You know those holiday cards that come round this time of year? Yes you do. They generally describe vacations had, children birthed, successes celebrated, unions sealed. People write of promotions, of family gatherings, of children graduating and of real estate transactions.
They take the shape of a nice form letter, intended as the one size fits all misssive to be sent to family and friends to keep them updated on the years events, since, apparently, Christmas is the only time some of these people will be contacted.
Well, I have my own letter to write, but instead of sending it to actual friends and family I'm leaving it here. Enjoy!
DEAR LOVED ONE(S):
Well, it's been quite a year, hasn't it! I gather you and I haven't spoken in some time, probably because we are not reeaally friends anymore, but that's ok. I'm a mother now, you have your own children to worry about, or your bustling career, or your artistically-fueled depression to romanticize, and who has time for this social crap anyway? Except that I'm so lonely I want to puke! Ha ha! Just kidding!!! Wait - no I'm not!
Aaany-way, here are some of the highlights of 2011:
So I have not lost any of the baby weight I put on since giving birth in 2010. In fact I think I may have gained a few pounds - oops! It's ok though - I don't mind the idea of wearing maternity clothes the rest of my life. They're so stylish nowadays, and I TOTALLY don't feel like an idiot AT ALL shopping in the mom-to-be section of Macy's. In fact I get some exercise running to escape from the manically helpful salesgirl who's bound to ask when I'm due (umm...2010...duh.)
And speaking of maternity clothes, I had the great fortune of experiencing a miscarriage a while back, which you would actually know if you bothered to return my calls. Oh well! Luckily it was a quicky, and we only knew about the baby for less than 2 weeks - and according to some pro-choicers it wasn't even a baby yet - so no worries!
The midwife says we have an 85% chance of conceiving again within the next year. I hope I do, because despite the endless amount of work that having a baby demands (and I mean that in the most literal way possible: the work has absolutely no end) it is also the most rewarding work I've ever done. And I hope I'm good at it. My daughter is the most amazing person I know; smart and capable and sure of herself at 18 months. I hope to God she will still want to be my friend when she has a choice about it.
Apparently, some of you folks don't! LOL!
I am blessed in so many ways. I have a great husband and daughter. We aren't rich but we get by. My acting career has stalled (or, perhaps, died) but my creative spirit abounds. And despite my little bitch session here I have love and hope and plans for the future.
I just wish I wasn't so lonely sometimes. I wish I knew how to make and keep friends. I want to have Carrie's posse from SATC.
But that doesn't seem possible. So be it.
Have a Merry Christmas anyway, and best wishes in 2012. I guess I'll talk to you in a year! Whoopee!