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Outside Myself

Outside Myself
Location
West Coast Body, East Coast Heart, California,
Birthday
January 19
Title
Mom
Company
Don't even have to knock...come on in.
Bio
I am now 43 and perfectly OK with that (but I still love it when my friends say I look like I'm 35!). I've been a mom for over nine years now. I live a rather simple yet difficult life of trying to make sure my daughters are polite, well-educated and know they are loved beyond question. I do my best to give my family whatever they need. And I'm trying to take care of myself. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I am infinitely trying to make people happy, make people laugh, make people feel good about themselves. I compliment often, but only with sincerity. I spend way too much time thinking about what might be the "right" thing to do in any given situation. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx This is a personal journey for me. I have grown in ways I didn't know were possible. AND AN UPDATE: Don't forget your worth. This speaks to everyone, not just me. xoxoxo ~~~~ And thx, B. My heart was beginning to thaw but your beautiful friendship has melted it. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx FURTHER UPDATE: - B, darling, you have brought me love and peace. You sent the words, "Be gentle with yourself." I am able to do so only because you have been gentle with my heart. I love you, soul mate.

NOVEMBER 1, 2009 2:22PM

Oh How I Hate to See October Go...

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When October Goes

And when October goes 
The same old dream appears 
And you are in my arms 
To share the happy years 

I turn my head away 
To hide the helpless tears 
Oh how I hate to see October go

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This is all I can muster right now...some words to the song that made me weep in his embrace... 

 

October

 

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You teaser. Still, it sounds like it went really well!
I hope the good just keeps coming your way!
I knew it'd be tough for you guys to see the end of October. May it happen again very, very soon. Happiness deserves a permanent home for you.
Duane - Words fail me so I'll say an entirely inadequate "yes." I'll try to find words soon. Thanks for being here, dear friend.
Lunchlady - It will; now I know it will. :-) Thank you, darlin'.
Bobby - Far more difficult than I ever anticipated. But now I know happiness will always be ours......and although 'soon' would be lovely, it's not possible. Spring, perhaps. (I'm so glad you're back!)
Come on! Pictures? something..
Beautiful. But we're fans here. give us more.

Rated.
I'm so happy for your happiness, and so glad that good is rolling in!
Love is a splendid gift, made so much more so when found unexpectedly and with such promise.
You know I'm happy for you...
Oh how I know and hate that feeling. Its so so sooo good, but so bad at the same time.
Eagerly awaiting more pics, like the rest...
You make me smile.........and sigh........and maybe feel a tear that doesn't quite fall. Thank you. Rated. D
Trig - Pictures are forthcoming, as is some sort of expression of my thoughts and feelings. Stay tuned, friend.

Thoth - Thanks for reading this. I am still taking it all in...be patient with me. Didn't mean to tease...it's just difficult to put into words and I didn't expect that.

Owl - Thank you! Yes, much good...and I will corral my thoughts soon.

WA - I do know you're happy for me. Gosh, to say this was a surprise is an understatement, eh???
S_M - You are so special. Yes, soooo good and sooooo bad. But I'll take both. (And don't give up hope for YOU - I haven't!!) :)

Yarn - Dear friend. I like how you describe your thoughts...verrrry interesting...I get it. Oh, I do.
While you're waiting for me, here is a snapshot:
http://open.salon.com/blog/smithery/2009/11/01/a_moment