My sister-in-law left about an hour ago.  She's as close to family as we have.  The girls love it when their "Antee" visits and I think it does them good to be cuddled and fawned over by "family".  I try to do the "cuddle/fawn thing", but it must be something genetic in Suzy's family because they seem to do it so well.   It makes me a little nuts, but she doesn’t limit her cuddle/fawning abilities to just the girls.  Although we were never really close before, she has been there for us and I love her for that.

Last night, I woke up sobbing from  one of my “Suzy” dreams and before I could even get my eyes all the way open she was there holding me and hugging me tight.  It freaked me out a little bit because she looks like a younger version of Suzy and she smells the same (Suzy turned her on to all of that Lush stuff a year or so ago). 

She sat there and talked to me for over an hour and made me tell her about my dream.  Suzy was crying in it and I couldn’t reach her to help her.  It was like the air was too thick to get through.  Suzy kept saying “Help me” and I couldn’t.  God, I couldn’t and it was killing me.

I finally told my SIL  that I’d be okay now and that I was sorry for waking her up.  She said that she didn’t mind because that’s what family is for.  There’s more than a little bit of Suzy in that girl.

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I have fallen in love with this song.  Rob Thomas wrote this song about his wife who has Lupus.  He gets what it's like to see the one you love in pain and not be able to do anything for her.