have so many unread "Please Read" messages in my inbox, and I've been doing a terrible job of getting to read other people's blogs. And I only post something of my own two times per week!

Over this past weekend, I limited my OS time and I actually spent time reading a real book (you should see my stack of unread books, magazines, and other reading material. It is literally 2 feet tall. I am not exaggerating.) I am striving for greater balance with you, my friend, so let me know if you find something that works.

One thing I especially wanted to comment on was your Must Read Posts. As you know, I've done this myself in the past. It takes a TON of time to find and compile these, plus notify the writers of their inclusion, and I didn't even include the commentary that you do! I finally stopped due to not only time constraints, but also because I found that it didn't seem to make a difference in the traffic to the selected blogs. I thought maybe my taste in what was wonderful was way different from the rest of the world's. Did people even read them?

I think that Critical Mess has been much more successful, but I don't know for sure. In any event, I think that for this type of activity to not be such a burden on any one person, everyone needs to contribute, either by recommending posts, or by forwarding their own. It's ridiculously time-consuming otherwise. With more and more worthy posts competing for readership, it's only going to become even more so.

Whatever you need to do to achieve more balance, I heartily support. I wish you nothing but the very best. You need to take care of yourself and your marriage. The rest of us addicts will still be here, looking for balance of our own. :)
Dear Monte,
I understand everything you are saying in this letter. I too have an addictive personality. I have been letting OS take a lot of my time that should be spent on other things in my life. I have tried to cut back, I have been able too a little..SMILES! since my good-bye post. I limit myself to how much time I spend on OS, some days it has worked and other days it hasn't. But I will keep trying. Because life still has to go on.
As for your list, I love them and appreciate the time it takes to prepare them. They are a great tool to use to find great writings to read. Thank you for them.
You figure out a way to limit your time on OS. Then you let me know how it works for you and what you do..lol Because I could use the help also..LOL
I will keep sending you PMs about my new post. I agree with you that it is so much easier to make sure you hit your friends new posts then to try and catch them on the feeds, or to go to every blog to see if someone has a new one. I have stopped sending my PMs about posts to most of my friends because of the blogwhoring thing, but I still send you one.
Thank you so much for this nice post to your friends.
Take Care
Fireeyes24
I think you're wise to cut back before someone (Sue?) asks you to, because if you're anything like me -- and I believe we do share those addictive tendancies -- if someone asked me to cut down on my time here, I'd resent it, and probably start sneaking visits and comments, and PMs and posts.

So I totally get it, I think we all do, and good luck to you returning to your "real" life and just occasionally dropping by here, trying to appear cool and casual as you lean up against the "Most Read" column, smoking a cigarette, even as your heart is pounding with desire.
I used to run up and down the stairs all night, particularly if I had posted an article that day. No more. My wife deserves more than a couple of hours of my attention every day. All good, Monte. Reasonable and effective as always. Don't respond to this. You've got better things to do.
Monte,
I had a long winded response to this wonderful post. I clicked on spell checker and the cyber thieves ate it. The point was clear. I am you as you describe your addiction. There are so many excellent comments here that I really can't add anything but to let you know I get you completely. Your one of the few that I try to read everything they write, but it is too hard to keep up here. I also need to cut back.
Monte - you speak the truth, as always. You are a generous and thoughtful soul, and have put a great deal of heart and hard work into both your writing and promoting others' writing here. I can't imagine how you are able to do it all, and your plan to cut back makes complete sense to me. I struggle with limiting my time on OS as well, because I love the stories and feel a friendship with many writers here. Also, as you mention, it keeps your mind off your own problems, and although we are extremely broke at the moment and our house is falling apart, I can escape into marvelous posts here and forget all that for a bit. In addition, I think I balance by posting short and vacuous material - I don't have the time or mental energy to both read AND write, and keep up with all my real world stuff. Thus, I do short little posts so I can claim to have a blog, but primarily I read and comment. That may change in time, but for now it is where I'm at. I will continue to look forward to your writing here, and am glad you aren't breaking up with all of us;)
wish I had more balance- in every aspect of my life
:) glad you are taking care of yourself Monte
The list thing takes a bit before everyone catches on to it. Don't be so quick to discount the influence it could ultimately have. I agree with almost everything you said here, in this positive post.
Dear Friend Monte,
I think everyone has a healthy perspective on this. Like any addictive activity, there has to be moderation. My reading has suffered neglect, and other things similar to your situation. I made up my mind I would not try to keep up w everything anymore.....comment on my closest pals, and work HARD on my writing. I sometimes feel I'm being a selfish pig, but I feel I can contribute more to the community and the life of this rare forum by publishing pieces of writing that affect folks in some way......that's what art strives to do, change the way we see our world. In the art world, nothing has ever moved me more than seeing the power of ideas to move minds....through my visual art and the original way it occupies, or critiques our notions of nature and/or space.

