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Sarah Cavanaugh

Sarah Cavanaugh
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August 01
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My poems have appeared in Poet Lore, Nimrod, and Southern Poetry Review. Currently, I am trying to reclaim my life after being blacklisted. Don't mess with the Federal Government or defense contractors. Wish me luck.

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JANUARY 12, 2012 12:24PM

The Burnished Mandolin

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    Did you ever sell something and then immediately regret it as soon as it's gone? That happened to me when I sold my mandolin. I was low on funds, so I placed an ad in the Lakeshore Weekly. As soon as the edition came out I got about a dozen calls, one right after the other. It seemed like everyone wanted my mandolin. I sold it to the first caller. I've regretted it ever since.

    I found my mandolin in a small inependent music store in the town of Ephrata, PA. It was hanging on the wall, and a shaft of sunlight coming through the window cast a luster on the finish that gave the instrument a golden glow as though it had been burnished by the hands of many owners. It was a used instrument, and I got it for $100. 

    I was subjected to both flute and piano lessons growing up, but I thought I might like to try a stringed instrument. I was looking for something to do that would take my mind off my troubles, and I thought a mandolin might be easy enough to learn. It has four double strings and is tuned like a violin.

    There are people in my family who can play music by ear, but I have been denied this gift. So I bought music to go with the instrument. Any violin music will do along with whatever is available for mandolin.

    I took my new acquisition home and began to play. The only piece of music I ever learned to play by ear was Lara's Theme from Doctor Zhivago. I learned to play it on one string. It took me awhile to learn the tremola technique. The mandolin is a quiet instrument, so the tremolo technique give the sound more volume .

It took a good bit of practice so I was thrilled when I first achieved the harmonic effect. I felt as though my heart were vibrating in sweet sychronicity with the mandolin string.

    As I became better, I felt myself transported to other times, other places as I played. I would picture myself in a Gypsie encampment with firelight dancing off my instrument. Perhaps I was playing mandolin accompaniment to Ralph Stanley on banjo at a bluegrass concert. I pictured myself playing Vivaldi's Mandolin Concerto to an audience of men and women in powdered wigs.

    I played many styles from bluegrass to folk to Rennaisance and classical. As I played, I began to feel my troubled mind finally healing. The mandolin is an instrument of the sweetest tones. It may not be boistrous like a guitar. It may not have the sonorous tones of a cello or the sustained notes of a violin string, but I learned after much practice to call forth the sweetest tones from my mandolin. I miss it terribly. 

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I took mandolin lessons when I was 11 years old and loved it. Always wished a nomadic life didn't interfere with it. I understand your wistfulnes at having parted from a dear obect which gave voice to many of your dreams and the songs in your heart.

R♥
How wonderful to be able to play such a lovely and unusual instrument. I can well understand your regret at parting with it. Any chance of investing in another?

I sometimes regret selling my Beatle's memorabilia, but I needed the funds for a trip.

I also regret selling the designer boots I put on ebay last week. They went for a song!
I bought my husband a mandolin ( before we were married) he never learned to play. It sits in our basement along with my electric bass.
Beautiful instrument. You give it life here for a bittersweet moment. It's still out there somewhere, tho, like Lara was for Zhivago.
I love the sound of the mandolin. Moving forward and parting with our things and dream attached is difficult.
Call them back and explain it was a mistake (if you have the funds)....most folks will understand. I understand the kind of heart-break when we give up a cherished object. If you don't get it back, another may come along with all the good attributes of the first one,......and more! This is a fine piece.
It's hard to let go. I'm facing trimming down a collection. A few must stay.
A relatively inexpensive instrument is harmonica. The instruction booklets are easy to use, it fits in your pocket and goes with you. If that sounds fun think about getting one in the Key of G. It's the lowest pitched and easier to blow,easier to learn on. Then save for a mandolin again.
I checked Ebay and Amazon. They both have mandolins for sale.
Maybe purchasing an inexpensive one now, will fill the void temporarily.
As rita said, the sound of a mandolin is wonderful. I'm sorry you're missing yours. Hopefully, its new owner is appreciating it and making great music on it.
You are so eloquent when writing about music, Sarah. I can feel your regret from here.

