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Raven Windsong
- Location
- Anchorage, Alaska, USA
- Birthday
- July 15
- Bio
- 2012 has started off so well for me! I'm working 1 full time job that I enjoy and 2 part time jobs that are awesome! I've recently met someone who seems to be perfect for me for the first time since my psychotic ex girlfriend and I broke up a couple years ago, got moved into a sweet apartment that is way better than my last flat, and pretty much other than losing weight - everything else is really going for me in 2012. Now to just work on the weight loss. My boyfriend makes me feel beautiful though so I'm really not stressed about it, which seems to make eating less and exercising more easier. Funny how that works. Even with everything seemingly going well, I still struggle constantly with the PTSD, anxiety and food addictions.... obviously procrastination as well since I have so much to write about but so few posts on here. I miss the days I spent hours online...
If you would like to contact me please e-mail chevygirlak@gmail.com because I don't really get any personal messages on here so it just fills up with posts to read.
MY RECENT POSTS
- Unbalanced Universe Chain
Reactions & New Moon Memories
February 23, 2012 05:35PM - My love / hate relationship
with food.
December 13, 2011 07:04PM - The Universe Moves in Your
Eyes
March 10, 2011 05:29PM - DV PTSD Sucks
October 12, 2010 05:11AM - Supermarket Internal Dialog
October 11, 2010 04:42PM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “Thank you :-) When I am
working out, I love it and
don't want
to stop. For
some…”
December 15, 2011 01:57PM - “Another very close to my
sould post, rated, thank
you!”
December 14, 2011 02:01PM - “This is the first of
your posts that I have read so
far and I
love it. This is
w…”
December 14, 2011 01:57PM - “Zanelle, I was just
checking out your posts :)
thank-you for
your words here.
I'm…”
December 14, 2011 03:08AM - “This is a reflection of
how I feel. I am a food addict
and
there are no AA for
fa…”
December 14, 2011 02:43AM
Raven Windsong's Links
- New list
- My YouTube <3
- Alaska Fire Circus
- ~O/S Must Reads!~
- Support ILGA in its application to the United Nations
- A Quick Intro to HTML for Open Salon Users
- Crayons for OS
- Don't like Olympic Curling? Then you don't like Einstein!
- "All You Have to Do is Eat Less and Exercise More"
- My Fave Raw / Vegan Sites!
- Raw Goddess Heathy
- 'Ra' Crystal Palace
- Raw Crystal Child
Unbalanced Universe Chain Reactions & New Moon Memories
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 Started at approx 2:14pm
Something is changing, I have not put my finger on exactly what
yet. The moon is waxing 16% crescent right now, Saturday,
June 12th was the New Moon. New Moon = New Beginnings... What
is beginning? Or is something ending? Wh… Read full post »
My love / hate relationship with food.
I think about food all the time. Food or my weight or why I can't lose weight. It's obvious now why I can't lose weight... I'm addicted to eating. It's easy to not eat breakfast, most of the time I don't think about food in the morning. Not thinking about… Read full post »
The Universe Moves in Your Eyes
The universe moves in your eyes.
All elements coming together in a perfect balance complimenting the beauty of your face.
Angels singing could never compare to the feeling I get when I hear your voice at my ear.
Hearing your voice, I see your lips and miss your kiss... soft and… Read full post »
DV PTSD Sucks
I am Raven's post traumatic stress disorder, hear me roar.
Shopping Flashback.
Sex Flashback.
Driving Flashback.
Eating Flashback.
Rub my neck Flashback.
Masterbation Flashback.
Walk alone in the evening Flashback.
Person walking who looks like her Flashback.
Shower Flashback.
Music Fl… Read full post »
Supermarket Internal Dialog
My afternoon at the store...
Detached
Confused
Feel like crying
Everything brings memories
PTSD poster child, that's me
Living a nightmare
Fuck, fuck, fuck
I just want a damn bathmat
A shower curtain
Trash bags
Go home Clean the house… Read full post »
Going home made me want to slow down...
I recently went back home to visit my family in Oregon. It's amazing to me how everything can change so much yet stay exactly the same too. Driving through the town I grew up in was emotional for me on levels I didn't know existed. My last visit was about 6… Read full post »
Sticks & stones may break my bones, but is Dyke a bad word?
Re-appropriation is when an artifact or word used colloquially in a negative way towards a specific group of people is reclaimed by the very group it was previously used against and becomes a part of that culture.
There have been many words in our culture that have old meanings and new meanings.… Read full post »
Chasing Rabbits, but only in theory...
Feeling disassociated as if in a dream
Conversations lost to an overactive mind.
Am I living in a movie, or is this just a dream?
The clouds are doing that magical cartoon cloud thing they
sometimes do
So perfect they couldn't possibly be real
Next caller's password: Rabbits
Down the rabbit hole we go
Well… Read full post »
It's all corrupt & it's all f*ckd. . .
Summer in Alaska means ~ Music, BBQ's, Bonfires & More!
Remembering Billy
What to even say about such a wonderful lover and friend. If you knew him, you loved him. We met in 1996. It was when I was driving parts for Napa Auto Parts, he was the dispatcher and I was a driver. We hated each other @ first for some reason. … Read full post »
~She is Me~ ...an old poem for a new day
I look in the mirror but I don’t see me!
Who is she?
Me?
NO! That is not me!
You’ve got it all wrong you see, because she is not me.
Question her and you will see.
Who is she?
What has she done with my body?
My pride?
My self-respect?… Read full post »
"Want in one hand & . . ." well you get the point.
I am a good person and I am not invisible. How do I feel at the moment? Hungry, fat, tired; on the verge of tears and, unquestionably, getting any work done seems a colossal undertaking at best. My body feels as if it is floating around my aura instead of the… Read full post »
the L word
So, I had heard of the show before, but since I cancelled my cable about 3 years ago, I had not watched "the L word". Well, after checking out the entire first season from the library with intentions of watching an episode here and there after work, the dvd's sat there for about… Read full post »
Acid Rain
*I wrote this poem after watching a documentary about Guantánamo Bay at the end of my employ with a privately owned assisted living home. The owner of the alh had decided that she didn’t want to deal with payroll anymore after 2 years of promising raises. So, she hired a staf… Read full post »
Sliver of Moon in the Midnight Sky
Sliver of moon on a warm spring night, give me peace of mind. My
heart jumps in swells and sinks in pits of despair. Maybe I should
say disrepair?
What makes me happy right now? My son grows stronger every day, my
body works to become healthy and my… Read full post »
The Dream Is Over
Flowing hair,
smooth skin,
beautiful smile.
Why did her eyes change like that?
What happened to my angel?
Please baby, let's talk about it. . .
There's no reason to hurt me.
I love you.
Please
don't
hurt
me!
I love you.
Snap and she's scary.
Snap and she's beautiful.
I stayed fo/…
B.J.W. '79 ~ '00
I wrote this poem of sorts on February 19, 2004 about my friend, Billy, who was murdered while trying to save his friend from being shot. I will add much more writings about him in the near future as he was very special to me at a critical time in my life… Read full post »
~ ~ ~ A Wee Bit About Me ~ ~ ~
Where does one start when trying to answer the simple question: " Who are you?" ~ ~ ~
For me this question is simple yet complex all at the same time. . . Lets do the simple part for this first note since I don't have the time to elaborate much on the… Read full post »
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