Rod Emmons

Rod Emmons
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Cape Coral, Florida, United States
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June 01
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FEBRUARY 25, 2010 2:31PM

Blindsided

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OK, Class, let’s review.  In Chapter 1, I mentioned that in late 2007 I had cataract surgery on both eyes.  One year later, at the annual exam, I was told that a film was developing on both eyes, that this was not unusual, that at some point in the future, the film would affect my vision.  Disconcerting, right?  However, not to worry, they told me; it was easily removed, never to occur again.

In Chapter 2, I told you that removal was done in December, 2009.  I wrote about it here.  I wrote about how the film built up quickly, particularly in my left eye … my dominant eye.  I wrote about what it was like to be nearly blind in that eye; to see everything blurry, and the problems associated with having some blur in the other eye as well.  I wrote about the impact of all this on my work, my writing, my ability to get around.  I wrote of carrying a large magnifying glass with me, of having to use it to read menus, and the weird looks I’d get when I did it … at least as best as I could make those weird looks out.  Do you remember?

OK, that completes the review.  Now, welcome to Chapter 3. 

As of Sunday, February 21, I am blind in my left eye.  It is probably temporary and may correct itself.  If not, there is surgery to do it.  But, folks, when I say blind, I mean blind.  Like if I put my hand over my right eye, I cannot see Shit!  It is worse than blurry.  I can only differ light from dark, occasionally seeing some colors.  What little I can see is like looking through thick ice.

There is no absolute explanation.  But I have engaged in some events that, in combination, could be the cause.  They are these:

1.       Because I am a-fib, I take a blood thinner … daily.  So I usually avoid medications like aspirin.

2.       I decided to play golf Saturday.  Because of lower back problems, along with a type of carpel tunnel in my wrists, I had only played golf once in the last 18 months, twice in the last two years. I’d grown lethargic and needed to do something. Before the layoff, golf had been my passion.  It seemed the logical thing to do.

3.       In golf, one’s head moves forward with the swing; the harder the swing, the more violent the movement.

4.       To minimize the pain in my wrists, I wore supports.  I also took Advil prior to teeing off.

5.       Later … after lunch … I took more Advil.  My wrists felt fine; my back, OK.

6.       Then came Sunday morning:  Around 8:00 a.m., I began to see what I thought were “floaters” in my left eye … residual from removing the film … which usually go away on their own.  Instead, I went from one floater to three to several to what seems like thin gauze covering my entire vision … all between 8:00 a.m. and 2:30 p.m. By 5:00, I was totally blind in that eye.

I called my eye doc around 2:30, by then scared witless.  After several calls between his PA. and the doc and me, it was determined it could wait until morning, but that I should be at their office on Monday at 8:00.  I was there.

After seeing his assistant, then him, then going to a retina specialist, seeing his assistant, his echogram specialist and finally the retina specialist himself, I learned that the vessels in the eye had hemorrhaged. 

According to the specialist, the eye might drain of its own volition.  If so, no harm, no foul.  If not, they have to remove the blood by somehow poking tiny holes, not a pleasant idea.  But I will be sedated … needless to say … or he will have my hand on his balls, telling him, “We will not hurt each other, will we?” (A technique I use in ALL my surgeries).

But in the interim, I am semi-helpless.  Since Sunday, I have had to drive … including to the doc’s on Monday … and I had to white knuckle it.   Any movement on the road gave me shivers.   I was scared.  Anyone on the road near me should have been, too.  If only they knew.  But I’ve minimized driving to two trips, both short, and will only drive in an emergency … like for beer.  As to other stuff, it is hard to cook, impossible to clean, and damn difficult doing what I am doing now … writing this post (gradually written over nearly three hours; something I basically burp out in minutes … as should be evident in my other writings).  I’m only do it because I receive frequent (and much appreciated) PMs announcing new work by my faves.    A couple of them have wondered why I haven’t recently commented.  Now you know.