Lezlie
I remember my old Italian grandfather playing the mandolin when I was a kid. He died when I was 12. I don't know what happened to it.

r
Ps. I played string bass - a very long time ago.
Taught myself to play a Classical Guitar. I still have it, since 1977. It needs to have some work done on the neck to restore it to health. I bought it stolen (I knew it at the time) for $10.00.

Not my finest moment, that purchase, but one that had an overall positive effect on me from there on out. I wouldn't even give it to my daughter. It's got wear marks on the sound box from my fingers scraping across it as I learned to strum, pick, and also to bang on the sound box for accompaniment.

Maybe you can get your Mandolin back? I don't think I'd ever part with my guitar and I know I am, at best, a truly mediocre player. I love that thing. It was more important to me in times in my life that people could have, should have, shared with me.

Is it weird that an inanimate thing could have such a strong connection to the soul of an animated person? Is that the essence of magic?

Your piece reminds me of how much I truly care about that guitar, though I haven't been able to play it for over a decade now (due to the warped neck and damage done by humidity, age and this awful Texas summer heat.

-r-
Oh Sarah, my husband is a luthier, who builds custom instruments of all kinds, so I certainly understand this. There is nothing like that instrument that fits you. I hope you find one that you like as well as this one.
This is a beautiful piece. I play the mandolin, and your paragraph on first seeing the mandolin in the music store brought back memories. It was as though the mandolin chose me when I first saw it hanging on the wall. Kept circling the store and coming back to it, realizing that I had to take it home. Didn't even know how to play at the time, but the mandolin gave me music for my poetry, with many adventures since then.
Resonates with the story of "Le Violon Rouge". Tender and sad.
This was sweetly sad, I haven't heard the mandolin in ages and now I want to. I'm glad you loved that mandolin and it loved you back as well. I agree with Larry, if you can't get yours back maybe there's a new one waiting for you.
Such a sad, bittersweet piece. ~r
I felt a vibration in my heart when I read this: "It took a good bit of practice so I was thrilled when I first achieved the harmonic effect. I felt as though my heart were vibrating in sweet sychronicity with the mandolin string."

(P.S. I too liked playing in the dirt! Saw your comment on the Germs! post earlier today!)
So beautifully and vividly described - I could hear the music of that mandolin and see the colors. I understand why you regret selling it. I hope it has a great new home and is still making beautiful music - and I hope that someday another mandolin will come into your life.
i'm in awe of people who can play any instrument, and you play 3. sorry you had to sell it to raise cash.
Thanks to all for commenting. I really enjoyed reading them. Hope I'll be able to replace my beloved mandolin some day.
I'm so sorry you had to sell it! Mine is sitting in the corner, taunting me. I wrote a whole piece about my love affair with the mandolin you might enjoy; http://www.nodepression.com/profiles/blogs/my-unrequited-love-affair-with
I'm in awe of people who can play the mandolin. I'm not sure how it's possible.
Boy do you make this instrument shine. Though I'm a performer myself and very musically inclined, I never thought much about mandolins at all, but now I will go to itunes and seek it out specifically. Nicely done!
I was never able to devote time to learning an instrument. I had to live life, pay bills and take care of friends, so of course this doesn't resonate with me. In fact, it leaves me with considerable bitterness. But I appreciate what you went through, and second the recommendation that you get something from eBay or through a local pawn shop. Although...the only musicians I ever knew to play the mandolin were Homer and Jethro.
It sounds as though you have a lot of patience and perserverence! I hope you will adopt another instrument and bring it to life again, because you have a gift.
Sarah, your first mandolin will always be an old friend...I've owned quite a few and am working on a workshop describing the romance and mystery of the instrument. Get ready for your next one! I suggest mandolincafe.com classifieds...and I bet you're ready for an Eastman, they are terrific value, I've got one now.
What a wistful memory and so well-told, about letting go of something you treasured. Music does have the power to heal and it sounds like you have quite an ear for it.

When I read this the first thing I thought of was Rod Stewart's gorgeous song Mandolin Wind. www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAyWj8KbY0s
We just bought one for my son! Maybe you will find another...
This made me mourn for the loss of your mandolin. I'm sory you no longer have it.