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Outside Myself

Outside Myself
Location
West Coast Body, East Coast Heart, California,
Birthday
January 19
Title
Mom
Company
Don't even have to knock...come on in.
Bio
I am now 43 and perfectly OK with that (but I still love it when my friends say I look like I'm 35!). I've been a mom for over nine years now. I live a rather simple yet difficult life of trying to make sure my daughters are polite, well-educated and know they are loved beyond question. I do my best to give my family whatever they need. And I'm trying to take care of myself. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I am infinitely trying to make people happy, make people laugh, make people feel good about themselves. I compliment often, but only with sincerity. I spend way too much time thinking about what might be the "right" thing to do in any given situation. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx This is a personal journey for me. I have grown in ways I didn't know were possible. AND AN UPDATE: Don't forget your worth. This speaks to everyone, not just me. xoxoxo ~~~~ And thx, B. My heart was beginning to thaw but your beautiful friendship has melted it. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx FURTHER UPDATE: - B, darling, you have brought me love and peace. You sent the words, "Be gentle with yourself." I am able to do so only because you have been gentle with my heart. I love you, soul mate.

AUGUST 20, 2009 2:37PM

I Have No Words ~ ~ ~

Rate: 18 Flag

(I'm sorry for the choppy ending ~ my editing skills are rusty. I also don't know why the video says it's 2:42...it's only a short 1:42. The rest is just black for some reason.  Time to reflect, I suppose.  Cosmic intervention.) 

 

 

 

 

I set out on a narrow way

many years ago.

Hoping I would find true love

along the broken road.

But I got lost a time or two,

wiped my brow and kept pushing through.

I couldn't see how every sign

pointed straight to you.

 

And every long lost dream

led me to where you are.

Others who broke my heart,

they were like northern stars

pointing me on my way,

and into your loving arms.

Well this much I know ~

I know is true ~

That God blessed the broken road

and led me straight to you. 

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Oh, wonderful and fluent. Now you're talking.
Welcome back, OutsideMyself.

Rated.
Wonderful. Did you write the lyrics and arrange the music as well?
Fantastic. It's tough putting yourself out there.
RATED!
Thanks, Thoth. Lovely to be back. XOXO
KOB - It was originally a Rascal Flatts tune then done by a CCM group named Selah.
This is movingly beautiful, just like your heart...words cannot express how happy I am that you have found your way. You are so surely loved and embraced.
I love the version of that song sung by Rascal Flatts. It is one of my wife and my favorite songs because it speaks so clearly to the two of us. We met and married late in life and both went throught "Stuff" before we found each other.
Smithery - I've never felt more loved.
Wally - Adversity ("Stuff") is often what makes us capable of deep feelings, yes? :-) I'm pleased you like this version.
The girl's name Angela \a-nge-la, an-gela\ is pronounced AN-je-lah. It is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "messenger; messenger of God".

Your voice is positively angelic.

And yes, it happens when you're not looking. The italians call it "il colpo di fulmine", or loosely translated in English "the thunderbolt".

Nice to see you've been struck. :-D
You have a beautiful voice. I'm glad you found it again.
gorgeous
and congrats!
That's so beautiful, OM. I am so, so happy for you.
Bill - I am Greek, so you are right onto something. :-) I love the beautiful Italian for Thunderbolt. Again, you are right on the money. I so appreciate your lovely, thoughtful comment.

Smithery - I'm so glad; you deserve it. xo
damn, that is a voice you got on you, girl. This happiness thing's gonna catch on yet.
mamoore - Thank you for those kind words. I've found so much again.

Trig - Im so glad you're here. Thank you and thank you. :)

JK - Interesting you picked out those words. They are truer than I can express!
Ash - My friend! You've been on this ride with me! I'm happy to celebrate with you.

Duane - At the risk of sounding mushy (TOO LATE!!) I wish everyone could feel like this. But they'd have to find a soulmate...which I never thought existed to be honest. Thanks for your friendship, Duaneheart.
Angel with an A. I am so friggin glad to hear you sing so happily. What a wonderful sound you make. You are awesome kiddo.

Your voice matches your name perfectly. Isn't happiness grand?
"Cosmic intervention"

Already happened hasn't it? :-)
I read the comments and I tell myself I have to hear you but you are not here at work so I will make time when I get home to get on my computer to listen. But I am so happy for you and envious in a good way that life is good now.
Bobby - Thank you, my dear, dear friend. And yes, I guess you are right: cosmic intervention already. Now about those Northern Lights...