I hope to do the same some day with the writing...so that's where the energy and attention needs to go. Affectionately, G
Addicted personality-- yup, that's me as well. My only saving grace is that I am also addicted to my job, perhaps even a bit more than to OS, which I allow myself to dip into only occasionally, usually by following o'stephanie around to read the posts on which she has commented, thereby treating myself to some great reads, and feeling very close to my loved and admired sister. OS is a great resource, because of its outstanding people.
Thank you so much, everybody. Oddly it makes me feel good to know that so many others are addicted. Kind of like when I first started in AA almost 20 years ago and 40 other people said in unison, "Welcome." Whoa! I had no idea that there were that many addicts in my own church! And all of them weren't even there that night!

I feel such genuine affection for each of you that it pains me that I am not going to take the hour or so to respond to each comment individually. I know. That's not like me. And I can't tell you all how all of my guilt buttons are pushing themselves without me doing anything. But I am going to do this in this one reply, even if it kills me.

Sue and I just got back from spending two hours at our church's annual Valentine Swiss Steak Dinner. Believe me, I didn't go for the food. But it had been months since I had seen some of my friends, who were my parishioners, and I was hungry to see them. I really can't make it to church with my med problems which are pure hell for the first four hours I am up, so I was especially glad that this event came up tonight.

Please just know how much I appreciate your kind responses to my post, which, if you read it between the lines was as guilt laden as anything I have even thought about writing here.

It is an honor and a privilege to have such good friends. And, I have had a new thought!, which is rare in my family, and that is that the distinctions between "real" friends and "OS friends" is highly over rated. I would say unequivocally that many of my friends here feel closer to me and more honest in their relationships with me than do some of my friends "in real life." The proof is, of course, the responses to this post.

So thank you all.

Monte
it's an addiction, Monte.

I've been active only since the week before Christmas, and it's come to consume so much of my free time. I hate to miss what my friends have been writing, and I hate to leave a post without saying something in appreciation.
Okie Dokie, Monte ... I think I figured this OS thing out ... a little bit anyway because I'm crazy busy, but can't get enough of reading and reading here is the best for me because I can fit it in in little bites and then run to put out the next fire or beat the next kid ... something like that ...

I scan the friend list ... read the short ones and copy & paste the long ones into a word doc. ... this works especially well when there's a series or when it's something spectacular and you want to savor every delicious syllable ... Then I read them in carpool, waiting at the dentist, pushing the cart through the grocery store ... wherever, whenever I might have been wasting my time otherwise ... and the plus is that you can start and stop a million times without ever going near the patooter.

The only problem I've encountered is that sometimes I forget to come back and leave my comment when I'm done, but I'm working on that.

I think you have earned a break ... no one is a more conscientious commentor than you. You should get an award for your dedication to leaving sweet words on every single post. I know that's just you being you, but we love you already ... you don't have to work so hard.

