Well I tell you, depression is on me once again. Thick as jello, oppressive, stinking depression. So I sit here this morning, (since 3 AM) wondering what the point of it all is? I'm not going to see any health care, I know this now as sure as I know the sun will rise in the East. I was reading where the current bill the Democrats are so proud of is nothing more than a shell of what was promised back before November of 2008. Obama talked about the tough times his mother had getting health care and how in the end, it probably cost her, her life. He talked about how he wasn't going to let that kind of thing happen if he was to become President. He talked about how there was going to be change in our government. It was again going to become for the people, by the people.. if only we would vote for him.

Now.. He is a politician just like all the rest. He has gone from a single payer plan, a health care for all to favoring a trigger plan that everybody, himself included, knows that it will not work. The triggers made for the banks, trying to keep them in line hasn't worked so we know the health insurers are just licking their lips in anticipation of all the new, forced, people they are going to be singing up if Obama, the Senate and Congress have their way. The health care we can believe in is going to turn millions of us into criminals when we still can't get health insurance because we still can't afford it only this time they will fine us $1900.00 per family, charge us with misdemeanors and create a whole new class of criminals out of us. Our crime will be because we believed President Obama when he told us his bullshit to get elected.

I mean I can't even get crummy medicaid because I object to what the Government is demanding that I allow them to do. Here is their lists of demands:

1. All medical records and education records.
2. Copies of educational test or evaluations and any other records that can help evaluate function; also teacher's observations and evaluations.
3. Information created within 12 months after the date this authorization is signed, as well as past information.

From Whom:

1. All educational sources, (schools, teachers, records administrators, counselors, ect.)

2. Employers.

3. Others who may know about your condition, (family, neighbors, friends, public officials.)

Information you provide us may be used or given out to other agencies, The law allows us to do this even if you do not agree to it.

They end it all by saying: QUOTE: "Signing this form is voluntary, but failing to sign it, or revoking it before we receive necessary information, could prevent an accurate or timely decision on your claim, and could result in a denial of benefits."

So there you go.. A prime example of a caring Government. "Sign it, waive any rights you have or we will screw you. Pure and simple." Sign it and be screwed, don't sign it and .......... be screwed. THIS IS CHANGE I CAN BELIVE IN.

I am trying to get some treatment because I don't have any health insurance and these clowns are demanding that I give them access to my most personal life in exchange.

What the hell do they need my school records for? I had a terrible time in school. I had a 2nd grade teacher who locked me in the closet and abused me badly, her parting shot for me was to write in my file that her belief about me was that I was retarded, (because I couldn't read and couldn't blend in with the other kids.) Never mind that in a couple of years of her report it was found that I was dyslexic and this was the reason I couldn't read. Never mind the fact that I had a crummy family life because of an alcoholic father and a brother who so resented my birth that he wasted not a day in punishing me for it.

This bitch's report followed me my entire school career. I had many, many teachers who tried to reverse the damage of this report and none could do it. It was set in stone as far as the powers in charge were concerned. I was stuck in special classes with morons who could barely say the abc's and when I got a chance to drop out I took it just to close that awful, dreadful chapter of my life. Now they want to look at these crummy records and maybe use them against me in some way?

They want to talk to my neighbors? My friends? What the hell for? What are my neighbors going to tell them, I don't know any of them, they can make up any kind of shit about me, and my friends? Good God! I don't have any here so what are they going to do, go back to my home town and dredge up the only two childhood friends I still have and question them about me and maybe get put in the spot light themselves? I don't think so.

I think they can take their government health care and shove it right up their asses before I consent to giving up any of my information.

So here we are, desperately in need of health care with no avenue for treatment and no choices short of, "good bye cruel world..."

There are just to many good news stories out there to target just one so to end this modern day tragedy of mine I give you a cluster-fuck of the news and let you sort it all out as you choose. -Ric

QUOTE: "Last week Senate Democrats were almost ready to vote on Health Care legislation. Legislation that included the public option. Lacking the few votes needed to forestall a republican filibuster, democrats called on Obama to put his weight behind the public option version of the bill. But Obama, owing, in no small part his election to the health care industry, opted out. His grand rhetoric aside, he demonstrates his subservient allegiance to the mass murderers whose profits are partly realized from the annual deaths of over 45,000 Americans."

"What if Harry Reid and Nancy Pelosi assemble the votes needed to block a republican filibuster? One wonders what Obama would do if the Democratic Congress delivered him a Health Care package, all tied up with a bow, and presented for his signature - public option included. He'd sign it to avoid political suicide. Then he'd take the credit, after having refused to lend his support to it. But the point is moot because Obama prefers the health insurance industries “trigger” version. Health insurers will have to play by a few rules or else the “trigger” gets pulled that reinserts a public option in some hazy, indefinable future. Conspicuously, the banks were given trillions, under the illusion they'd practice some form of self regulation."

Read It **HERE**

Obama One Year Later: The Audacity of Winning vs. The Timidity of Governing

QUOTE: "I often found myself wondering what Candidate Obama would think of President Obama. Would he look at what the White House is doing and say, "that's what I and my supporters worked so hard for?"

How did the candidate who got into the race because he'd decided that "the core leadership had turned rotten" and that "the people were getting hosed" become the president who has decided that the American people can only have as much change as Olympia Snowe will allow?

How did the candidate who told a stadium of supporters in Denver that "the greatest risk we can take is to try the same old politics with the same old players and expect a different result" become the president who has surrounded himself with the same old players trying the same old politics, expecting a different result?

How could a president whose North Star as a candidate was that he "would not forget the middle class" choose as his chief economic advisor a man who recently argued against extending unemployment benefits in the middle of the worst economic times since the Great Depression?"

Read the rest **HERE**

'Change is hard': Obama one year on from election

QUOTE: "On November 4, 2008, Obama said, "It's been a long time coming," Obama said. "But tonight, because of what we did on this date, in this election, at this defining moment, change has come to America."

Change is hard," Obama said as he signed a bill slashing wasteful defense spending last week.

"Change isn't supposed to be easy," he said in Florida a few days earlier.

"Change doesn't happen overnight," he told Democrats the next day in Virginia.

Read the rest **HERE**