For someone who talks as much about courage as I do, I certainly have a problem dealing with fears. I know that exercise would help and plan to do so today. I gain distance and detach this way.
Speaking as a Conscientious Objector/pacifist and loyal American, I hope and pray that our military who are in harm's way in foreign lands will be home as soon as possible.
I want to get on that poetry manuscript sometime today. I said want to, rather than must do. As you know, I don't like to succumb to a "should" mentality, though sometimes it is necessary to undertake a should.
I also want to go to the open mic again; well, honestly, I have mixed feelings. I will need to sort them out. It's okay and normal to have mixed feelings. How often are we totally certain.
In the last chapter I read from Coach K's book, he talked about the importance how each person, uniquely, expresses their insecurity and, alternately, their confidence. He reads their nonverbal cues.
Just listened to Howie Day's "Collide" again. I am very impressed, with the lyrics and with his controlled passion. You can tell that he really "feels" that song and pours his soul into it. I have learned a lot from his performance.
An OS friend mentioned that she perceived that I was in a certain mood. I appreciated that. While steadiness is a virtue, the fact is that it is normal to pass in and out of certain moods. It is not pathological.
I am much better at assertiveness and unequivocal honesty lately.