So ~ from now on, all you have to write on my comments is "awesome masterpiece" ... I'll know exactly what you mean!!! ;0

xoxo
ann
I can find myself getting quite engaged, and spending minutes adding up to *hours* on OS that should have been spent working. Then I'd have to work late, and that of course led to more looks in the many-doored mansion of OS. Then I was wrenched into some particularly busy business travel, and didn't have as much time - and more imortantly, opportunity - to keep up with OS. Only when I realized how much I'd fallen out of touch did I realize just how much I had been trying to stay in touch - responding to PSs, following up on comments I made on people's blogs, following up on the comments made on my blog. I didn't much like the view from the rearview mirror and started consciously limiting my time on OS. Now I don't check so many blogs, relying on the feed, my friends margin on my blog, plus PMs to be kept apprised of stuff that people think, knowing me, I'd really like to read. It works pretty good, though I often find myself taking a step or two down the trail of increasing my time, and have to actively pull myself back.
Monte,

Nothing wrong with wanting to find a sense of peace and order in your life. I feel what you are saying and understand. :)

Big hugs and Paws, my friend!
I get obsessed with things too. I'm just at that point where I'm going to have to set OS limits for myself. I need to paint the house.
At the end of each day I write down what I did and there has been so much "read & commented on OS" that I find myself actually LYING about it IN MY JOURNAL even though nobody else even reads it.

Ah, but there's so much great writing here, and so many stories. It's like visiting a graveyard except nobody's dead. I look at birthdates (astrological signs) and locations and imagine houses and yards and families. I think it's a writer-thing, every piece is a different character sketch. I will vow to read for only ten minutes and then the next one looks so interesting...just five more minutes! but I like it so much, I want to comment...but what to say? No, no, that's not right. Ummm...okay. Done. I'll shut it off now and...oh wait, Monte has another post...okay, just one more...

I think you are making a wise move pulling away just a little and having a life. I say this selfishly, because the more life you experience, the more stuff you'll have to write about and the more we'll get to READ your stuff. I hope you're not even reading this now. I hope you've shut off the computer and are off reading Tolstoy or something. Step -- back -- from -- the -- computer!
I'm going through the same thing. I'm addicted to checking it for new posts, and commenting on posts and thinking of posts to write and I told my husband: "I haven't read any books or magazines since I've started on O.S." So this week I told myself I would stay off as much as possible and here I am and I'm not sure I'll be able to. Addictive totally. But yes, taking away from real life. rated.
10-4 Monte.. I know what you are saying. I can say almost ditto to all of your reasons. We should form a therapy group of OS Addicts.. You know sit in a circle each of us standing one at a time.... "My name is RicTresa and I am an OSo'holic..."

You could still send me an email every once in awhile :)
Yes. All true. And thank your for the leadership on this, For me, also with an addictive personality, slugging Baily's Coffee flavored Isrish Cream and doing OS is not good balance.

Hey! The Daily show is on and I have a stack of books here as tall as by house
Ah Monte, Monte, Monte. You are such a dear I wish I could just hug you and Sue, right now! You are such a giving man, in all that you do. This "addiction," you say, is just giving back to you in another way. It is genuine therapy. If you really wanted or needed to read a book or watch tv or a myriad of other things, you would do it. You are no wuss or anything resembling a push over. You do this because it gives you a great escape from you know what. It gives you pleasure receiving attention and positive feedback from friends you have made here who truly appreciate you and what you bring to the OS. It is a two way street or you wouldn't be here, no way. This therapy of writing and expressing oneself is a very healthy outlet and keeps a vital part of the brain working at optimal levels that can be easily forgotten with less creative activities. Too much tv, too much of the same things, whatever they are, slow down the brain and creativity. Writing, reading, commenting, caring, thinking, sharing, helping others, dissecting, analyzing, cherishing, criticising, emphathizing, laughing, creating, is what you/we do here. And that is the short list. It may seem addictive to many of us, for sure. That is because it fills a vacuum that life can present in our other rountines, daily, habitual ways of being with much repetitiveness and lack of energy or creativity. All the authors here, all the various perspectives, ways of thinking and of being, the diversity that this community represents, the support, the comraderie, the genuine caring and building of friendships, is a powerful aphrodiesiac for our minds and hearts.

The OS is quite simply, a "turn on." One of brains, hearts, mutual expression, acceptance of differences and the embracing of creativity and support for one another, most of all.

Who in their right mind wouldn't find this appealing, alluring, slightly addictive and even part of the balance that we need and want. Not trying to give you a sales pitch here, but you are as equal a contributor here as you are a receiver and part of larger system.
I believe it is intrinsically good when tempered with the incite to make time for other important responsibilities, time for the other non-OS people and loved ones in our lives and our other healthy ways of being.

