You know, kids...give yourself the best holiday gift ever and go flying around online and look at the world.

It is so beautiful....and maybe we'll get to go where we want, some day.

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My all time hero, oceanographer. 

He was magic. He attracted the sea to him. My goodness, what a profound individual.

(the boys at National Geographic need to stop pulling big game onto a boat for 20 minutes, unprepared to research. That shark  is now brain damaged.)

 Every year, tourists are drowned by the Pacific in California. They have never seen the ocean, and they run toward it, and are taken.

I swam every day for many, many years in that ocean. And it almost took me once. A riptide pulled me under, and I heard my father's… Read full post »

 Okay, it only took me 30 years  out of 47 to get back here. I love animals. It was Chris Locke who brought me back to this place...because...he's been working on that for a long time.

 I have a special relationship with elephants. My grandfather, who founded the San Diego… Read full post »

 Here's the thing of it.  (To quote Eloise)

Well.

 I take full responsibilty for all decisions I have made. That doesn't mean  there hasn't been pain.

I am in pain because of choices I made.

That's done.

And now to that end, I'm going to contact a very old soror… Read full post »

Well, I'm in the company of a woman who paints in dots. And it's amazing.  We can't scan now..but I will.

fireeyes....no wonder there were those who were jealous...she paints in dots and lines. xox

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 Charles Dickens, a Christmas Carol, Scrooge Happy

So, you see...we used to be so miserly.  We coudn't give a fiddle,  or a fig, a dime or a gift.

We were sad and untoward....we were haunted by our pasts.

The Ghost of Christmas last.

This year, we gave… Read full post »

Yeah, he did, and it was pure grade liquid L.  I'm concerned with all this  'cutting' of drugs.  In fact, back in the day, we had XTC with tea in a military environment. The kids have junked that down and are cutting it, and what used to be the same… Read full post »

 ( I appreciate anyone who is following this rather strange thread of mine right now. )

I'm thinking a lot about my Dad, about what he gave me. He was a dope smoking, LSD dropping, (kids my age used to call that sucking L) radical… Read full post »

The Heart of the Matter....

 I know I'm known to be a bit cryptic here...but with everything going on in the outside world...how can love survive in such a graceless age?

How? By what we're doing here. That is loving, no matter what, no matter the dust ups, no matter… Read full post »

  My OS community just helped save my life and start over.  All of this bitter fighting is a shock to me right now.

I'll leave the light on.  Read full post »

Trig, Fireeyes, and Me

 By now, maybe you've read Trig's post about my odyssey...I guess that's what you'd call it. It's all true, only worse.

I'm really glad Trig gave you the rundown on that because I still don't have the energy.

What I can do is give… Read full post »

Dear friends, I have decided to take this post down for now...I'm just a little too raw right now. xox

I'm exhausted by being photographed

This is the only picture in recent years that has been okay with me...taken by a 4 year old named Esmerelda.

Now this man here in Texas, he wants to take pictures of me.

I don't know if I'm up to that.

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I remember sitting with my godfather....and I played this for him. He was 70 years old at the time. And he said, "This is soooo beautiful."

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Here's the vid....now Billie was a heroin addict....and if you take me up on that, I'll kick your motherfucking ass.

But...gwool is talking about the Noblesse Oblige....oh yes. Well, oh yes. xox

The Noblesse Oblige says...if you have it...then you are morally obligated to give it AWAY. xox… Read full post »