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Outside Myself
Location
West Coast Body, East Coast Heart, California,
Birthday
January 19
Title
Mom/Provider
Company
Don't even have to knock...come on in.
Bio
I am now 44 and perfectly OK with that (but I still love it when my friends say I look like I'm 35!). I've been a mom for over 11 years now. I live a rather simple yet difficult life of trying to make sure my daughters are polite, well-educated and know they are loved beyond question. I do my best to give my family whatever they need. And I'm trying to take care of myself. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I am infinitely trying to make people happy, make people laugh, make people feel good about themselves. I compliment often, but only with sincerity. I spend way too much time thinking about what might be the "right" thing to do in any given situation. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx This is a personal journey for me. I have grown in ways I didn't know were possible. AND AN UPDATE: Don't forget your worth. This speaks to everyone, not just me. xoxoxo ~~~~ And thx, B. My heart was beginning to thaw but your beautiful friendship has melted it. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx FURTHER UPDATE: - B, darling, you have brought me love and peace. You sent the words, "Be gentle with yourself." I am able to do so only because you have been gentle with my heart. I love you, soul mate.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx And now, it's been 18 months... So incredible to recall where I was and where your love has taken me...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx And now, two years have passed since those first simple PMs...

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MARCH 9, 2010 10:07AM

Now Don't You Ever Go Away Again, You Got That???

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Hello, my dear, dear friends on OS.

I can't start out by saying anything other than a deeply felt thank you.

I have been gone from OS for what seems like months although in reality it's only been 17 days.  Wow, how does it feel like it's been a lifetime?

Well, it likely feels that way to me because I have had some serious personal issues to address.  These affected my life greatly but most importantly, they affected my daughters' lives tremendously...and forever.  This required my full attention, as many of you know that my girls are my highest priority.

The changes in our lives will absolutely be for the best but it was a difficult process and one I could never have navigated without the love and support of Smithery and you beautiful people on OS.

I can't count the number of you who sent me such special PMs, offered your personal email addresses, your home and cell phone numbers, a beautiful card in my own personal home mail, words, thoughts, poetry...and even checking up on me again as I remained silent.

We've said it time and again - OS IS a community and frankly, without the sneaking suspicion that y'all would still be here when I got back, I would have remained silent indefinitely.

I know I owe some of you return emails and with love in my heart, I will now begin getting back to them.  And I'll be getting back to writing.  And reading!!  What have I missed?!?!

 

But mostly - THANK YOU for the loving words of encouragement and support.  It means more than I can ever, ever express to you.

I missed you.  

Now don't you EVER go away again, you got that???

:-)

 

With love,

Angela

 

 

 

 

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Angela, this made me smile this morning and I really didn't believe I had a smile in me today. It is wonderful to see you back on these pages, my dear.
So glad you're back sweetheart.

~xoxoxo~
But, in mid-March it's time to hang dyed Easter up. Easter bunnies with hemp rope are tied from acorn nut trees in suburban DC. It's the season to smell crocuses, daffodils, and wear Mickey Mouse Ear Hats. Trees need pruned.
It's time to go daydream.
Hang Christmas wreath.
Go hug baby jesu creche.
Join de cook kale school.
Repeat my kindergarden.
I feared Ya were married.
No merry St. Patrick tho.
Green people are cranky.
Welcome back.
Welcome home. You're late. I waited up for you, though. And left a light on. ;-D

Glad to see you back, Angela.
Welcome back, A. This is a sweeter place with you here.
Welcome back, Angela. Missed your presence as I thought often of you, and hoped everything would be alright soon.
I am so glad your "home"!
So glad you're back!
Welcome back OM. Much love to you.
Smithery ~ You were and are my rock.
~xoxoxo~
David - I do understand that sentiment, sweetie, and I'm humbled that I made you smile. I have much catching up to do but please know you've been on my mind.

Sandy - Ha-ha! I can say that I've never heard WalMart used as a verb...

Art - As always, you say and know so much. Missed you!

Bill - I saw the light in my heart and I am so grateful to you for it. It's nice to be back.

Lea - Well that just made me misty. Thank you, hun.

Fusun - Gosh, I thought about you, too. It's so nice to see your smiling face again!

LL - It's good to be "home" - really and truly.

Owl - So glad to be back - it seemed like forever!

Jill - Thank you, sweetheart. Much love back.

Froggy - Thanks!!

WAH - I missed you too. And thank you...you know. Very special person, you are.
It's good to have you back.
Jeff - Thank you, so much. And belated birthday again...I have to get to those stories... :-)
Welcome back, hon. You were missed :)
Good to see you're back. And as Groucho might say, good to see to the rest of you too!
Wanderer - Oh, thank you. I missed you tons.

