Betrayed

A Journey
MAY 21, 2011 6:05PM

'entitlements' - not hardly!

On Friday, May 20th, during the second segment of the Diane Rehm Show*, the word 'entitlement' was used in the conversation about Strauss-Kahn, Schwarzenegger, et al - most appropriately, I think. My experience tells me that there is a sense of entitlement among certain people (not just men, not just… Read full post »

DECEMBER 13, 2010 6:59PM

Which witch?

Remember the song from The Wizard of Oz about 'ding, dong, the witch is dead?'

 My Dad died 9 days ago and that's what popped into my head. I'm sad that it's what got triggered but it's too true. I'm sorry for both of us.

He was not overtly… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 11, 2010 12:39AM

A Lesson Learned

I just read a post that reminded me of a very important lesson I've learned through all of 'this' - to turn to gratitude when I can. Instead of praying 'please take this from me,' to say 'thank you for taking this from me.'

Because, soon as I pray 'please take… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 22, 2010 1:46PM

Still There After All This Time

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

How long its been since I've written!

R & I  had an amazing conversation this evening - well, more like an exchange.

Out of the blue, R said, "I hope 'they' live happily ever after for a very long time." Or something to that… Read full post »

I really enjoy Mark Knofler - I think his work is amazing. R and I listen to him often - he is a regular in our CD changer. A while back, he and Emmy Lou Harris did a CD called All The Road Running. One cut is Donkey Town. Here's a… Read full post »

AUGUST 3, 2010 12:52AM

OS issue

Why, oh why, can I not post a comment?

 I've read several wonderfully written, heart-felt pieces and have Rated. But cannot 'Comment.' Frustrating. Not that what I have to say is all that important, but I always appreciate the comments, that someone took the time to do so. Read full post »

JUNE 11, 2010 12:57AM

Happy Birthday, Scanner

Hey, Scanner - I was gonna get all clever (with a really lousy limmerick), but really just want to tell you happy birthday!

You inspire me to be a kind, thoughtful reader, to comment on what I read and be generous in my ratings.

Hope it's a great year! E… Read full post »

MAY 22, 2010 9:49AM

Something worthy

I just read about these people and this project. It's worthy of our attention, and I hope - somehow (even if it's not through me) - it goes viral - it's deserving.

http://project-air.org/index.html

 (And I have always realized that there are much worse things in life than what happened… Read full post »

MAY 14, 2010 8:47PM

Today is my birthday!

Today is my birthday, and I'm glad...

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I have been thinking what I would say to G, should I ever have the opportunity. Today I 'wrote' him a letter (which I'll never mail). Here's what it said:

Monday, April 19, 2010

Dear (nope, anything but 'dear') G-----:

After considering a number of possibilities - including… Read full post »

MARCH 24, 2010 10:03PM

The (belated) Honeymoon

March 24th

I'd really like to be done with 'this.' And with this blog, I'm tired of thinking about it all. Being bounced around, ambushed, shaken. There seems to be so much to say and, then again, so little. I began writing to relieve myself and because I hoped thatRead full post »

FEBRUARY 25, 2010 12:49PM

TRIO - Part 3

It's truly amazing how what you're looking for - when one is sort of looking - pops up everywhere! Like this song (I can count on a good cry every time):

 
 
As with the Dylan song, I insert some of my own words to make it a… Read full post »
So - triggers - pesky things the results over which I had little, if any, control. I'd be ambushed - yes, ambushed - by a trigger and off I'd go: thoughts, movies, snapshots, memories, rollercoaster emotions. A movie scene, TV scene, vehicle, sign, hair style, body build, a greeting card, thoughtless… Read full post »
FEBRUARY 7, 2010 5:08PM

TRIO - Part 1

TRIO - Part 1

In the evenings, R and I enjoy listening to music (we seldom watch TV). We have our favorite CD's in the changer and just let the sound fill the house or the car as we go about this and that. It's something we have

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FEBRUARY 2, 2010 6:22PM

Video Test

JANUARY 27, 2010 8:51PM

Betrayed - revenge

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Had dinner with a friend tonight. Came home with a tension tummy ache - just couldn't relax. Still have a difficult time being gone from R, wanting to get back to him. 

Tomorrow, the 28th, marks two years since I met C. That she was… Read full post »

Friday, January 22, 2010 

Thursday, as I was leaving the club, either C or G passed me in the drive. I didn't want to stare long enough to figure out which it was. R said one of them must be taking a class as they have been there rather regularlyRead full post »

JANUARY 19, 2010 6:58PM

Betrayed - Thoughts

Here's what I thought about today, and often do on other days:

 §                Four years ago, 2006, IT wasn't - yet.

§              &nbsRead full post »

DECEMBER 21, 2009 9:05PM

Betrayed - what do I say next?

What to say next? There's so much that, once again, I don't quite know where to start. So, I'll start here:

We've now passed the two-year mark. It's been a while since I cried over the whole thing. But my body still reacts in a very organic way when sheRead full post »

DECEMBER 1, 2009 5:22AM

Help! Where are the fashion police?

So here we have it. Fabulous open-toe Manolos. Fabulous cocktail suit with short skirt. (Less-than-fabulous legs - what's a girl to do?)

Hose or not! Cu'mon folks, you can do this without even blinking!

NOVEMBER 29, 2009 8:11PM

milestones

It's now been two years since I was told. I've survived. We've survived. Life is good - for real. And it still hurts, big time!

NOVEMBER 20, 2009 3:52AM

betrayed - some recovery

Awed by the writing I see here - wishing I could read each and every tantalizing piece... Awake at a time when I would normally (what is that ) be asleep (read unconscious). Wishing I could write half as well and not just - well - unload.

Had an important conversation… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 17, 2009 9:34PM

Betrayed - a comment

November 17, 2009

I'm writing this post as a 'comment' to an earlier posting that I cannot find. It was from a woman about, to marry, was asking about why women stop enjoying/wanting sex. She seemed, to me, to be thinking that - given just the right attitude - theyRead full post »

NOVEMBER 3, 2009 9:38PM

Betrayed - a recommendation

At first I thought of these posts as a trial manuscript, if you will, for a book I'd write about what I've been through. Hoping it might help someone get through a similar heartbreak - not that I have any magic formula, just my own experience. A book, however, requires someRead full post »

NOVEMBER 2, 2009 10:54PM

Betrayed - another drawing

Here is another drawing that 'just happened.' I was at my work desk, and just began a line, and then another...

 line drawing of r

I think about giving him the original, framed. Think? 

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