OCTOBER 2, 2009 5:38PM

Dreaming of Home

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I had a dream, the kind that happens just before you wake up. In my dream the phone rings, and I answer and it is you. 

You speak my name, your voice tipping up in a quesiton, and I know what you are going to say before you say it. Why else would you be calling? You only call on birthdays, and since that last argument I had with him - could that really be a year ago now? - not even then. 

“Your father died,” you say, and then we listen to one anothers' silence.

“I’m coming home,” I tell you.  I use the word automatically, though it has not described the place where he is for nearly thirty years. 

I wake with the word home on my lips and the sound of the phone ringing. I open my eyes and the tears that were stealthily collecting there slowly retreat to their home, which is - and has always been - the place where he lives.

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Haunting, and the phone call, a premonition? I hope not.
oh man. maybe you should make up? a sad dream and a sad waking up.
There was a closing line from a short story I read many moons ago (wish I could remember which one it was now) which was simply a single line that made the point eloquently and succinctly:

Home is where........home is where?

These dreams go on when I close my eyes,
Every minute of the night I live another life.


Thumbed.
Whether this is fiction or premonition, let me confess I miss my Dad more than I ever thot I would in spite of the fact we never got along. If you haven't made peace, try your best to do so.
Um, that sounded like I was criticizing you. I meant to say, that story conveyed the same sentiment, and your post made me think of that closing line again.
I do not consider your writing inelegant or lengthy. You have the same kind of compactness of thought as that story long ago, and the same efficient delivery. THAT'S what I meant. :-D
You packed a lot into a few short paragraphs, really, a whole story. Those kind of dreams are so hard to shake. There have been days when I walked around with a dream like that hanging over my head until I hit the pillow to start dreaming all over again the next night.
Procopius, i hope not too.
Jane, and Tom - at least on some level I guess I've been thinking just that.
Bill - of course you didn't sound like you were criticizing me, but thanks for being so sensitive.
mamoore - for me, the best stories aren't the shortest, but the most memorable ones have always been.
I had to read that last sentence a couple of times. I like it. It's so simple it's hard to understand at first. And I suppose like all good prose, it could mean several things depending on your interpretation.

thanks for sharing this.
This one will linger for me. I had one last night that stayed with me all day.
"...the tears that were stealthily collecting there slowly retreat to their home, which is - and has always been - the place where he lives." Perfect, this sentence is art. Sweet dreams and kisses,
Marcela
It's just a dream. Sometimes, no better words were ever spoken. Does that make sense? It does to me.
Those dreams that come to us shortly before we wake up are sometimes the most colorful, real and bizarre of all. They often hang with me the whole day, to ponder over again.
I dislike using the word haunting all the time. I've come to the conclusion that not all things can be settled before the reaper pays his visit and that phone rings. It's simply not always possible, regardless of how much one might want it to be.
Let's hope it doesn't come true for a while. What did Frost say? "Home is where, when you have to go there, they have to take you in." Mr. Warmth.
Thanks for making me grateful, (yet again) for my wonderful folks.
I dreamed last night for the first time in a long time; must be something in the air. This piece is haunting and poetic - the experience of a dream can pack a world into a few minutes.
So much emotion in a small piece of work. Well done!
A lot of dreaming is random, but there is a sort of explanatory dream that happens when you respond to something in the environment, like a ringing phone. Your brain produces a dream that somehow makes sense to you, explaining the stimulus, in the split second before you wake up all the way. Good or bad, this dream makes sense.
Hauntingly beautiful, and I hope not true....
Wow Sandra, the economy of your words in this piece makes it even richer in meaning. I hope you and your father can find a way to make peace.
Spooky. Intense. Eloquent. You're getting very sharp. This was so short and yet so powerful.
Oh Sandra. . . . no wisdom or clever remark. Just a hug.
Whoa, I'm covered in chills. You do so much with just a few taut graphs. Economy of words, abundance of emotional wallop. Brava.
I often settle for rating your stories rather than commenting, because I prefer letting them tumble around in my head for a while. This is no different. Just wanted to thank you for it.
So well said. Beautiful. I just went home after 35 years.
Damn. That was great.
More than anyone, you make me pause and reflect.
home is like om.
i thought of that with the 'I wake with the word home on my lips'.
ummm....

when I was twenty-one, I dreamed my father had died. I woke up, crying. Such relief: just a dream.

A month later, he died. I woke up the next morning. Such a relief: just a dream. And then I remembered.
I hate phone calls on my land line.
Now that my parents are gone, I wake feeling more alone, missing them more than I ever thought I would. My father and I never reconciled our differences in religion. It's my greatest regret! I'll be thinking of your story all morning. Rated
Why is it that dreams sometimes have so much more power than real life? Is it because we think we are in control when we are awake? I love dream stories and this one is powerful.
I'm with mamoore.

I think we could all learn a lesson from this piece. So full but not long. Potent and organized.

Home on your lips...mine too, sister.
Excellent writing Sandra, haunting, visceral, and real.
Call him, never, ever you have to say to yourself I didn't try.
I am so deeply moved by the number and quality of people who responded to this post expressing their sense of loss -it is the reason I am on OS, for these moments when I sometimes find myself surrounded by people who are so emotionally and intellectually remarkable, people who have or are trying to break on through to the other side, to quote a (faulty) kind of god.
I am so deeply moved by the number and quality of people who responded to this post expressing their sense of loss -it is the reason I am on OS, for these moments when I sometimes find myself surrounded by people who are so emotionally and intellectually remarkable, people who have or are trying to break on through to the other side, to quote a (faulty) kind of god.