However, I will try to read each day, and I will comment when I can.  But from this post, on, I will not be writing anything more than comments until my eyes are back to “normal.”   It is for all of our best interests (wink, wink)!  But one day, I will be back to haunt you all with my own brand of bullshit.   Be forewarned.  xxoxox

    

 

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None so blind as they who WILL not see. ;>)
oH Rod, so very sorry to hear of this, I hope you are better very soon, sending healing thoughts,
Rod, I am totally blind in my left eye also. It is a real hassle believe me and has affected me in all areas. I have a blindspot when I drive, which isn't often, that is terrifying. They don't know if it can be fixed but I have no health care and the procedure costs thousands of dollars. It has ruined my golf game, dammit! Aleve is way superior than Advil, trust me. As for your brand of bullshit, I am a buyer. Hope you get it fixed, the eyes, not the bullshit.
Damn Rod, now I feel bad about sending you blog alerts. I really hope they can relieve the blindness and I look forward to you being back full force. Please take care of yourself cause there's a lot of people here who love you and miss you when you are not around.
I am sorry to hear this.
Damn, man! Looking forward to the return of your particular, peculiar vision. Sending all my best . . .
Rod,

Don't what type of doctor you are seeing but if he is not a neuro-ophtholomogist, please take a look at www.nanosweb.org. There are only about 300 eye neuros in the country, but they are the real specialists where vision troubles are concerned. I believe there are a number in your area.

My sister, a former editor for Medical Economics Magazine, had similar problems. Without a neuro-op, she would be blind today.

Good luck.
R
Rod,

Don't what type of doctor you are seeing but if he is not a neuro-ophtholomogist, please take a look at www.nanosweb.org. There are only about 300 eye neuros in the country, but they are the real specialists where vision troubles are concerned. I believe there are a number in your area.

My sister, a former editor for Medical Economics Magazine, had similar problems. Without a neuro-op, she would be blind today.

Good luck.
R
Rod,

Don't what type of doctor you are seeing but if he is not a neuro-ophtholomogist, please take a look at www.nanosweb.org. There are only about 300 eye neuros in the country, but they are the real specialists where vision troubles are concerned. I believe there are a number in your area.

My sister, a former editor for Medical Economics Magazine, had similar problems. Without a neuro-op, she would be blind today.

Good luck.
R
Rod,

Don't what type of doctor you are seeing but if he is not a neuro-ophtholomogist, please take a look at www.nanosweb.org. There are only about 300 eye neuros in the country, but they are the real specialists where vision troubles are concerned. I believe there are a number in your area.

My sister, a former editor for Medical Economics Magazine, had similar problems. Without a neuro-op, she would be blind today.

Good luck.
R
wow, Donna really wanted to get her point across - ahh, not really her fault. There's a hiccup in the OS giddyup this afternoon affecting the 'post this comment' function. She did make a good point though. I'm not great at meditation but when I am settled enough to quiet my mind I do it w/ thoughts of thankfulness for my brain, eyes, senses, hands, legs that work, and marvels of my body in the aging condition it's in (partly my fault for taking it for granted). Blessings to you and I hope you can relax into thoughts of acceptance of what 'is' right now, and what can be going forward. (essential not to get the BP up Rod - bad for the eyes.) Peace.
Please delete all those comments. Don't know what's going on with OS today. Sorry.
Hey folks, thanks for your sentiments! You are all very kind.

Rita, thanks for your healing thoughts. Send them toward Cape Coral, SW FL, Left Eye. It will be waiting. xoxo

Dr. Spud ... I have been occasionally wearing a patch to lessen the eye to eye conflict. It seesm to help a little, but gives me a headache, long term. Mostly I've been advised to keep my head up ... even in sleep, not easy for me ... and hopefully the blood will drain. your situation sounds permanent and much more difficult. Good luck!

Tor ... I appreciate your PMs ... in fact, all PMs. If that's blog whoring (as some seem to think) I want you and all my faves to consider yourselves my whores ... and I welcome you all. It is a service to me.

