Reflections and Ruminations

finding my way


California, USA
January 31
I seek beauty and truth in a world filled with distraction, consumption and fear.


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OCTOBER 4, 2009 12:21AM

Chasing my dreams

It has been a good long time since I last posted on OS.  I do come here to visit everyday, but between my job, my children, husband and life chores, my blogging has dropped off into the abyss.  Thankfully I am still writing, journaling and taking a lot of notes. Just… Read full post »

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AUGUST 5, 2009 11:21PM

As an Adoptee, the "Birther's" Really Piss Me Off!

This story has already gotten old.  This topic is so old in fact that I am annoyed that I am even drawn into it discussion at all.  However, there is a subset of our population that I perceive to be very racist, mini-minds who are good at twoRead full post »


I cleaned out the refrigerator today!!!


From frustration and distraction to cleansing and clarity

Today was one of those days.  The days that one lives for in Southern California, sun up high, warm summer breezed and everyone is outside but me.

 Had aRead full post »


 Each day slips or passes by however you look at it... waiting from the time to pass, for my children to grow for the opportunities to present themselves to me.  Here I am hanging on the the edges of my perceived youth almost 39 years old... Loving every moment, yet… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 27, 2009 10:01PM

My True Confession: My Addiction

What are you doing?

I used to spend a lot more time doing others things about four months ago.  I was writing everyday, designing t-shirts,counseling clients on career/life issues until that fateful day when I signedup for Twitter.  If you haven't heard of Twitter by now you might beliving under a rockRead full post »

My American Flag

I am still processing all of my thoughts and emotions from yesterday's magnificent historical event.  I feel like the horror of the past eight years was almost washed away as our new President was sworn into office.  My husband and I with our two children watched the news fromRead full post »

 Santa Claus


It is very much that time of year again.  The hustle and bustle of the holidays... Spending too much money, eating too much food, rush, rush here there and everywhere.  I like Christmas. I think it is absolutely beautiful, shiney, sparkley magical wonderland of splendor… Read full post »

Me with my son and

After speaking to my b-mother for the first time, it was a rush like no other.  I wasn’t sure what to do with myself.  I jumped up and down a lot. I wanted to get drunk immediately or go workout or do both at the same time. I wasn’t quite… Read full post »

While thinking about this article, it occurred to me just how many bad, sad and crazy jobs I have had over the years.

One of the main reasons I decided to become a career counselor was because of my first “real” job that I took after receivingRead full post »

NOVEMBER 20, 2008 8:12PM

The Day My Birthmother Called Me, Part I


This story began long, long ago.   Before I ever came into this world, I had a history, a genealogical link to the past that was bigger than who I was, only I didn't know it.


 I was born in 1970 and then adopted at 8 eight days of ageRead full post »

NOVEMBER 16, 2008 3:44PM

Disappointed but not Surprised...

So I was perusing through my Sunday morning news websites, reading up on all the changes happening in our country:  the insane economic slowdown, Obama's transition team, what teams are playing today, etc.  I then came across an article highlighting how President-Elect Obama has been the ta… Read full post »

Okay so here we go!   Where do we begin for a person who really needed to read the cues and stop talking a week ago? Yet here she is speaking to every media outlet with her compelling tale about how she was mistreated by the McCain campaign.  But let me beginRead full post »

NOVEMBER 10, 2008 12:26AM

Who are those people who Don't vote?

 Election Day, Politics, Voting, Democracy, Participation


Okay, the election is over, finally. We can go back to doing whatever it was that we did before. (I think we can anyway.)  The results are in, those of us who were excited about the outcome have been in a bit of a daze forRead full post »

NOVEMBER 5, 2008 5:02PM

Still all choked up!

I have been glued to the TV now for the past 24 hours... Yesterday, was one of the longest days of my life.  It seemed to just hang in the air.  You feel it.  Almost a shift in the weather, a sense of momentum, a renewed sense of what it means… Read full post »

Recently, I was driving down the road...  



 When what did I see driving towards me on the other side of the street but this Life Guard Tower perched precariously on top of a flat bed truck. Police motorcycles flanking it on either side with thoseRead full post »

You know the last few days in my mind  have blended of late thinking about lots of things, wondering about what I might write next.  I look upon the posts on thoroughly impressed with the depth of subject matter and quality of writing.  You are all so smart, so verbose… Read full post »


I am what you would call an open-minded person, or at least I VERY much like to think that I am.  I live by the creed of pretty much 'live and let live' as long as it isn't too offensive, weird and/or gross and in myRead full post »

OCTOBER 9, 2008 10:40PM

I voted today..

I got my California Absentee ballot yesterday.  I filed out it out with the greatest of care and focus so as to not screw it up and put it in the mail.

It felt great!  But will it matter?


The way in which things are going down in several key… Read full post »

OCTOBER 8, 2008 12:03AM

Tonight's Debate

I thought Obama did an excellent job tonight.    I still think that this is not in the back until Nov. 5th. I would put NOTHING past the incumbents in power... Sorry, just saying... Read full post »

OCTOBER 7, 2008 12:45AM

Monday: The Sequel

Okay so today is one of those days.  You know the ones where you can just sense that it is going to be an annoying day, aggravating commute, house not as clean as you would like to leave it to be as you rush out the door.   There you are, It’sRead full post »

OCTOBER 3, 2008 1:09AM

I Will NEVER change... anything.

Why on earth is that an asset?  When Palin said tonight ‘you were for it before you were against it’.   When did the notion of “not changing” ones’ mind come to be seen as a sign of strength? 


Back in 2003 when the resolution to go to war… Read full post »

Since the time when I was a little girl in the 1970’s, I have noticed a big change in the way in Americans view and understand the world and the role we play in it.  When Nixon resigned in 1972, I actually remember that moment.  I was sitting in my highRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 30, 2008 5:05PM

The Sounds around us: Are we listening?

What we hear.  What do we hear?  A lot of things for starters.  The world is an incredibly noisy, sometimes so totally irritatingly annoyingly loud place.    

But what do we hear? Me talking about my own stuff.  Me nagging at my children and them not listening&helliRead full post »

I have given this great thought over time on how to live ones' life profoundly well in these most uncertain times. 


Why are there some people who are unable to reflect upon themselves in any meaningful way (i.e. George W. Bush has given me great pause on this veryRead full post »