...and lazy self absorbed blitherings (see my posts) .
....and trite observations (I also help here).
....and more crazy (me, not so much. Rather sane. Little drama, but man, there is a lot of it here).
...and then there is just...the mean (I take my mean elsewhere).
And every once in a while someone writes something good. (Emma Peel comes to mind...she usually comes to mind...Beth Mann...oh I have favorites, yes I do.. )
Mostly though, seems to be a lot of unintelligible private-yet- for-some-reason-public in fighting, quickly retracted flouncings, hinted at high drama, and bizarre alliances.
This seems to be a place that attracts the unstable and gives it a warm cocoon of acceptance and encouragement. When a regular "Salon Letters" meanie comes in here and comments on the silliness of the piffle here, and I catch them, I am half horrified for the person on the other end of that harshness (I have been on the receiving end of it too, by the way, and for a piece I was most proud of!), and also, quietly, uncompassionately....kinda glad they were called on their shit.
I dither here, back and forth, Not At ALL considering myself a writer, as I tend to write in a manner that is both tick-ish and juvenile, I can't spell, and my topics are frequently trite....when they aren't badly written horror stories of my past. ME ME ME, and once again ME. How tiresome.
(..and please don't counter the above with nice and encouraging words. I know my own worth, I know my own talents...I know what I am NOT good at as well, and you don't need to prop me up. I am not that fragile.)
I'm here for other's writing, rather than my own pats on the back, but I have been generously, undeservedly rewarded for my lazy efforts, far more than I deserve.
I have decided I really don't want to write about me any more, unless the reference to self is completely fucking unavoidable.
I am really bored with me.
I'm kinda bored with some of you too.
And I think some of us, and I put myself at the top of that list, can do better.
Or at least have the good sense to shut up and read, instead.