When you find what you were never searching for...
- West Coast Body, East Coast Heart, California,
- January 19
- Don't even have to knock...come on in.
- I am now 45 and perfectly OK with that. I've been a mom for over 12 years now. I live a rather simple yet difficult life of trying to make sure my daughters are polite, well-educated and know they are loved beyond question. I do my best to give my family whatever they need. And I'm trying to take care of myself.
I am infinitely trying to make people happy, make people laugh, make people feel good about themselves. I compliment often, but only with sincerity. I spend way too much time thinking about what might be the "right" thing to do in any given situation. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx This is a personal journey for me. I have grown in ways I didn't know were possible.
AND AN UPDATE: Don't forget your worth. This speaks to everyone, not just me. xoxoxo ~~~~ And thx, B. My heart was beginning to thaw but your beautiful friendship has melted it.
FURTHER UPDATE: - B, darling, you have brought me love and peace. You sent the words, "Be gentle with yourself." I am able to do so only because you have been gentle with my heart. I love you, soul mate.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx And now, it's been 18 months... So incredible to recall where I was and where your love has taken me...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx And now, two years have passed since those first simple PMs...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxAnd now, three...
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MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “Owl!! - Hi there! I'm so
pleased you came here to read!
journey has indeed
August 21, 2013 05:21PM
- “LL2 - That could work.
You and I could probably meet
sooner than that,
August 21, 2013 11:46AM
- “Out on a limb - Welcome!
As long as the world doesn't
without me, I'm
August 17, 2013 10:22PM
- “Nilesite - So true. Just
out of reach for now, but
waiting... Thank you
August 17, 2013 11:18AM
- “Femme - Yes, we both
wish we were already there,
but the days
August 17, 2013 10:05AM
Outside Myself's Links
- MY LINKS
It is one that finds my daughters, your daughters
and your daughter, my own
and our home is no longer just long-distance talks on the phone
about French doors and curtains blowing in the breeze
and the soft sheets on our bed
as thunder surrounds
about the color of… Read full post »
Actual email conversation between me and my corporate travel agent of three months, who is utterly non-communicative except for basic flight information.
I'd had enough.
To: Cynthia (@ionlyworkheretravelangency.com)
From: Angela (@newawesomecompany.com)
Da… Read full post »
I know, I know - - get in line!
Is it really too much to ask for, though?
I have worked in a start-up biomedical devices company as the third person hired and took care of everything from office equipment to HR to supporting the CEO. I really liked my boss, and… Read full post »
I always knew I could love someone every day of my life. I knew I had the capacity to give everything in my heart.
I just also knew that I would be older.....before I could begin to look for love......when my girls were out of the house and I could take… Read full post »
If you click on the words below, you'll get an idea of the simplest of things we share.
A little video I sent to Smithery a while back...the view from my window.
Faith. This youngest child of mine. She talks in her sleep.
She just turned 10 years old not two weeks ago.
When she talks in her sleep (sometimes she and her sister sleep with me) I grab my iPhone and immediately write what she says.
A couple of… Read full post »
"Do you want to share some Indian food? I'm ordering from the place across the street."
She doesn't know if she likes Indian food but since she's starving, she says to her co-worker, "Sure, I'm not picky." Then she remembers that when she first started work… Read full post »
Or walking down?
Hmmm... Read full post »
When Grace was little - oh, between the ages of two and five - she used to ride on this pink and teal Big Wheel-type plastic tricycle. I don't remember where I got it, but it was used. Thrift store? Garage sale? Dunno.
This little vehicle had only one plastic ha… Read full post »
Today is not your typical OS Anniversary.
Today, I do not celebrate my one year anniversary on the site.
Today, I do not celebrate my two year anniversary on Open Salon.
No, both of those moments have already passed.
Today, I celebrate the two year anniversary of the day a… Read full post »
I posted this a long time ago and although I'm mostly MIA these days (that will change soon!), I've quietly watched enough lately to decide that this would be a good re-post! :-)
Not intended to diminish… Read full post »
I know! Who would give a chili that name? I assure you, it was not the maker of the cookbook from which I obtained this recipe many moons ago.
Yes . . . I'm afraid that I gave it that name.
Logic, of course!
It makes a ton. It freezes… Read full post »
An explosion lives in my soul right now.
I grew up in San Bruno. Went to school. Played sports. Had Homecoming and Prom in high school. Walked to the 7-11. Slid down the hills on cardboard boxes. Had my first kiss behind the… Read full post »
My heart ~
you hold so gently.
it is simply liquid,
barely holding together,
wanting to fall to the ground.
you cannot allow it.
You will not let it.
you gently hold that heart...
tr… Read full post »
Last year I lost 35 pounds and I was simply giddy about it!
I lost about 10 just before my daughters' school year ended and over the summer, I set my alarm for 5am and walked the neighborhood for 60-90 minutes. I did this… Read full post »
I know it. I've seen it. I get it.
It can be the kiss of death as an OS participant to admit that you've been absent because life has gotten in the way, and you're unsure of your ETR (Estimated Time of Returning).
There's sometimes this unintentional sigh of relief....."Whew… Read full post »
Little Opie Cunningham! This was sweet OM; I haven't seen this musical since I was a kid; thanks for posting.
I had been seeing Smithery's comments around OS in prior months, and he was SO wise and thoughtful and warm… Read full post »
No, no, I'll be fine. Just checking on some chest pains.Oh, as a note to the ER Registration nurses out there, if someone comes in at 5am with chest pains, could ya just APPEAR to be moving quickly? :-) Actually, she didn't even check…
Me, my dad and my sister Renee - in our back yard.
I was probably 3 years old - and had really chubby cheeks!
My sister Renee, my dad and me - at Niagara Falls (I remember thinking it was cool that Dad and I… Read full post »
In response to Kim Gamble's Open Call, I offer the words below that brought me to tears...the best kind.
Smithery and I are very careful to keep most parts of our romance to ourselves. We don't "play to the cameras" - we don't say or do or write things th… Read full post »