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SarahTheRed
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January 01
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Teacher
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Public School
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I teach history to high school students, because I like it actually. But sometimes I get the feeling that they are trying to destory my soul.

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OCTOBER 1, 2009 9:23AM

Could you be with someone who did not respect your talent?

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I have recently realized that my husband does not have very much respect for my creative talents.  When we met I was studying to be a professional performer, hopefully in musical theater.  When I met my husband I quit and changed college majors.  I now teach (oh the irony) and LOVE it.  I put my love of theater and performing in a lock box in my heart, and have been pretty satisfied with the life I have chosen.

THEN...I audition for  a production, get cast and have a mind blowing experience on and off stage.  I sing!  I dance! I loose weight! I drink!  I start to feel panic attack come on as we get closer and closer to our closing night.  Its not just about the fun, its about rediscovering who I was in the past, and trying to mesh it with who I am today (namely an adult).  

 But the kicker really is the fact that my husband thinks that he saved me from a failed career because he doesn't think that I am overall that talented.  My awareness of this had bounced around for many years, but when I tried to communicate to him my desire to become more involved in the arts at my job and in the community, I could tell that he was nonplussed.

Now, let me tell you, I am not a crazy American Idol reject who is delusional about their own abilities.  I have performed in New York damnit! 

 I can't begin to describe how this makes me feel.  I know in the long run it doesn't really matter.  But I also know that the likelihood of keeping his support in the future is not as strong.  I know I am going to have a hard time getting past this.  

So tell me OS, is it possible to be with someone who does not respect your creative talents?   Is it an important part of a partnership, or in the long run...not?

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I think that respect in almost any aspect helps bond a couple. But it has to be sincere. As long as he respects you in most ways, I wouldn't worry about all ways. At least that's what I've learned.
I have a feeling the respect will come, maybe in small increments, but come it will. After all, surely he will watch you perform and see your talent first hand.

Of course, you are a history teacher. Doesn't that mean you are performing in front of more than a hundred 15 - 18 year olds every day?
First of all, congratulations on performing in NY. I would say that respect is important, but most of all respect your own talent. If he can't appreciate it, that isn't a negative reflection on your talent.
Congrats - and I'm glad you're enjoying it. To do what you love, well, it's like watching a flower bloom. Your husband's reaction is a product of his upbringing and his history and what's in his head - it has nothing to do with you, really. Keep doing what you love - eventually he'll think differently. And if he never does, you'll know when it's time to change things. All things happen in their own time, when our heads are ready for them. For now - just enjoy it. Life is for living to it's fullest. Sing - dance - enjoy!
its part of being a sig.other that you reinforce the partners passions as long as they are wholesome/healthy etc. if not, well then that sorta messes up the whole equation.
Oh, wow, Sarah, that is tough, and I'm not sure I have a good answer. It has probably been easier for me to accept that my husband doesn't really much care for my writing--I presented him seven years ago with the first full draft of my novel, and he still hasn't read it--because he doesn't read much fiction anyway. But it still would help so much for *someone* else, especially one's life partner, to believe in one's life dream. Art is lonely, and sometimes even true love is too.