My body clock is goofed up again, in spite of going to bed before midnight every night for the last month and waking up rested after six hours of zolpidem-assisted sleep.
Last night I got to sleep by 11:45. I slept all night without waking up. At six my alarm started ringing; I hit snooze every ten minutes until 7:30. Then I got up and said, "Well, I must have needed the extra sleep." I tried to act like I was glad for another morning. I took out my morning pages notebook and stared at it for a few minutes. Then I got back into bed. I slept another five hours.
Yesterday was similar, as was Monday. I think it started happening over the weekend. Anyway, I'm up again now, but it will take all the willpower I can muster not to crawl back in there.
Concurrent with the sleep weirdness, I can't seem to write anything at all. Putting these words down feels like pulling the starter rope on a lawnmower that just won't start: rrRRRRRrrr.... rrRRRRRrrr.... rrRRRR.... nothing. Went back to 40mg citalopram Sunday, that will kick in another couple of days or so.
Well, let's see, it's 2:17. I have to be at group at 6:30. I have some stuff I need to do to prepare for that, maybe 45 minutes worth. I guess I can go back to sleep until 5:00. Setting my alarm...