OK, it can't just be me.

Sometimes, I hum your name as I wander through the kitchen.

Sometimes, I repeat your name over and over in my head until I'm annoyed (but in a nice way ;). 

Sometimes, I wonder what on earth led you to your name.

Sometimes, I want… Read full post »

It's no accident that I chose to write under a pseudonym.  I knew, going into it, that there would be things that I wanted to write about that I hoped to heaven no one who knew me could ever find.  Ever.

I know most of you know me as a nice… Read full post »

Each Valentine's Day

I remember you.

Each Valentine's Day

I remember

the pain.

You caused.

And now

after all these years...

. . . David . . .  

I imagine you can't know

the damage you've done...

lasting.

You changed my life.… Read full post »

She had been asked to help with pre-need decisions.  Her parents thought it was time that they set their affairs in order; determine what their options were for "When The Time Comes."

The daughter didn't want to argue.  Ten full years earlier, she had been flustered and refused when her mot… Read full post »

I wasn't planning to post today, but as happens to me so very often, I see that others need healing and a positive message, and I want to help however I can.

So to those who are hurting, to those who have struggled with a career, or with parents who are ill,… Read full post »

 Faith (l) and Grace (r), back when they were 4 & 5

Visiting a local historical home on Grace's birthday 

 I WISH

 Every "wishberry" - each dandelion -

you grasp excitedly in front of your lips.

Your eyes gleaming.

You close your eyes

concentrating.

You bl… Read full post »

"I have a surprise for you," he whispered.

I, loving surprises more than almost anything on the planet - yes, even more than Doritos or the Food Network - was completely enthralled! 

 "A surprise?!"

"Yes," he said, "on Monday, after our second night in Philadelphia."

"OK, don't tell me, but… Read full post »

To bring some holiday cheer, I wrote this little song and once again, just recorded it with the built-in mic on my iMac (I'm not even sure where it is, I just sing towards the screen! :)

He did the illustrations yesterday so I could make this into a YouTube video… Read full post »

As we walked, you held my hand.

Or did I hold yours?

Neither.

One.

We wandered aimlessly.

Holding hands.

Holding hearts.

Safe.

I always felt safe.

Wandered into that dark wood restaurant for lunch.

I began to sit...

"Here. Sit here."

I knew.

Immediately.

The gentleman assures that the l… Read full post »

As I've mentioned recently, I used to sing in a quartet.  

Four women.  Acapella.

We did not live close to each other geographically, but we were close friends which made the experience a most enriching one.

We were: 

• One gal in her 30's, one in her 40's,

… Read full post »

Hello, my dear, dear friends on OS.

I can't start out by saying anything other than a deeply felt thank you.

I have been gone from OS for what seems like months although in reality it's only been 17 days.  Wow, how does it feel like it's been a… Read full post »

I never had grandparents.

Well, naturally, any good human sexuality class will tell you I HAD grandparents.

I never loved grandparents. Never knew them. Never met them.

I've come to learn that it is not uncommon for my parents' generation to remain silent regarding their family histories where unplea… Read full post »

I was tired of the ugly.

Sorrowful for the hurting.

Frustrated for the helpless.

 I even began feeling sorry for myself...

And I was ready to end communications for the night...I said I wasn't very good company.

You stayed.

You didn't run.

You wer… Read full post »

This song is dedicated to anyone who wonders if there is someone reading their posts.  Sometimes you may feel you are writing alone, but believe me, there is someone here for you. 

We're here for you!

And we're worth writing for!

 … Read full post »

 Q:  What vegetable do plumbers like? 

A:  Leeks!

(Wow, that was stupid.) 

(* BTW, leeks are different from green onions/scallions.  They are about 5x larger and the stalks are very tough.)

Since my cookbook addiction post, I've thought a… Read full post »

Dearest Barry, 

I will never find the right words to convey what you mean to me...how you have changed my entire life and indeed saved it.  My heart was in despair and my life was lived in… Read full post »

Monarch Butterflies 

I have over 300 cookbooks.  Don't adjust your screen or your bifocals (but feel free to grab another beer if you think that will help), you read that right.  I've never been a "clothes horse" or a "shoe person" but I have a bit of an obsession with… Read full post »

I waited.  I hoped.

I begged in agony in the poorest echoes of my being.

I wanted. I cried.

With no tears to slip down my cheeks.

And then a flower lifted her torn petals to find your warmth.

There must be a balance.  The gracious friendship… Read full post »

I've spent some time thinking about Torman's Open Call and thought I would answer that question when I came up to my one year blogiversary, which I will.

However, it dawns on me that there is a greater question at work in my own heart and that is "Why DON'T I… Read full post »

Life.

It may not hold a place for us.

What if, in the last breath, we are separated? 

Now.

Now is not within our grasp.

But I fear tomorrow.

A tomorrow without you.

What if there is no tomorrow?

And today cannot begin until then?

 … Read full post »

I love to sing; it transforms moments into something with wings.  Some days, I sing better than others.  My perfectionism tells me some days, "UGH! I can't believe people used to listen to you sing," and then there are days where something clicks ("In the zone" as we called it when… Read full post »

...you might want to stop reading right here.

I am SO not miserable.  I'm not even sure what exactly I should write; what's appropriate to write.  I know folks here say they don't judge yet I'm frankly not worried about being judged.

I'm in that "Shout it From the Rooftops" place.… Read full post »

Open Salon ~ July 3, 2009.

A simple message sent with innocence.

A simple reply sent with innocence.

Real Life ~ January 3, 2010.

Two hearts that are no longer lonely.

Two souls that were moving towards each other for 42 years.

I want to reside in… Read full post »