Pathology of defeat

I bet on the wrong horse, I made a mistake, I failed. So I gave up. I shall never convince anyone of anything since I am no expert at the pathology of attitude change. Or social behaviour. I shall never make that trip. I shall never write my book. I shall never ever be me the way I had wanted to be me and I give up because I realise that now. I think I have done all I could, Now I simply go with the flow, follow the path of least resistance. I don't think I have the right to say anything at all about persuasion either. That would be dishonest. I made the wrong choices. I miscalculated. So I give up or maybe bec I am lazy I give up - I could also be stupid and not see any other way is why I give up. I do not know. Maybe that is why I have to give up and so I do give up.

Rolling

February 02, 2012 01:23 PM

Or maybe I haven't the patience to wait for change is why I give up? You have to love change passionately to be able to devote your life to lifelong waiting for change and I have not loved change enough maybe? And so I give up.

Rolling

February 02, 2012 01:25 PM

**squeak**squeak**

TwitchyRat

February 02, 2012 01:48 PM

the path of least resistance
is NOT defeat, dear woman.

The Flow can be comforting, as well as utterly constraining.
INSIDE the flow is wherefrom the changes come.
Do you understand? All change is inborn.
From confluence. Confluence.

i have made some very mighty changes from admitting utter
total
defeat.

The sage roams freely in the realm
in which nothing can escape and all endures.
Those who regard dying a premature death, getting old,
and the beginning and the end of life as equally good
are followed by others. How much more
is that to which all things belong
and on which the whole process
of transformation depends (that is, Tao)?
chuang tzu.

resemble water. it carves its mark.

James M. Emmerling

February 02, 2012 02:08 PM

I've been seeing you as a sort of Rosa Parks for India. I imagine she felt defeated a few times, too, and look at the difference she made.

just phyllis for now

February 02, 2012 07:19 PM

What;s to rate?

L M

February 03, 2012 12:36 AM

[r] rolling, very powerfully and graphically "not said" said (that is what is to rate!). I like your style and chutzpah even in your frustration. I am so sorry for the despair and have been there myself and will be again. so often in my life i have felt like that itsby bitsy spider on the water spout having the rain wash me out. life takes sprints and marathons. i am better in temperament for the sprinting (though exhaustion comes) and am learning more and more to face the marathon dimensions of it all. you are precious and wonderful and I pray your energy and heart will soon enough be renewed. they say supposedly God never gives us more than we can handle, but he or she or HP or whatever sure brings us to the very edge sometimes. best, libby