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Sarah Cavanaugh

Sarah Cavanaugh
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August 01
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My poems have appeared in Poet Lore, Nimrod, and Southern Poetry Review. Currently, I am trying to reclaim my life after being blacklisted. Don't mess with the Federal Government or defense contractors. Wish me luck.

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FEBRUARY 20, 2012 12:28PM

A Gift of Little Value - My Psychic Brain

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    One day, when I was very small and still in a highchair, my parents came to view me in a very different light. It happened like this. I was sitting in the aforementioned highchair busy scribbling with crayons when suddenly I began laughing helplessly.

    My father asked me what I was laughing about, so I told him that a man at the store down the road had dropped a whole bag of potatoes that were rolling all over the floor and under the counter. The man and the storekeeper were scrambling to pick them up. This seemed very funny to my childish brain.

    Dad asked me how I knew, and I told him I saw it happen. He asked me how, so I told him I saw it in my head, kind of like how you see pictures in your head when you dream. My father, of course, walked down to the store where the shopkeeper verified my account of what happened.

 When Dad came back from the store he began to question me about the incident. I think my Catholic father found my curious gift to be very disturbing. There may have been a time in history when I would have been accused of witchcraft. 

    This was not an isolated occurance. All through my life, I have been able to witness what I am not actually seeing with my eyes. These events come to me unbidden, and I have no control over when it happens. What I witness with my mind's eye is as though spotlighted and everything around the scene fades into shadow.

    My psychic powers are limited. I cannot move inanimate objects or make stones rain down on houses. I cannot strike people dead or locate missing persons or communicate with the dead. I have often wondered how I am sometimes able to listen in on and observe what I cannot see with my eyes or hear with my ears. Could it have something to do with quantum physics? 

    Sometimes I wonder whether, if agents of the federal government knew of my curious gift, would they spirit me away somewhere. Would they conduct experiments on me and try to use my talent for their own nefarious purposes. I can only hope they never find out.

    I never saw any value to my ESP ability. I would rather have had the gift of a Beethoven or a Monet or a Shakespeare. I can't even make any money from it. If I could, I would wrap it up, tie it with a bow, and give it to someone else.    

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Keep it, Sarah, for it is a gift that you've only begun to unwrap!
Potatoes were just the beginning!
Watch for more---and write to OS about what you see.
But then again you KNEW I was sitting here at my desk typing this to you, didn't you?

And yes, this cranberry juice I'm about to drink is indeed delicious!
I think you under estimate yourself as how do we know if that one time we didn't leave the house or kept our kids at home was not saving them or us from horribleness?
I say we embrace it as the gift it is...
m, Cranberry? I thought it was grape.
Ll2, I never thought of it that way.
I would say you are lucky to have this gift, it is something I wish I had. But not to make money from.
That envelope sitting in my mailbox. It's another rejection letter isn't it? Wait, don't tell me.
I love the image of you and the potatoes. I think this is a gift you haven't tapped into deeply enough, perhaps. I hope one day it will serve you well. ~r
cc, I just don't see any practical applications.
Joan, Maybe I need a psychic coach. I have had the privelge of receiving rejection slips on my birthday. Believe me, I know how it feels. Doesn't mean you're not one terrific writer, though.
Now you have me wondering how you could use this. Personally, I find it fascinating.
You've already had enuf trouble with the feds to last a lifetime, Sarah. No need to poke the sleeping bear. This is fascinating, tho. Or, as Arte Johnson used to say on Laugh-In, from under his Nazi helmet: "Vedddddddy eenterestink!"
Hey - shoot me a stock market tip here or there!
I think it's cool. Some say we all have some kind of psychic capacity but some of us are just better than others at recognizing it. I love the "picture" of you sitting in you high chair coloring away laughing at the fallen potatoes!
Matt, Right. I should have kept my mouth shut.
Chiller, If only---
Everything you have is a gift no matter what it is.
Cherish it.
HUGGGGGGGGGGG
But...it gave you a really good laugh at least once, right? I think that's big value.
No regifting on this one.