Boy, do ya think I'm loving the OS or what?!? It's been a positive for me and has opened me up to a love and passion that I had long forgotten for so long. Now that I have reconnected with this love of writing and written expression of thought in a variety of genre's, I would find it hard to live without.

I am not an "addictive type," a very loosely defined term and one I do not embrace or take too seriously, in this culture where labels, mental maladies of various degrees, short comings with an RX no one can live without for every single thing you experience from tjhe moment you wake up till you fall asleep at night and on and on, ad nauseum. There should be a pill coming on the market to help you wake up in the morning, because, before too long, we won't even be able to do that without some form of chemical intervention.

Way off the subject now, Monte! Sorry!!! You see how I am?! You give me a premise to comment on and I run with it, all the way to nowhere!

You just do what is authentic for you and take the best care of yourself and Sue and all your vital passions. We will understand and appreciate you all that much more.

Off to indulge in another addiction, if I can break away. Ice cream with chocolate sauce!!! Buh byeeeeeee!!!!! xoxoxoxoxo
Balance is so difficult to find and to keep, isn't it? And internet relationships are more easily managed than real-life people who can't be ignored.

I certainly understand the temptation. I am saved by the other demands on my time and attention. I agree with someone above who suggested that it's fine just to read and not comment. If you PM people to whom you really want to comment, no one will feel slighted because no one will know you're around at that moment. Escaping the beauty-contest aspects of this place can only be healthy!

Make OS work for you, friend. Take good care.
As usual, your wisdom and kindness sets an example for all. Whether you're here or not, your spirit is still a major presence. Good luck, good health, good times for you and Sue.

Whenever we hear from you it will always be a treat, but it'll be most important to hear that your life is going well.
Suzie, this slayed me:
"Ah, but there's so much great writing here, and so many stories. It's like visiting a graveyard except nobody's dead."
Yep. Pretty soon my posts will read"I'm mimi and I'm a OS-aholic (& my fingers are stuck to the keyboard)" Can relate. Find balance. I didn't read or post for 10 days. Withdrawal symptoms were a bitch! Much like, sounds like you have a plan!
You know, Monte, this is such a seminal post. I can't tell you how many times I've thought about writing it. I even thought about doing a master's thesis on this very subject: how many of us are ignoring the carbon beings in our lives for the cyber strangers we like to think we know--and do in some real way--but don't actually know? Addiction is the right word. I remember one night when my 11-year-old son was asking me to play a game and I was in such a hurry to write my post about Phil Donahue--it felt so timely and important to me and hardly anyone even read it, and I really blew my son off. That is a microcosm of what's gone on for the last several months. I'm glad you were brave enough to write this. It's instructive for all of us.
Monte, I have to say that when we went away as a family this weekend, my husband asked me if I wanted to use his laptop to check in on my post that I put up Saturday morning. I declined and it was very freeing. I figured my words and my art were out there. People could read and look if they wanted. Comment or not. Rate or not. I was still going to have a fine time visiting with my grandson.

I've kicked most of the things I've been addicted to. Can't quite quit food, though, that's a necessity. But I must say that OS can be as big a jones as cigarettes and I quit them almost seven years ago. Thank you for coming out and saying this. Balance is so important and what we should be persuing. Peace to you, Monte.

I'll still send you pointers to my posts, my friend. %;-)
You're doing the good thing. And you can always check in from time to time, I hope! Best wishes to you!
Reading everyone's comments has filled me with guilt for blog, uh, advertising my own posts. Now I feel like a drug pusher holding out a hand and saying, "Psst, hey kid, come over here!"

I have been through this kinda thing over the years just with the internet and specific sites in particular that I get very attached to checking in with. It is easy to invest too much time and miss out on "real life". Not that OS isn't real and wonderful, but those flesh and blood humans we know and love in person (often in our own homes) should take precedence.

Oh yes, and work. I also work from home and it's far more fun to be here, so I have to discipline myself on that.

Interesting that so many here struggle with this.
Freaking word. The only reason I'm not a OS Addict is the truly horrible posting/browsing interface. Its an appalling UI design, their web site designer ought to be fired. Or be made to send all his/her emails via OS.