Thanks, Dorinda ... your sentiments are appreciated.

Thanks to you, too, Owl. Right now, it is my external vison that is affected ... but the peculiar one you mentioned continues on in its own "peculiar" form of 20/20 ( which might be 70/90 or 26/53 or some other 1/2 assed number) but unaffected by the blood.

And Donna, thanks for ther advice. You have my PM re. this, but I want to publicly thank you for your concern and counsel.

WAHappy ... I long ago learned not to panic. But I was damn scared. Still am. Knowing what caused it doesn't eliminate that. Only an ultimate conclusion will end my fear ... in any event.

And thanks for stopping by. Stop in again.
How nice of these doctors not to be overly concerned by your bliondness. No prob - they'll just put holes in your eyes. Yeah, it worked out great for Samson, didn't it?

I hope all this clears up soon, literally and figuratively.
Sorry to hear of this. You have a great attitude, Rod. Hope this works out best possible for you.
First... I hope that it can be fixed or that it fixes its self.

Second... while I miss your comments and your posts I understand the difficulties and, at least in my case, I haven't posted much that is earth shaking enough so that anyone should be upset that they missed it.

Third... (Gets out the cricket bat) If you are on a warfarin derivative (i.e. Coumadin) you shouldn't be taking Advil and related products because they react with the medication and thin your blood further thereby raising your pro-time numbers. Naproxin (i.e. Aleve) and Tylenol are the pain relievers of choice when you become what I affectionately call "a lab rat sucking on rat poison".
Wishing you the best.
I hope you recover soon. Rated.
No fun at all, eh? None. I am glad there is a chance for a natural solution, and if not that a surgical one.

All best to you
Good Morning, and thanks for the additional comments.

Gabby ... sorry I missed you yesterday. You must have been commenting as I was responding. And thanks for the advice. Fortunately for me, nothing really rattles my cage. I long ago learned to take life as it comes (grant me the strength, the serenity, the wisdom ... that sort of stuff). I bought the whole idea. I'm what you'd get if you crossed a Christian with a Buddhist ... 'cept probably taller ... and wilder. But I'm good with this thing, and howevr it turns out, I'll be fine. Thanks.

Jeff ... She put holes in Samson's eyes????? Damn, I thought the bitch just cut his hair. She was a nasty lady, wasn't she? Maybe a hair cut would solve my issues. I am overdue.

Lea ... Thanks! It should be fine, but will be as it's intended. No sweat. It'll probably make me a better typist ... slower, but better.

Mz. Raptor ... nice to see, you, too ... sort of (see). Yep, you are right. I am on Warfarin ... and I know not to take Advil or aspirin without adjusting the dose ... which I did not do. However, prior experience has been this: I break out in those ugly skin blotches old folks get on their arms and hands ... not bad, but I do. They usually go away in a few days, once I re-adjust. BUT this time I also played golf, ergo jerking the head enough ... apparently ... to cause the hemorrhaging; D-U-M-B! But done. If I get past this matter in tact, I will rmember to only take Aleeve in the futuro. As we know, Hindsight is backwards.

Bonnie, love ... If what "gets too hard?"

Grif ... Thanks for your wishes. I'll be fine.

Sheila ... Thnaks for stopping and for the good wishes.

WAS ... Nice to hear from you. Right now, it is a major inconvenience ... and after five days, no improvement. So I called the doc this a.m. ... am waiting a return call ... so that whatever is next, we can get on with it. In my *real* life, I run a business with 110 people employed. I can be gone awhile, but not indefinitely ... certainly not needlessly. So if there's some cutting (or poking) to do, I'd like to do it next week, and get that over with. Your wishes are appreciated.
Thinking of you. That has to be a really tricky situation to negotiate. I have often wondered what it would be like. I would look forward to stories about the experience. Maybe you can dictate to someone? I very much hope the surgery is effective for you. Blessings -- P. (R)
In hindsight (pardon the pun) I can see how far you had to go before seeing a result you could really vote for. Kudos for stamina.