Since I've had this blog up I've been kind of a goof ball with it staying light hearted and not getting to deep, but I have a story to tell that's been killing me inside for awhile. A secret that I just have to get off my chest . I think that this would be a good place to tell it. I feel like this is the only place I can. I just hope that after this I could put these feelings to rest so these demons of regret will die in me forever.

The story has to do with my x girl friend that is about to get married . We had a good relationship while we where toghether and we where very close. We had our ups and downs like any couple does. I was faithful to her the hole time we where together ,6 years except one time. The thing that is killing me about this is that she called me out of the blue the other day and thanked me for being so faithful to her for all those years and that she hopes that her new husband will be as honest as I was to her.  I never told her what happend and I feel horrible about it. Thats why I had to do this and get it all out.

 

           It happened one night when my x was out of state to see her family . I usually accompanied her when she went out of state but I needed to stay back for work. Bills where piling up and I couldn't afford to take a week off. So I was sitting around board of doing nothing for three nights in a row and decided to take a drive out into the country. I like doing things like that just to get away. I like driving on the long roads at night especially when the moon is bright. It was something that I haven't done in awhile so I said what the hell. I was living in Florida at the time and there where really cool country roads to the west of where I lived, So I left. I stopped at a 7 11 to get some water and a candy bar just in case and took off. Everything was pretty cool at first it was a nice clear night and the stars where incredible. This story is going to sound insane but like they say sometimes real life is stranger than fiction, so like I said I was driving on a long country road there was no one around and suddenly my tire blew out, I'm like shit. I pull the car over this was fucked up what was even worse when I got out to change the tire the spare was flat. So now I'm stranded .I knew I had to be at least fifteen miles from any real towns, this was fucked . So I figured I'd start walking and try to hitch a ride hoping someone would pick me up on the way. I walked about five minutes and I herd a sound in the distance. I turned around and saw a set of lights approaching. I stopped walking and waited. I was happy to see some form of life out there the lights where far off but they seemed to be upon me in now time. I was a little freaked out cause you never know who could be  roaming around  at that time of the night, it stopped and a incredibly beautiful specimen got out and asked me if she could help. I said yes I needed a ride. She said she lived near by and if I wanted she could take me to her place where I could rest and use the phone. I was mesmerized by her. She had a look that was out of this world. I never had this happen to me before it was like she was from the heavens. She had an incredible aura about her so I went with her. On the way there she said since it was late if I wanted I could stay the night at her place and she would drop me off where I wanted to go in the morning . I new this wasn't the right thing to do but I felt powerless in her presence. I figured there was nothing open now anyway and I was tired from walking  it was friday and had nowhere to be the next morning so I agreed. She had a small place in the middle of nowhere . We went inside and the first thing I noticed was how bizarre her place was, it was totally cosmic looking , weird blinking lights all over the place, it was totally modern which was surprising me. She told me to relax and not to be scared and to make myself comfortable, I did. Then from out of nowhere some freaked out music came on . It was like a real low trance type sound a type of music that I never herd before. She sat across from me just staring at me seducing me with her exotic eyes and then offered me a drink . I was so entranced by her it was like she was speaking an alien language. This was getting weird. I didn't want to seem to freaked out so I played along. I drank the beverage and from that point on things got crazy . I don't no what was in those drinks but what ever it was it made me loose all self control. I felt like I was flying. I spent the next few hours in a haze letting her have her way with me. She did things to me sexualy that night that where unspeakable in places on my body that  I didn't no existed . The experience was totally cosmic. I woke up the next morning on a lawn near a Wall Mart. I had no idea how I  got there. I bought a tire and called a cab to take me to my car. I felt like shit cause I new what had happened. It seemed like a dream and I was having trouble deciphering if it really happened at all . I couldn't remember any details of the night except that things felt funny in a certain oriphis of my body.

 

As I was riding in the cab I felt something in my pocket. I looked at it, it was a picture of me and her from the night before. So I new it wasn't a dream . I kept it hidden in a safe for the longest time. No one has ever seen it before. If you scroll to the very bottom of this blog you can see it . I want this to finally end here and now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I told you she was out of this world

 As you can see the drinks completly screwed up my sense of decent fashion