Lunchlady - The words give you the inside scoop on my heart, but if you listen and like that, too, that would be cool, as well. :-)
They will be bright. Hell, I might be able to see them from here :-)
Beautiful and very calming to the soul. Congrats on finding your way.
Here it is!!!!
Well done girl. I wanted more! Beautiful, beautiful voice.
Very beautiful and good for you!
welcome back... I'm listening to the music and smiling happy for you. rAted!
Bob - ;-)

Fireyes - It is easy to find your way when you're lit up from the inside!

Lunchlady - Thank you, hun. It's been a long time.

Pamela - I appreciate all the positive thoughts!

Chuck - I'm glad to be back, thanks, and I'm so pleased to see YOUR face here.
“And every long lost dream
led me to where you are.”

What a perfect place to be!
- rated
Oh sweetie soooo beautiful. I can't even say anything else.......
gmgaston - Ah, yes. A perfect place to be is in someone's heart. Someone you trust will hold it carefully.

WAH - Thank you, singer girl. That means a lot coming from you. :)
outside myself...is this just enchanting...thank you...xox
So good to hear from you and this is such a wonderful, inciteful poem! Someone got very lucky or the timing was just now right for the two of you! Love how life works it's magic at the oddest times. Cheers to you both!
Robin - Oh my, thank YOU for your sweet words! And I can't say 'you're welcome' for the song without my saying 'thank you' to 'b,' my inspiration. :)

Cathy - We've been asking if it's luck or fate or ...? No real explanation except that we found each other at the precise moment in our lives that we were supposed to.
How wonderful to rediscover one's voice - and thanks for sharing it with us . . . really, really beautiful.
Oh, Angela--I hear your voice, and look at the beautiful pictures, then read the words you just sang. And I smile. And I cry. Your voice touches something very deep within me. And your happiness is overwhelming, beautifully so. I'm very glad you're back. I've missed you. Rated for sheer loveliness and joy. D
What I find remarkable is that I did not decide what image, out of the 14 in the clip, would be displayed in this "pause" position where you hit 'play'. This was done entirely randomly by Youtube. Anyone who has created a clip and used it in a post can attest to that.

Little coincidences keep mounting...and as much as we say we're not surprised anymore, I still get shivers when they happen! :)
Owl - I found it hiding in my heart, and no longer afraid.

Yarn - I've missed you too. I took a picture the other day that reminded me of you!! I wish I could attach files to OS emails! I'm glad you smiled and cried; the overwhelming happiness you sense created what you heard. Again, so good to see you!
Yes, and welcome back. Beautiful. It's downloading slowly. This begins to sooth, immediately.
It is a- hop in a bath tuba time.
I really loved the written lyrics.
I heard some of your soft voice.

You remind me of Ray Charles:`When a Man Loves a Women? But, your skin color is whiter. Oh, sister. Thanks for a Good Morning voice. A lovely soft, singsong. Beautiful. You help listeners see the world clearer through your eyes/spirit. You sing like thee damsel.
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And this shall be for music when no one else is near,
The fine song for singing, the rare song to hear!
That only I remember, that only you admire,
Of the broad road that stretches, and the roadside fire.
- R'L. Stevenson.

I pray you keep singing.
Who taught a warbler?
I say:`Nature's Beauty.
Arthur! Hi, friend! I'm so pleased you liked the song. I recorded it at least 10 times sitting at my desk and then realized I was just trying too hard. I told myself to stand up and sing it for the man it was intended...and this is the recording. From the heart.

"Who taught a warbler?
I say:`Nature's Beauty."

Yeah, no lessons here, just a love of singing. And now, a love.

I'm glad you were here!!!
Natalie - Thank you very much.
Lovely music and the video to accompany it. And I thought the poem was super! Rated
Sometimes it takes a little outside help to find ones self...whatever it took for you, I am thrilled for you that it happened. That you share it with us is love indeed. And if there are bumps along the road - remember that is all they are and where you are in this post is so very very real. Much love to you. And thank you.
Ralph - Thank you; I'm so glad you liked it.
Just listening again...

Thank you for this.
You are welcome, b.
I love you.