Rated.
Speaking of Lotto numbers..., hah, just kidding. It must be be weird to get glimpses of the future, or something that happened and you weren't there, but know it happened.
Yeah, like mz mhold says, unwrap the gift.
Look: it can be scientifically explained, if your science is on the ball, and not materialistic.
Non locality. Yep, Q physics. Maybe..
These damn particles seems to know what to do to screw with our ideas of what the great philosopher/mathematician Whitehead (who fully believed in the ability of physic phenomenon, for it fit his philosophy, which to me is, well, the Goddamn Bomb!!)
Called
“simple location”.
Things are never just in one place, at one time.
Throw a stone in a pond and see what happens.
Waves.
We live in a world of waves that can travel thru vacuum.
Our electromagnetic waves, like light and what powers your computer, etc

We are a product of the same wavy squiggly cant-stay-in-one – place Mother Nature.
Brain waves!
No, more than ‘brain’ waves..mind waves…

Inculcate yourself ..train yer brain!
You were born with a clear gift. Begin the journey and see how much more you can see. Meditate and focus, read a little and someone will come to you to help you with your gift.
It has always struck me that everyone who has the gift of "vision" (I don't know what else to call it) would gladly give it away. Yet I've never met anyone who wouldn't love to have it.
Joan, I always feel like I'm spying.
Fire, To me it seems just normal, but I have no clue what to do with it.
Linda, I know, but it would be nice if I could get paid for my psychic visions or at least help others.
c&v, I think my parents were a little afraid of me.
scanner, I been having the experience all my life, so it seems kind of normal to me. Othrs look at me kinda funny, though.
James, Could be everyone has psychic abilities but for whatever reason just don't know it. A very interesting comment.
V, Are you saying that you don't want it. I don't blame you.
Sheila, When I saw how my parents reacted, I felt as though there was something wrong with me.
Fay, I've never seen it's usefulness, though.
starving, Wow. I have tended to keep quiet about my gift. Maybe I have a secret fear of being burned at the stake.
Wow, what a gift! This is fascinating - I like your musings about how it's possible. I'm glad such an introspective person as you has this ability. Very cool.
Very definetly a gift. My husband has the same ability. It has always amazed me, he is so in tune with everything. Not people so much, but it fakes me out alot in our 37 yrs. together. I think you are the bong.lol.
Me too... my talent was finding things that were lost which was a kind of de jevu thing, that and reading people which developed as a defense mechanism.it was intermittent when I was a kid, then I became aware of it and sometimes used it in my twenties, it's faded with age but I can still drop myblood pressure, pulse and respiration rates at will. Really screwed up the scientologists when they tried to recruit me... I made alpha and theta waves with no training.

Anyway the only money I ever made with it was reading Tarot and such...

OMoM
Those of us who do not have your gift probably have no idea of any ramifications that might come with it, but have it you do. I hope the positive comments your fellow OSer's have posted help you see the gift from a different perspective and help you embrace it.
You mention you have no control over when it happens ~ I can't help but wonder if like so many other innate abilities, this one can't be trained with practice & brought to a fine point, like a skill.
I can understand your feelings, but if I had such a gift I'd be seeking out awareness classes which would hopefully help me put it to good use. There may be ways you could help others out there without realising it.

I hope you keep a record of your experiences too.
Alysa, It feels normal to me, but my parents looked at me askance when they discovered my talent.
Jane, Cute story. Thanks for sharing it.
Cindy, You'll never be able to cheat on him - not that you would when you are so happy with what you have.
jmac, How very interesting. At least your gift has a practical application, unlike mine.
Chrissie, Thanks. I'm glad they don't burn people like me these days.
Kim, I wonder. I'll have to think about that.
Linda, I have actually never shared this with anyone until this post. I guess I thought no one would believe me.
i believe you! there are plenty of people who will...
i suggest the old classic "The Future of the Body"
by Michael Murphy.
An incredible big fat wonderful book explaining all the
human potentials......
Can you see me naked? Oh God, I know you can. I know you can see me sitting here naked, with a body EXACTLY like Jennifer Aniston's. In fact you probably thought it was her at first since I'm sure you've seen her naked too. Turn it off right now Sarah!
Margaret, I think my parents feared that I might spy on their sex lives. The way they reacted to the potato incident made me clam up about it for the rest of my life.
James, I'll check it out.
Sarah,

Your gift is of great value. I know you realize that too. It took me a long while of learning how to use my perceptive skills fully understand how to use them to help other people.

I am sure that you can do what I did and train yourself to refine and hone your skills.

I am e-mailing back and forth right now with the lead detective I work with in the homicide unit (and blind cc'ng a former writer here on all the messages too), and he has written to me before about how much they appreciate my help with the cold cases.

I am not suggesting that you use your skills in the way I do, but there is so much good that can come from the things we can do.

Sometimes it's just a matter of considering the possibilities. I had my grandmother though to watch do what she knew how to do for many years, as I quietly did many of the same things, and I never discussed my perceptive skills unless I had to. I also don't like to use labels for them.

Sometimes people misunderstand or are skeptical because about these highly specialized perceptive skills because they are a little afraid of what we can do, like your parents were.

I am sure you will find many ways to use your gift wisely.

V