All of the raging contradictions of this american life (the life, not the tv show) are roiling below a half dozen layers of my conscious mind.   Like a baking pastry, sometimes a little bit or two escapes its doughy confines, hoping to make it to freedom and clarity and resolution.

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I love Sarah Palin.   I love Sarah Palin.

But, but, but...

1. I do not believe the 2nd amendment guarantees private American citizens the right to bear arms;
2. I abhor the simplistic thinking endemic to red state (as well as blue state) America;
3. I'm pro-choice;
4. I'm an atheist; and
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Hilarious article about the twitterverse on boston.com, Ascent of the social-media climbers:

"Klout score? Learn it or, as Monte would say, be judged. Klout.com is one of a number of new status-measuring tools aimed at making social networking more like high school than it already is. Sites such as… Read full post »

My reading comprehension has exploded with the advent of reading material online.  It looks like science is beginning to return results that for some this is not the case

I do not know what is different about my brain, but I do know I don't learn like most people and my… Read full post »

My mind finally sees the world through the preferred lens.   I am more confident every day in my mental acuity.  Am I still prone to batshit crazy?   Absolutely.   See prior post.  

But is my recent revelation that NYJ's wife is a victim and not the perpe… Read full post »

My mind is everywhere...anonymous...salon...ezra pound...economics...

Rewatched the end of Black Swan and Natalie Portman's depiction of a fractured mind still entralls me.   Ezra pound was in a mental institution, rather than prison, for being an enemy of the state during WWII.    Th… Read full post »

SPOILER ALERT...  scene dressings and sequences from the movie Black Swan are to be discussed in some detail.

Draft Status ... This is the latest, and maybe the last draft, of this essay on the Black Swan / feminism / mental disability

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I love to watch a movie and then read the reviews.

I'm particularly interested in what the "intellectual" press has to say about movies I find I have a strong opinion about.   

I don't see the world as conventionally as published critics, nor as narrowly as my townie society.  &n… Read full post »

me:  accosted by my nine millionth terms of agreement at a google, or google affliliate.   when I see at the end of the agreement to aggree / not agree / try later - I try later

and then they ask

Was this information helpful?

 I respond:

I don't… Read full post »

"She came to Petrograd by train.

Was she smiling all the way?"

I think those are the beginning lyrics to a song I attempted to write about Kira Argounova, the protagonist of Ayn Rand's first novel, "We the Living," over 20 years ago.  "We the Living" was the only… Read full post »

"I faced a lot of criticism as President. I didn't like hearing people claim that I lied about Iraq's weapons of mass destruction or cut taxes to benefit the rich. But the suggestion that I was racist because of the response to Katrina represented an… Read full post »

So, the talking to myself thing is very successful. The blogging about it?  Notsomuch.   There is always hope.

 I let the hubster listen to some of my chats.  Only time will tell how that works out.  This morning I had a relisten to some older ones and found some… Read full post »

Me:  Ring Ring Ring...Ring Ring Ring

October:  Hello?

 Me:    Where the fuck are you? Read full post »

So, today, walking the dogs, I had no interest to listen to myself or talk to myself.  I have no memory of my thoughts.

 I guess I don't feel like talking to myself today?  Or my sense of humor is napping? 

 I bought the September Vogue a few weeks ago… Read full post »

Ok.  So Initial plan to record thoughts and transcribe them herein is a clunky, unappetizing undertaking.

 Plan B was determined to be listening to recordings to have the dialog with myself.  Plan B was named in hindsight.  (Happy sarcasm.)

Additional thoughts on this plan is to… Read full post »

I am recording my crazeh on the iriver but making it easy to come by on the laptop takes work.  Not interested in work at the moment.  I am interested in laughing.

 The realities of our 21st century living are myriad.  

 They hurt.  But we need to transform hurt into… Read full post »

So today is the day I finally begin speaking to myself.

 I am the only person I can speak to who understands me without effort, without being offended, without being hurt by my truthtasticity, and without generating worry considering what the other person is thinking about me, which in turn dera… Read full post »