Sheep! My back is my best side! (But not my backside. ;) It's great to see you, too.
It's GREAT to see you back, Angel with an A. See my PM
Welcome back! It is not the same when you're not here! I hope everything is now OK!!
Angela,

This made my day - through and through!!! So glad you can come back now my friend and I hope all is well on the home front now. The love here is unconditional - can't wait to read some more work from you and hear that lovely voice of yours one day soon! :)
so glad you're back! hurray!
Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. I'm gettin' teary over here!

Bobby - Wow, you've been here since the beginning of this journey, my dear friend. Thank you for the PM. I sent a long-winded one back. :-)

Scanner - Everything is getting OK and will continue to improve as things shake out. I've missed your bright presence and am glad to get back to reading your posts.

Sparking - Thank you so much for the beautiful PMs and I am just so grateful for your friendship. I feel immeasurably better to be back home here on OS!

FLW - YOU my dear are one special lady. The kindness you extended was beyond amazing. Hugs to you.
I like your title! When I discovered this I thought of a second chance for a relationship with someone from my past. If it happens I won't ever go away again.
Kevin - Welcome! I am so very glad that my title caught your eye and that it has its own meaning for you. On that note, let me say that I like your attitude and so -- "Go for it!" if that opportunity presents itself. Have a super day!
Nice to have you back in the fold.
R
Donna - Ahhh, back in the fold. Feels more like back in the HUG.
:-)
Angela - how wonderful to have you back! (((((BIG HUGS))))) to you!!

~R~
Yes, ma'am; he did get the message. Lovely piece.
Rated.
Hi there, OM. I trust things are OK. Suppose they more or less must be if you're back on here. That's good.
see? i do a head-down, outta sight thing for a week or so, then go to chicago for four days, come back and wonder where everyone is and ... now i find out you were MIA on purpose. when i had just chalked it up to "something must have happened when i wasn't here."

i'm almost glad i didn't know because i sure would have worried about you. but i'm very very glad you're back and fine. OS wouldn't be the same, angela. love back, C.
Glad you are back. Also glad that you took the time to tend to your priorities. So few people anymore can even figure out what those are, let alone take care of them.

Monte
Not sure what all went down, but I love having you around. :)
Glad you are back...I wish I were around more often, but hey...as you said, "... have had some serious personal issues to address. These affected my life greatly..." I know the feeling.

I'l also be trying to catch up, but at some point you just have to dive in the deep end.

Kiss
Angela, I'll just wish you wholeness, for you and your daughters and with Smithery, too. Welcome back.
Robin - Love right back atcha!

Unbreakable - K, it's wonderful to be back. I can't believe how long I felt gone... HUGS!

Thoth - Oh, it wasn't aimed at Smithery - he's never been a minute away from me. The "Don't go away again" is my goofy way of telling OSers that I won't let them go. Ever. So darn glad you were here!

Boanerges - Things are indeed more or less OK. Moving forward is appropriate to say, I suppose.

Femme - See, C? You're not allowed to go away, either! I'm glad I didn't have you worried...I was worried enough for both of us. :-) Missed your sweet voice.

Midwest - Thanks, hun.

JD - My newest friend...thank you...

Monte - My priorities are always my girls and over time, I am learning that I ought to take care of me, too. And if I don't, Smithery is right here to make sure he does (and he does anyway :).

Lainey - You're not in the dark any more than most. Just personal stuff that I won't exactly splash all over the pages. But I'm on a new path...the right path. And I'm grateful that you were here. You know I dig you. :-)

TINK! Hey, thanks, you sweet guy!

Sheila - Life has certainly been challenging... How fortunate for all of you that you and Mel and David had some time together. You're a darling person. We're all lucky you're here whenever you can be.

Charlie - That is the sweetest wish. You have no idea. Thank you, dear.
It bears repeating...

I missed you guys...
Whew... Now I can relax! :-) Welcome home. Hope life is nicer for you and your girls now and in the future.
Glad you're back. Hope everything is settled. Love ya! (Don't tell Smithery.)
It's so good to hear (read?) your voice again.
Natalie - Thanks so much. Life is moving in the right direction and some things will certainly be nicer for everyone. Thanks for being here for me.

Pilgrim - Well, I wouldn't say settled but working itself out and the rough edges will smooth out eventually. I love ya too - and Smithery already knows. :-)

Stim - Thanks. It's good to see you too, hun.
I am glad to hear that you have had an outpouring of support during your absence. We all need that from time to time.
tai - Yeah, it coulda gone the other way! There could have been an outpouring of support FOR my absence! Whew!
I too, have been a tad distant, late gettin' this.... OS is a better place with the return of a few, great to find you well, and back Angela...
Patrick - Never too late to a post of mine, hun! And thank you for the kind words. I love being here with people like you, too.
I was thinking about you the other day and did not make the time to email you. Forgive me for being lazy/busy and unable to find a middle ground! Good to hear from you.
xoxoxo,
S_M - It is I who owe YOU an email. The one you sent helped...sorry I didn't relay that. Hugs to you. xoxoxo
So happy to have you back! You've been greatly missed.
Gwendolyn - Thanks so much. I missed y'all a ton!