I have recently realized that my husband does not have very much respect for my creative talents. When we met I was studying to be a professional performer, hopefully in musical theater. When I met my husband I quit and changed college majors. I now teach (oh the irony) and LOVE it. I put my love of theater and performing in a lock box in my heart, and have been pretty satisfied with the life I have chosen.
THEN...I audition for a production, get cast and have a mind blowing experience on and off stage. I sing! I dance! I loose weight! I drink! I start to feel panic attack come on as we get closer and closer to our closing night. Its not just about the fun, its about rediscovering who I was in the past, and trying to mesh it with who I am today (namely an adult).
But the kicker really is the fact that my husband thinks that he saved me from a failed career because he doesn't think that I am overall that talented. My awareness of this had bounced around for many years, but when I tried to communicate to him my desire to become more involved in the arts at my job and in the community, I could tell that he was nonplussed.
Now, let me tell you, I am not a crazy American Idol reject who is delusional about their own abilities. I have performed in New York damnit!
I can't begin to describe how this makes me feel. I know in the long run it doesn't really matter. But I also know that the likelihood of keeping his support in the future is not as strong. I know I am going to have a hard time getting past this.
So tell me OS, is it possible to be with someone who does not respect your creative talents? Is it an important part of a partnership, or in the long run...not?


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Of course, you are a history teacher. Doesn't that mean you are performing in front of more than a hundred 15 - 18 year olds every day?