August 13, Friday.

Edwin died this morning.  My daughter/granddaughter (d/g) went to her first day of seventh grade and I went to Indian Springs and got 11 gallons of Water. Went to my mama's and dropped off Slim's meds and talked to her for awhile.

E. called and we hammered out the Timberlake Ministries story and the Towaligia River story. Then we published the Timberlake story. I twittered and E. facebooked it.

I went downstairs because my d/g's mother came over for first day of school celebrations. I went back upstairs to get my phone and saw I had I missed a phone call from the city councilman in charge of utilities accusing me of having the story all wrong. I freaked out. Called E. She told me to call him back. 

My story was not all wrong, but the header was misleading.  Mr.D couldn't stand seeing his project exposed to the light of day. Everything was factual. He'll really be ballastic when he sees the Towaliga River story. This is scary. I don't want to hurt this man, but if his plan goes unchallenged then the destruction of the Towaliga River Watershed is a foregone conclusion. The loss of habitat and life is staggering. 

Last night while Slim's suicide threats were ringing fresh in my ears; I knew it wasn't going to be a good night for sleeping. I went outside to watch the meotor showers. I lay on the bed of my pickup truck with a sleeping pad and a blanket,  watching the stars fall out of the sky. It was a prayer, a being in the moment - staying present.  The sky created a space where my mind did not have a place to get stuck in its own fears.  

Thoughts I recorded whenever I saw a shooting star: His choices, not mine. I am afraid to know. What is best for the city and the county? Look at all the triangles the stars make! I open my heart to the earth and the sky. Why would the city put money in such a small watershed when the Ocmulgee lies only 13 miles to the east? I gotta a lot of stuff keeping me awake. Where is the dipper?

My heart does not have much more to say. Edwin is no longer among us in the living, but he will always be part of this house. White Light to you Edwin. GodSpeed. 

I am in love with the stars.