I recently dropped over half the email lists I was subscribed to and severely trimmed my bookmarks. It was amazing home much time I freed up and stress I dropped.

BTW - Did you realise there's a RSS feed link at the top left of each authors blog? it can be used to keep track of new posts by them.
Another OS addict here...I really didn't realize how many other people consider themselves that, too. Seriously, the amount of time I spend reading and commenting is cutting into time I really can't spare. I have a history of similar serial addictions/obsessions and I'm surprised that other are struggling with this.

I recently posted about the dilemma of trying to "tame this beast" and find what is worthwhile without spending so. much. time. at it. I need to find a way to have it in balance without giving it up.
Its 3 am and I have just come back to this post and your comments right before I hit the sack. Words can't express my thanks enough for all of the good comments and words of encouragement.

One thing I would like to be clear about. I am going to cut back on OS. I am not going to take a break, or a vacation from OS. Just cut the hours.

Look at it this way. On a typical day I am on OS from noon to 5 pm, then again from 10 pm to 2 or 3 am and sometimes I am on OS part of the time from 5 pm to 10 pm, seven days a week.

Add that up and you get a minimum of 70 hours a week. Say I cut that down to 4 hours a day. That is still 28 hours a week. That is in the ball park that I am shooting for.

A LOT of people who are not retired and addicted don't spend 28 hours a week on OS. So my cutting back is relative to what I have been doing.

OS is way too good a therapy for me to disappear from here. OS is basically good for me. But so are lots of things that if I don't moderate my use of them then they become toxic. That is all I am trying to find: a moderate balance.

Thanks, everybody. Much. You are all such good people, and I am blessed to have found you.

Monte
Ahhh...I get this! I slipped away a couple of weeks ago for various reasons and discovered that I DO have a life! It feels good too. I didn't realize how much time I was spending on OS until I wasn't...I do sneak on now and then to read and get my "fix" but I have broken the hold OS had on my life. The only problem is...I miss you Monte, and all of the other friends I've made here. Balance...yes, balance...that's what I'm striving for too.
Kisses
Monte,
This resonates with me because, like you, I have done these kinds of posts and agree with you about all the above.
It is difficult to gauge the effectiveness of our efforts, as you say. I had some very faithful readers who would actually go around to see the posts and comment but sometimes it seemed like diminishing returns.
My most successful posts were those in which the featured writers themselves would visit each other's posts. That kept it on the feed and introduced new writers to each other.
Am addictive myself so quite understand your efforts to have a life outside these posts as my recent defection shows. I see Critical Mass doing an extraordinary job but also notice that it is CM's full time OS job.
Missing good posts and writers was also a problem as I could not see or include them all. Honoring good writers also carries with it the pain of ignoring others who are equally deserving. It gives you more of an idea of what the editors go through to do covers and EPs. Tain't easy, McGee as my mom used to say.
You have my full support in this and you are a great guy who commands a great deal of respect and fondness here and I am glad to claim you as friend!
peace, brother.
See? Here I was planning on just doing some sporadic lurking today and you sucked me in with this post. :-D

Limits are good. What I've done in order to keep up with those folks that I feel compelled to keep up with is this:
I use Firefox both at work and at home, so I simply make RSS feeds of people I want to keep up with (it's gotten to be a big list of feeds, but I can see at a glance who has a new post). I still check the inbox for notices, and as time permits I go visiting and check out the feed and the "Friend's Posts" column, but I've tried to reduce the number of hours I'm actively reading OS each day. Let's face it; there aren't enough hours in any day to keep up with everyone. However, this post served to remind me I had yet to drag you into my own personal feed. Consider it done. :-D
Right there with ya, Monte.
I feel your pain. But you are doing the right thing. My wife is addicted to OS and it is ruining our marriage. Good Luck.
Love, kiss, dance, live...then write. Writing is about life, not OS...good on ya for realizing you are out of balance right now...
Monte, you are so right. I've been wondering lately where you and my other prolific OS friends find the time, and sometimes I feel I'll never keep up with all the great posts I want to read, let alone the ideas I'd like to write about. I wondered where you find the time -- Well, now I have my answer. I too love OS, love the writers and the feedback and the dymanic nature of the community, but you are so right, we need balance in our lives. Thanks!
An excellent post.
Now would you read my latest? ;-)
rated, of course
Just a quick note to say thank you to those who have added comments since 3 am this morning. I continue to be amazed and thankful for all the comments, the ratings and the number of people who have visited this post. I never thought that someone with some 55 friends on his list would draw so many understanding and generous comments. I appreciate each one.

