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pontificatrix

pontificatrix
Bio
I am a resident in psychiatry at an academic medical center. My blog posts describe patient encounters I have had in the course of my training, both past and present. Names and identifying details have been changed. My blog conforms to the information-privacy standards detailed on http://medbloggercode.com. If you believe you have been a patient of mine and have concerns about the effects of this blog on the privacy of your medical record, please let me know and I will be happy to withdraw any offending material.

MY RECENT POSTS

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SEPTEMBER 28, 2010 1:52PM

beauty and age

The patient before me is seventy years old.  She wears enormous starlet sunglasses and a sleek pageboy wig.  Her mouth is pursed, plaintive.  As we talk she touches her wig every few minutes and apologizes repeatedly for her appearance, which gives no cause for apology other than thatRead full post »

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AUGUST 25, 2010 3:11PM

to be or not to be?

The young woman who sat before me seemed childlike in her baggy sweatshirt, her gaze inscrutable beneath long lashes.  Her story was a common one, though, like all human stories, unique in its details.  In her case: The long-distance relationship.  The unexpected visit.  The empty/… Read full post »

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AUGUST 9, 2010 2:24PM

reefer madness

“Doctor, I’m afraid I might have ruined my brain.” Mr D’s wide brown eyes bore a pleading expression.  He was a young law student with a cherubic dimple set in his left cheek.  He had had no history of psychiatric issues until six months prior to our appointmentRead full post »

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MAY 2, 2010 5:50PM

Prozac for the unhappy marriage?

(The characters sketched in this piece are composites of several individuals I’ve  encountered in my training and my life.  They contain elements of real patients and acquaintances but do not represent strictly true accounts of specific people.)

The couple who walked into my office for… Read full post »

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APRIL 6, 2009 5:33PM

Market competition is not going to fix US health care


Imagine you are getting your car serviced.  You bring it to the shop, you get an estimate.  When the work is done the shop presents you with a bill.  It may be a little more or less than the estimate was, but either way that's what you'll be paying.  Now imagine… Read full post »

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MARCH 8, 2009 11:43PM

depression that isn't

What do you do with a healthy patient who wants to die?

Ms K was 95.  Her face was only softly lined, and her ash-white hair was smooth and silky as a girl's.  She was in what one might call quite good health, having survived both a heart attack and a cancer/… Read full post »
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JANUARY 25, 2009 1:59AM

Open Letter of Apology to the Patient I Saw Last Night

You came into the hospital hoping to deliver a baby.  In fact you weren't pregnant, but you wouldn't believe that; so the ER called me.  We had a pretty nice conversation.  I didn't challenge your belief that you were pregnant despite a negative urine pregnancy test and an ultrasound… Read full post »

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NOVEMBER 21, 2008 6:33PM

behold the abyss

The screech of my pager jolted me from sleep. A soft-voiced nurse informed me that they were having some trouble with one of the patients and his behavior was very disruptive to the others, so could I come by and see him, please?

I asked for some further details. Apparently he was… Read full post »

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NOVEMBER 12, 2008 10:13PM

a science in need of a theory

I've had a number of people wonder why, as someone with a research background, I'd be interested in psychiatry. There's a tendency to view psychiatry as 'fluffy' and not something that would be interesting to a person who has spent years getting down and dirty with cells and proteins.

In my view,/… Read full post »
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SEPTEMBER 19, 2008 4:56PM

better discipline through chemistry

Disclaimer: I am not a child psychiatrist and do not speak with professional authority on this subject. These are my own ideas based on various readings and personal experiences.


Everyone loves to hear about someone overcoming obstacles to become a star. This NYT article about Michael Phelps, ADH/… Read full post »
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SEPTEMBER 19, 2008 4:02PM

color by number

A new patient walked into my psychopharmacology clinic recently. She seemed not unusual at first. A line in the chart noted that she was somewhat wary of psychotropic medications, but then many patients are, and I don't mind that attitude since I also subscribe to the less-is-more theory of psychiatrRead full post »

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SEPTEMBER 5, 2008 1:56PM

biology vs psychology: false dichotomy?

I was speaking with a very intelligent and insightful patient who mentioned that he'd felt his problems (depression, some obsessional traits, a mild eating disorder) were all 'psychological' until he found a drug that significantly improved them. From that point on he was convinced they were 'biologi
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SEPTEMBER 1, 2008 11:07AM

chemistry

One of my more interesting recent cases was that of a young gay man who came to us in despair because he was in love with his heterosexual roommate.

 The two of them were extremely close: eating dinner together, going to movies, and generally engaging in very couple-like domestic activities.… Read full post »

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AUGUST 29, 2008 12:23PM

demon rum

This vignette is from an outpatient neurology month I did last year, mostly a pretty calm scene compared to the inpatient psychiatric wards - until Ms Q arrived on the scene.  Forty-five minutes late for her appointment, she stumbled in on the arm of the fellow, mascara streaking down her c… Read full post »
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AUGUST 28, 2008 11:05AM

insight into madness

  Mr W, a first-break schizophrenic in his twenties, had looked just terrible on initial presentation.  Flat, near-mute, meeting all efforts to initiate discussion with "No comment," or just a hostile wall of blankness.  Gradually the medications began to work their magic and he b… Read full post »

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AUGUST 27, 2008 12:51PM

boundary transgressions

I found out for myself, again, the hard way, why 'professional boundaries' are so important.  Cardinal sin - I hugged a patient.  Should have thought twice, then twice again.  He was a thin wreck of a heroin junkie with wise sad gentle eyes behind scholarly horn-rims, sunken cheeks fuz… Read full post »
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AUGUST 25, 2008 10:26AM

it could happen to you


Mr G, a gentleman in his sixties with an engaging manner and a professional degree, had never set foot in a psychiatric unit until today.  Bald and avuncular, with a rich white beard and a mischievous wink, he had a bit of a drinking problem and some deep-buried scars from… Read full post »