Foolish Monkey

Foolish Monkey
MAGIC TOWN where the old never die, Connecticut,
January 31
*************************** *************************** WARNING: what you read at noon is NEVER the same poem or post a few hours later. I can't help myself. I like to noodle. HELPFUL SUGGESTION: if you like what you've read (and even if you didn't), come back in a day or two. It'll be better. In fact, if you hated it, you must come back and read it again because it will definitely be better. *************************** "I find that I am so excited I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain" -Red in The Shawshank Redemption, Stephen King ***************************


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SEPTEMBER 4, 2011 12:17PM



impenetrable sky cracking like an egg

her shadow palisade in sly electrical undertones

snaking goddess breast of wine

whose wild wind of charcoal velvet

and warm fragrant breath

glance the flesh

with hot gentle tears

first slight


shivering billows… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 1, 2011 2:20PM

long before long before

The Red Lotus

the color of joy surrounds

an ancient draped in lotus molten silk

she hears bells ring

times rushes forward then stops


in a small war of words

of actions

of living

there is rapture in a painful world

reborn embracing dawn… Read full post »

AUGUST 29, 2011 2:14PM





picture one horse

squat(so to speak)

lowly said

a mere draft


with great cow eyes and flaxen mane

appearing quite overblown

as if a tube had been inserted

in oneRead full post »

AUGUST 26, 2011 10:07AM

august eve of a dream

evening sounds

of moistest breath 

gliding from hot tongues

in descending light

toes trace a cool crevice

the grain of polished floor 

beneath hardened smooth skin 

her sigh punctuates 


staring beyond a shimmering wall of glass

she basks in chilled heat

while fleshy… Read full post »

AUGUST 25, 2011 9:21AM

a dream love




ah gentle

in muted tones

mottled blue

one thin shelled egg

cradled in pillowed palms


he follows with lips

tracing soft patterns

caressing dry

the back of my neck

drizzling fine sand

heavy and… Read full post »




I think I mentioned that I’ve been invited by my son and his family to vacation for a week in August, at a dude ranch in Colorado.  Of course I said oh YES! even though I’m a 64 year old woman with not narrow hips, and a negligible… Read full post »

JULY 7, 2011 1:06PM

missing Miss Julia Child


Every so often I go on a search for the elusive Gale Gand cookie sheet.  They are the best I've ever used but they came and went in the blink of an eye.  So today while one of my searches I stumbled across a Baking With Julia episode with Gale/… Read full post »

I drove up to Boston on Sunday with my half of the elder family gene treasury, my exhusband Johnny and his wife Mimi (my bestest best friends) (it's not complicated) (I liked him enough to marry him).   

The boy was in pain on Sunday because Saturday his menfolk meaning dad,… Read full post »

still here

outta my way

teeth chatter in a cup

swat away kiddies with my cane



(ha!) Read full post »

JUNE 28, 2011 7:57PM

standing in line


Sept 12, 2001

We were waiting in line to give blood.  Early that morning the Red Cross had requested donors.  By the time we arrived around 10 AM, there were more than a thousand people waiting, snaked around a tiny strip mall on Long Island.

I can guess that we… Read full post »

JUNE 28, 2011 1:15PM

a song of hope




if only might be tangible

if only

that could i might

touch warm &fuzzy



tips of my soul sown

grown one lively

tender kernel bright

 as any sun

i hear it

so sweetly i yearn

with all… Read full post »

I can't begin to talk about my emotional state right now:  but I can tell you I'm exhausted.  Until I worked it out, I wasn't sure how I was going to see everybody because my grandson Cameron is up in Boston in the hospital and as of last night, my granddaughter… Read full post »


a tiny bull


in my dream the mist clears

over there stands a tiny bull

he is skinned alive 

I feel his pain is savage 

who has done this to you?

I ask but he will not answer

this dream is haunted

on… Read full post »

After a while yesterday, it seemed to me everything was conspiring to make my drive up to Boston difficult and slow.  

First a late start, while packing food, a glass lined thermos exploded all over the countertop, spraying broken glass and sweetened coffee everywhere!

Then while driving with no… Read full post »


As of my last update, Cam continues to improve but there is a serious issue right now.  His doctors decided against the removal of the drainage tubes from his left lung as he has a leak in his lung.  His mom says you can hear it when he coughs and… Read full post »

JUNE 17, 2011 11:40AM

tin sky not blue

 time timeless


i wish i could remember

to forget;him of my days and nights not a father of 

dreams i remember the sound of laughter free


not in a moment of; beneath the tin roof surrounding and loud blackened walls pounding madding noise a sound

fisRead full post »

leaving ICU  

First my apologies for the delay in updating.  Our router kept bumping me off line.  

(Oh we go again....I just want to get this up here!!!)  

(fingers crossed)


News from his mom Patricia TuesdayRead full post »

(Today I'm totally shot plus it looks like my brand new cell phone committed suicide from all the texting.  It's locked me out.  This is not the time for screwball electronics to have nervous breakdowns, so after completing this blog I'm on my way to get this thing looked at.)

I… Read full post »

Rec'd a txt early this AM:  the boy is miserable, in pain, drug addled and moody.  Could I locate a muffin and some movies for him? 

He is not eating. 

After I've showered I'm off on a muffin safari to hunt down the perfect banana nut muffin, a food he mentioned… Read full post »

from his mom: cynthia, i read some of your blog about cam. please thank all your friends for their prayers and thoughts. i'm so so touched by this outpouring of love from all over, by ppl who dont even know cam. thank you.

The boy is good, holding, but a little bit… Read full post »

JUNE 11, 2011 9:22PM

UPDATE: surgery successful!

Cam woke at around 4am in a great deal of pain and according to his mom, was feeling very discouraged.  At that point, his lungs were still pretty weak and they had to put him back on the breathing tube in prep for surgery which made him even more miserable.  Eventually… Read full post »

Surgery postponed until tomorrow, a procedure to remove a large clot in his left lung, residual from days of blood transfusions.   More than 10 units of blood went somewhere.  Some into his system to replace lost blood, some drained.  Quite a bit did not.    

It looks to me… Read full post »

The clot in his lung has shrunken but apparantly it's size is substancial enough that his surgeon Dr. Delnido has decide to go back into Cameron's lung and remove what remains of it. 

More explanation from his mom:  Cam continues to progress.  Dr. Delnido looked at his latest xray thisRead full post »

JUNE 9, 2011 10:59AM

a poem for the boy

steals time 

from a cloud running

out of breath

tall lanky tattered toy

boy windtossed

in colors of spring

never obscured

this boy of the garden

arrives in just in time 

for a day of reckoning

trees sway their sympathetic… Read full post »

cam 6 

 Cam still feeling no pain, in fact MORE out of it because they removed a drainage tube and upped his painkillers for the day, yet there he was this afternoon sitting up, surrounded by his two brothers  - Jeremy (the tall swarthy artistic babe magnet) and Gabe the youngest, coRead full post »