I have never been so pissed in my life. I should have been long ago.

I have something in common with President Obama. I have had my huge share of Republican bullies. Those of you who believe Republican bullying just started with the many attempts to block, harrass, and malign President Obama and his work, no. You haven't been paying attention to history, and you haven't been paying attention, if you're a United States citizen, to what has happened in your own life.

The bullies you encountered as a kid? How much would you like to bet that the majority of them were reared, or later were, Republicans?

My cruelest bully will go to the grave a staunch Republican. I have better things to do than list how I was bullied by this person, but I can tell you that it happened every time I did something good, something wise, something that made good use of my gifts. The bullying was completely born out of jealousy, and was justified by the idea that God could not possibly ever be on my side.

It was also, always, aggressive, in my face, and ugly. The abuse was long and drawn out, and when I was too tired or backed into a corner and gave up, the moment was treated like a triumph of superiority over me.

Sound familiar? Like the methods used by the unaptly named "conservative" factions in Congress, and elsewhere, at this moment? 

I was not fired from my longtime job in 2009. I was pushed out by a Republican boss determined to pay no unemployment tax on me. He cut my hours until they wouldn't pay for my transportation, let alone my bills. I remember the day Mr. Boss, as his adoring Republican employees loved to call him, said blissfully, "no one matters in this country but the rich." His most useless but most attractive Republican employee, in her rich honey dripping voice, added, "Amen!"

I also remember the day Honey Voice asked another of my bosses when someone would "take care of" President Obama for them. The happy chances he might be assassinated were discussed on a daily basis, but this conversation stuck with me because, after the remark, she called someone and discussed her church duties for the week.

Except for a brief job given to me by one of the most caring people I've ever met, I've been unemployed ever since. I keep working, but none of the work has brought more than a few dollars. If it weren't for friends, family, barter, and food stamps, I wouldn't have a place to live or a way to eat now. I fall in the category of unemployable: I'm entering my 60th year, am in poor health, and am educated. It's not an advantage to have the experience I have, it's a defect. I don't have the right degree attached to my best skills. If I am to make any use of my skills, it has to be on my own. I keep at it. I am even appreciated for it. But I am rarely paid.

Multiply my story by at least 30 million. There's a risk that this number will jump big time if this nonsense continues much longer.

If I were to magically become rich and famous, this would not be a problem. I wouldn't have to work to watch the money continue to flow in. I would be courted, favored, and admired without question. Life would be a Republican dream shaboom. And I would be exempt from paying for it.

Instead, for me, and millions of you out there, life is a nightmare. If you're a Democrat, that's a nightmare sundae with a cherry on top - It looks good to a Republican, but it's a dish served cold.

I never thought I would harbor this much ill feeling towards a political party. I'm a moderate Democrat. I see both sides. I always thought it was great to have a two party system, because it was a good form of checks and balances. But that system has stopped working. The Republican Ideal has become the Republican anchor chained to the legs of the working class, senior citizens, and the poor. It has decimated the labor force. It is educating our children to deny history, arts, and science in favor of economics and marketing. It has accepted that misappropriation, voter fraud, extortion and power plays are all "honorable." 

The Ideal Republican  is a fraud.

More and more conscience - driven and depleted conservatives are abandoning the Republican party and declaring themselves Independent because they can't stomach what has happened, and how it is affecting them as well. We have just witnessed the wide-spread extortion of not only the American people, but the world, during the debt ceiling treachery. It does not deserve the title crisis. The fight solved nothing. It has only created deeper problems, problems we have had before in our history, for the exact same reasons.

The only way to fight this corruption of our system is with votes. I will know who I am voting for, down to the smallest detail. I don't care what a candidate says, I go into the records of what that person does. I will NOT vote party. Do the same. Memorize the contact information of your elected officials and use it. Keep up with what's happening by using news sources other than Fox, which has admitted, time and again, that it is a propaganda machine. Use your common sense! The words out of a politician's mouth are not enough. Look at how he or she holds a hand on the backside.

Only by voting for the person and the record can we hope to build a liberal/conservative form of yinyang that works for us instead of the chaos we have now . I don't hate conservative thought. I hate what the Republicans have become.

Political ignorance hurts us. It already has. Give it up.