Bless you all.

Monte
Thank God, here I was, beginning to wonder how I would ever keep up with you and feeling guilty because I could not devote all day to responding to not just your writing but all the other writes I received...

Kidding...I'm a procrastinator....(looking in the mirror of reality)

Be well, be safe but most of all be true my friend,

Ted
Thanks, Ted. I know all about those guilt buttons. Maybe we can both disable some. Wouldn't hurt.

Monte
I am addicted to mostly commenting, and I am trying to keep them and my posts short. It's kind of working. Good luck and keep writing, Monte.
Kay and Late: thanks for commenting.

I don't think that there is any conspiracy. But the fact is that the comment and reply ability is what takes up so much time, and is also perhaps the most interesting and valuable part of OS. Kind of a Catch 22.

Then add to that that we gain friends who are actual friends and we interact with them not only through posts, but through PMs and regular email with some. Then the numbers grow, slowly for me, but now I am at 60+ serious mutual friends. So the GUILT builds that you need to read as many of their posts as possible. That is what friend who support friends do, etc.

...So a friend posts.
....You read it and take your time because you seriously want to clearly understand them.
....Then you read the other comments to see how they are reacting, and some of them are your friends too.
.....So you comment and try to be clear and supportive while still telling the truth and saying something nice that is true, etc.
.....Then you bookmark that thread to go back to it to see if they have replied to YOUR comment.
....So then you go back and maybe they did and maybe they didn't.
.....But you keep going back for a couple of days and give up if they haven't replied.
....Meanwhile there are dozens of posts, just by friends that are piling up all waiting for you to go through the same process all over again.
...Soon you have a dozen or more posts at various stages in that process.
AND
.....You are thinking about what you are going to write, maybe drafting something out on a word processor, etc.

Can you see how innocent that seems, and how it can suck you right in? And, if you are addictive like me, that suck is more powerful than any outside thing vying for my attention.

Monte
I agree with you. I can't keep up. Now that I have a job that drains a lot of time and more energy, it is harder. It can be good to get perspective, though.
Thanks, delia, I think this post hit a nerve and a lot more people have the same problem. Not nice to see, but it does show I am not alone in this.

Monte
I have not posted for about a week now. Though I do read, rate and comment. This is my 12 step withdrawal technique. Best of luck with yours!
Hi, Moana: Hope yours continues to work. What I have been doing is getting on for an hour, checking PM mail, responding and opening any new posts members have sent me notices on, reading, commenting and then shutting it down for the rest of the afternoon, through til Sue goes to bed at 10 pm. Then my OS time is from then til I go to bed at 2 or 3 am. That cuts over half of my time down. Plus when there is a movie or ball game I want to watch, I actually watch it without the computer in my lap. I want to get down to about 4 hours a day. That is a lot for most others but not so much for a retired, mostly confined person. Good luck.

I have also decided to post some chapters of a book I am (was) was working on for my Lenten Reflections. That will save me writing them, just editing a bit to fit this format.

Monte
I am Founder, and I am very new here. I have only posted one long post on my site so far, and written about 8 answers to comments I have received, all of which I have erased after reading and answering them with comments of my own. For me this works.

I have posted elsewhere on the Internet, but OS seems one of the best I have found and I intend to stay. I have listed you as only my second friend, and would like to talk to you about the proper purpose of life. I know that sounds almost trite, and in some ways presumptuous, but that subject is the core of our being and cannot be over-emphasized.

I have written 3o books on my computer, but so far have never submitted one to any publisher. I am now thinking of self publishing all of them as I am able to get it done.

