As I toil in my garden, I look for a friendly smile from passersby, hoping that they’ll take a moment from each other’s glance to notice an old lady waving hello,
But their lively conversation is too compelling for them to take a moment to acknowledge a foolish woman who holds on to the hope that one day they will.
The sun goes down and shadows play along the darkening city streets,
Illuminating shapes of those whose boisterous laughter is heard through the canopies of the weeping willows.
I sit alone on my front porch recalling the times when my legs moved just as deftly and I close my eyes imagining my younger self running in time right alongside the others.
My house used to be one of unspeakable joy, but one of the rewards of old age is losing those most precious to you.
It is late and I’m afraid so I walk back inside to prepare my supper but I will set a place for two in the hopes that someone will come by to break bread and share stories with me.
My body is racked with pain as I prepare for bed; it’s one of life’s cruelties for the body to deteriorate leaving your mind ever so aware of how youth once felt.
I will close my eyes and dream of tomorrow when I will once again see my friends: the sun, my garden and the lovely rocking chair that cradles me as I watch my neighbors go by.

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Our elders have feeling too!
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So, true Trishhelen...experience is the best teacher and suffering makes one more empathetic to the trials of others.
Gary, I agree....I think sometimes we fear our own vulnerabilities and if we can just pretend that they don't exist, we can fool ourselves into believing we won't face the inevitable.
Cartouche, your mother is highly favored to have you.
Cap'n.....there is much to look forward to as you age, but it could be that much richer if we reached out to them more. ;-D
beautifully described and pulling at my heart ~
Rated for one lovely human being.
May or may not have provoked my eyes into welling up, too...
You seem to become invisible as You age.
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Old? Not feeble
a folk get a Taxi
to Dark corridor.
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`Take me to Wall Mart
so I can hear another
voice:`a Smily Face?
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`okay, I'll take a sticker
oho, and grin @ plastic
then, go home to love.
`and
Rock in a chair
plant flowers
blessed post.
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`I hug fence post?
This post really 'hit' a tender Place. Mom would have loved to sit.
Again. Onecorgilover.
Bless You. Thanks.
Mom loved flowers.
O, loved cup of tea.
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Remember the advertisement?
I'd walk a mile for a Camel cig.?
She'd rock in a chair and Smile.
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No way ~ Camomille apaisante pour
s'offrir des moments de tranquillite.
I'm sayin' Ya brought me to a Place.
A Place of Memory. Sadness/Joys.
non-duality. I am appreciative too.
I give You a VAMC 2- wheel walker?
I have one. I lend or give. Free to Ya!
We can wheel 'rounds in the woods.
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Ya wrote:`It was sensitive. Perceptive.
Awareness. Concision. It's piercing too.
I know the correct syllables ~ no matter.
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You wrote what is pure and simple ~ true.
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I wept yesterday? I heard something beautiful.
My son:`Let's create a world we wish to live in.
I'll no matures. I am a big mushy idiot crybaby.
I listened as my son was pondering diversity, etc.,
`Wow, who said that? It's in the seed catalogue?
"A Place that people would love to live in!" wow.
Michael James responded: `Ya say that, right?
Ya say that in different ways all day long." sigh.
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I'm reflective. I am gonna meditate on a peanut!
Maybe from grey sky? Drop a chocolate souffle!
Yahoo. I forward? I'd cuddle with you? smacks!
Trudge.....I can relate to pains in the body right now....I can only imagine how difficult it will get later on....ugh.
Thank you, Brie....I appreciate you gracing my blog with your presence today.
Annette, your grandmother is so blessed to have your parents. I'm glad your mom didn't dispute her.....;-D
Sirenita, you make a good point.....we don't realize how taxing our swiftness can be on an older soul. It's a pleasant surprise to see that we take note of things we've missed along the way when we slow down.
Oh, Jeff...thanks for coming by darling heart.....you are always so supportive!
That is so true, Kathy....definite food for thought!
Julie.....I'm willing to bet that you get back so much more than you'd ever dreamed by being there for them, huh?
I called my favorite aunt last night and found out my uncle had broken a hip recently... I hope to go see them soon... this gave me a little push.
Lovely. I can't say more without sounding trite.
PM, I hear you.....I have a feeling that you will be a force to be reckoned with until the very end!
Oh, Penrose.....I had to bust out laughing....you are so right about those older rascals...lol
Oh, Ann and KOB.....you two are true treasures.....thanks!
I see what neighbors and friends and relatives have gone through and I am amazed that they still smile everyday.
We are new friends, so I know little about you, yet I never would have guess you as one of the elderly. Hugs to you, Corgigirl! M
George, that's ok...your secret is safe with me. ;-D
FE and Ash, thank you so much for coming by to read my little story. I'm glad that you both got something out of it.
Duane....you are sweet. This story wasn't about me. ;-D
Awww....DCV....you're going to make me cry! Please call her and I hope that you guys have a wonderful 'visit'!
Arthur, you are ever the gentleman poet. I am glad that I brought you to a place of memory....of your dear mother. I am touched.
BG, I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, but glad that you made the call!!
Marcela & Screaming mama.....it's so good to see you guys here! Thanks for your warm words!
Jess.....I've never heard it, but that will be quickly remedied. Thanks!
Mike, please feel free to share it with your mom.
I agree Cathy.....that would be the cruelest cut.....to age alone.
P & P and Teendoc, thanks guys for lending your support.
I think the same thing, though. Not to mention I'm over half-way there. But I'll see someone really, Really old - in their 90's. I'll say to the girls, sotto: "Look at that lady. She used to be five years old. Picture her as five years old, running and skipping down the boardwalk."
They get these funny looks, pause, shrug, and run and skip away from me.
That's actually a very good point, Connie. I think that we sometimes look at older people as living past their expiration date. They are not seen as attractive, interesting or god forbid still sexual. They really are just like anyone else....just the housing has changed.
And one day (I hope!) about me.