- Small Town, Indiana, USA
- November 13
- Blogging with PTSD
"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia
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August 19, 2014 01:42PM
- Dare to Climb
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August 10, 2014 08:12PM
- Going Home Again
August 03, 2014 09:01AM
- Learning About Me
August 01, 2014 03:29PM
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and hoping things are
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- “Moses supposes his
toeses are Roses,
For Moses he
August 17, 2014 02:43PM
- “I hope the universe
coughs up that good news for
August 16, 2014 10:38AM
- “Maybe you need to quit
planning this move and take
paycheck and start
August 16, 2014 10:27AM
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It’s fall again, and a new school year is slowly unfurling. This week is Freshman week, where they all come to campus to learn their way around and get settled into their new digs. It’s interesting, wondering what is going through their heads. I’m trying to remember wh… Read full post »
Once upon a time, in a land far, far, away, I planned how to kill myself. I worked for a veterinarian at the time and had access to all of the controlled substances in the clinic, he was the trusting sort even after we caught one of the kennel guys stealing… Read full post »
I am supposed to be cleaning my house, the realtor is coming tomorrow to take pictures for the listing. I took a four day weekend to make progress on it and I did pretty good, but I didn't do as good as I could. Now that my phone battery is… Read full post »
When I moved back to Indiana in 2001, I thought that I could go home again, find myself, and start over. I thought that was reconnecting with old friends and finding a man to have a family with, being 38 at the time I figured I had a few good years… Read full post »
I am sitting in the waiting room at the VA, waiting on Dad to have an endoscopy. I must be missing that spark that others see as Dad’s charm, or maybe I’ve just known him for too long. We were talking yesterday as he was sitting in my house and he… Read full post »
My kitchen and living room are almost ready for pictures, it’s been a long week of sorting and boxing. I have a trunk and backseat full of stuff to take in to the bin, to get it out of the way. These rooms are pretty big when they’re empty-ish. I caulked… Read full post »
Today, I am sitting on the sofa watching Maverick and trolling Facebook. What I need to do is finish sorting out my house and recaulk my bathtub. I made good progress this week, the living room is almost done. I have a giant bag of paper trash that I am going… Read full post »
I don’t want to be anywhere. I just realized that as I stood up and looked out of my bedroom window. I want to sell my house, throw away all of my stuff, quit my job, and go live in my car. My car can be parked at different locations every… Read full post »
I just got a peaceful feeling, sitting on my sofa and looking out of the kitchen window. It was a reminder of why I bought the house 11 years ago. I have had that feeling a lot while I've lived here, but I have also had a lot of frustration and… Read full post »
Time marches on, as it always does, and I am making myself remember every day that Puff won't be sitting on her heating pad waiting for me to come into the living room. I'm making progress. Tuesday morning, as I was showering, I realized that I had nothing left that I… Read full post »
I had a pergola built Monday, I finished it off with mulch, bricks, and a rock last night. I am just not feeling very excited about it right now, for obvious reasons, but it is a lovely structure. The current bench won't be staying in it, I was thinking a swing,… Read full post »
August 29, 1994 - July 7, 2014
Rest in Peace, my little Poo Poo Kitty
I woke up at 3:00 this morning with a panic attack. I don't have the disabling type where I would feel like I'm having a heart attack, I have the type where I'm scared and shaking. They’re still not something I'd recommend to anybody, and they seem… Read full post »
The black pit of depression has been hanging out with me again, dragging me to early sleep every night that is tossed with dreams, encouraging me to ponder the meaning of life, finally coalescing into one question: To What Purpose?
I should lose weight. To What Purpose?
I should get… Read full post »
There’s an old saying, “Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I have spent a large amount of time wishing to be free of my job and to have the time to take care of myself. I may be one step closer to that goal.
My… Read full post »
It is Memorial Day weekend again and, if you are a gardener, you know that this is the last possible weekend to have your garden planted. I squeaked mine in this weekend. I am dead dog-tired right now, (spouting colloquialisms seems to be a side effect) but I know I accomplished… Read full post »
I had to move my blue lilac plant. It was in the way of the new fence that is going in this Friday, so it needed to be moved or killed. I opted for moved.
First, I dug a hole. It's about 3' in diameter. Isn't this wonderfully round! I have… Read full post »
It seems that today is
Limerick Day celebrates the birthday of Writer Edward Lear (1812-1888). It also, of course, celebrates Limerick poems. Limericks were popularized by Lear in 1846 in his Book of Nonsense".
This day is a time to enjoy and get your fill… Read full post »
What do we do when no one is home
When life has left us to live it alone
Where do we turn when we have to be friends
How do we answer when we don’t know where we’ve been
Who do we cling to in depths of… Read full post »
It is, finally, warm enough to garden! And what do I get for my excitement but a smashed thumb?! I tell ya, it is a good reason to slow down and enjoy your labors, as well as a good reason to find different ways to do things. I am not going… Read full post »
Live the life you want to live. Not the life that you think you deserve. Not the life that you think is all that is left to you. Live the life you want to live.
The obvious question is how. How do I live the life I want to live?… Read full post »
On March 28, I wrote about rewiring the brain from negative to a more positive aspect, and I noted that the brain will rebel. Man, I had no clue how harsh that rebellion would be.
Today, ten days after writing that post, I lost my mind.
I suppose it started… Read full post »
I have been going through another period of time when I am feeling choked up about writing. Don’t get too close, don’t share too much, no one cares anyway, I’m going to be all alone soon. I’m not looking forward to that, by the way. Puff’s attitude is still excellent but… Read full post »