As I develop my blog I will be laying out my recommendations for the standards I believe people should live by. They are based on my interpretation of the Biblical injunctions as I understand them. Much different interpretations, I might add, than any church I have been affiliated with. To me, the Churches seem like sheep to have all gone astray, and to have all got it wrong, and sold out to "the world."

I go strictly by the literal meaning of the KJV, carefully parsed. I have degrees in English, so I am fairly well trained to deal the the KJV which I prefer, while I correct it as need be as I go along.

If you have any interest in my teaching for a good life I will make a special attempt to answer any questions. In any case I respect your lifetime of education, and your Opera favorites, which are my own. I have been listening to Pavarotti every day for months, so good choice there. I also downloaded one of your cat pictures and sent it to my daughter as it looked just like our now passed on cat. Thank you for posting it.

I am at your disposal sir, warts and all. If I didn't think I have what would benefit you, I wouldn't be writing this comment to you. You are in my fervent prayer.
Thank you, Founder. I appreciate you taking the time to comment. I did take a look at your first post and think that it was interesting. And, yes, I do imagine that you will be deleting a lot of comments on your posts, if the first one is any indication. Pay no attention to those who think you are writing satire. Much of what I write they think is comedy. Whatever.

I think you might enjoy my new series of Reflections on the Death of the Messiah.

Monte
Hi Monte,

One of the reasons I've not been on OS since Feb 13 is that once I get started reading and commenting, the day is done! LOL
Hey, JR, you couldn't be more right. I have cut way back and it has allowed me to have a life again. I still am on here more than most, but I am retired. Yet I have cut over half of my prior time on OS.

Monte
Everything in moderation, including blog reading/writing. I tend to jump right in and eat it all up, then when my shoulders and back ache, my husband looks at me oddly, I stop. Now I allow a month to familiarize myself, then I am in-and-out in much more healthy doses.

I appreciate you taking time to get to know this woman. I'm working my way through your entries. One day at a time.
Thanks, Buffy. I hope that you do find interesting things. "A WWII Romance" series is the one I think I put the most into.

Monte
Name´s Donah and I go under GripeVine.. which speaks for itself..
No Mr Monte is not "wise"... just thoughtful he won´t get clobbered by all those attracted to OS.. which is Joan´s pet and bread on the table other than her dog..

To all of you having the feeling you get swamped with what is OS... don´t..!!.. I never did and I´m here for most of the 3 years after I found the outlet.. that is.. at 90 minus a strike or 2 and napping only 3 to 4 times 2-3 hrs a day I am the only human loner next to my dog habitating these widespread premises which are in the not so rich part of the City of Las Palmas on Gran Canaria... in Catholic Spain´s Canary Islands archipel.... ever since wife II kicked the bucket and joined Number 1 Balalaika Girl at Pete´s HonqeeTonq Saloon Up There right around the Corner from His Gate.. Nº II´s "darling son" caused her a fatal brain hemorrhage 3 years ago.... which is "Murder 1" to me so he´d better not come w/i arm´s length.. I´ll slice his throat..

So you may say "yes"... I split my remaining 12 hours per day between OS and others feeding cyber info into the computers; my satellite TV inputs (CNN, BBC, Al Jazeera plus any of the 5 sports channels) just to be kept updated.... eMails come in at the rate of 30-40 a day and notify me by audio from the amplified sound system... and yes.. I do listen to background "noise" (Mr. Monte´s terminology) which alternates between Classic piano (Bach. Brahms. Beethoven , Mendelsohn, organ by Briggs), BlueGrass and Southern Jazz....
Like I said.. I am and live alone.. so I need some companionship.. altho I have a lifetime housekeep who comes in twice a day (!!):- keeps the house uncluttered and keeps us alive by food and trips to the medical fraternities at no specific cost as healthcare is a social fact. (Stateside does not provide healthcare of any sort for their elderly on offshore.. so to me your state based systems stink..)

So to all of you complaining getting swamped.... it´s all up there in your noodlebox.. I don´t.. Meet me privately at as one of you, "podunkmarte" does...

From the GripeVine.... & Donah..//
>>>> Dr Monte...
Is there anything like "Death of the Messiah".??
´Long time ago I noticed there wasn´t any so why "the Death" ??

From the GripeVine.... & Donah..//