"To the pain." - William Goldman

Forgive me OS, I struggle and I strive.  I promise that I only whine here.  Please forgive my weakness.  I'll be strong again someday soon I promise.

Iron Mike cared for me whilst my wife and son were in Iraq.  Iron Mike lives with S… Read full post »

"Under the wide and starry sky

dig the grave and let me die;

Glad did I live and gladly I die.

And I laid me down with a will

This be the verse you grave for me

Here he lies where he longed to be

Home is the sailor, home from… Read full post »

       "I will be your child to hold

and you be me when I grow old.

The world grows cold

The heathens rage

The story's told.

Turn the page."-Anon

In the mail today I recieved the bill for my Son's last hospital visit.  He was shot and murdered.  He… Read full post »

"Virtue makes us aim at the right end, and wisdom makes us take the right means"- Aristotle

I hate this story.  It is the tale of my failure as a Man.  It is a story of great sacrifice.  And death. 

I am so very tired of the health care debate.  I… Read full post »

"The heart has passions the head knows not"-Pascal

I am a GIMP.  Simple.  I am not handicapped.  I am not a cripple.  I am a Damon Ryon defined GIMP.  It has been nine years and I have finally reached acceptance.  The final goal of the 5 stages of grief. &nbs… Read full post »

"He said that the right dreams for a man in peril were dreams of peril all else is the call of langor and death" -McCarthy

"Young men love war and old men love that in them"-McCarthy

     In April of 1987 I was 23.  They came across the open firing… Read full post »

"Men die and they are not happy"-Camus

Atef was my counterpart.  A Major soon to be a Colonel in the Jordanian Army.  We were working on the Israeli/Jordanian peace treaty; cleaning up mine fields, ratting out Hamas, interdicting religous bomb makers.  All the nasty stuff… Read full post »

My Son, My Son

"...if he is not the voice of God God never spoke."-C. McCarthy

He is 21 and beautiful.  His mothers slim hips and lanky stride, my wide shoulders and oversized hands.  He is now always 21.

My Son, My Son.

He went to Iraq against my advice… Read full post »