Exactly 5 years ago on the 1st of September 2004, I watched, shell shocked and in horror as images of the terrible events taking place in the town of Beslan in North Ossetia unfolded. A group of armed terrorists surrounded a school and took hostage over 1,100 people, mostly women and some 700 children - some just babies.

The terrorists herded the hostages into the school gym where they were left deprived of water and food. The terrorists also took the lives of several people and threatened to blow up the gym if their demands were not met.

On the third day of the siege the Russian forces stormed the school using tanks, rockets and other heavy artillery.

When the dust settled the lives of 334 hostages had been mindlessly extinguished. Among them were 186 innocent children.

I will never understand the purpose of wars and terror attacks and I do not intend to understand them. I do not want to know why 186 innocent children had lost their lives. There cannot be a higher purpose more worthy than the lives of children, and indeed that of any child.  There simply cannot be any justification for such an atrocity.

To remember the massacre at School Number One in Beslan, I present to you this heart-wrenching documentary I found on Youtube.

My heart aches thinking about all those children. The ones that died and the ones that will live the rest of their lives carrying the burden of grievous memories. Seeing their terror-stricken little faces I freeze in absolute despair and helplessness.

And now, I cannot hold back the tears anymore.