Conversations in my mind

....and occasional leakage into print


California, USA
February 26
I had a blog on 360 (yahoo)..then moved to Multiply when they crashed and burned. Now am dabbling in Facebook. None of it is really what I want. Still working on a Bio--work in progress. Me, not the description.

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JANUARY 25, 2011 10:31AM

Caterpillar Dreams...... a poem

Years ago I read Marcus Bach's "I, Monty"  ... in which he asks " Do you suppose a caterpillar knows it's future lies in butterflies?"

Thinking about that inspired this..metaphorically looking for my own place in my own future.




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I was always a "goody two shoes". I never broke the rules, always respected authority, and went out of my way to brown-nose  my teachers. No, really, this isn't a lead in to a joke. I was. That was me. I was obnoxious. Why that was, is a completely different blog,Read full post »

This is not my story. However, since it unfolded in public, it became the property of all who followed it.

It began a couple of years ago on Multiply, a social/blogsite where many  found homes after Yahoo 360 .

I was only peripherally aware, at first, that there was an… Read full post »

JANUARY 18, 2011 12:41PM

Body and Mind

I think this one speaks for itself 

Body And Mind 

You’ve entered my mind and
Overtaken my soul so softly,
So stealthily, that I did not notice.
I felt no need to examine my
Nor bare my feelings to myself
Until the time without you was spent
Dreaming of the moments near you,
And I c
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JANUARY 14, 2011 12:13PM

Take the Civility Pledge

 Keith Olberman interviewed  Republican Congressman Mark DeMoss last night on the subject of his great failure. DeMoss  simply asked every member of congress, and every state governer to be civil with regard to their political and personal dealings. Civil. Isn't that what we teach our… Read full post »

JANUARY 13, 2011 9:14PM

Elusive You....A Love Poem

There is a point, when you are falling in love, where you feel the fall begin, and are powerless to stop it. Whether it is wise, whether it is good, makes no difference. It is happening, and all you can do is be there.


Elusive  You 

 I love your smile,
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...and now I am looking toward my 60th.


It's not a joke. I did throw myself a surprise birthday party.  I wrote out invitations, described what I was doing, where I would be and when, and asked not to have anyone at all contact me. Just show up.

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JANUARY 12, 2011 2:28PM

My Inner Child is on a Time Out

Yesterday she  agitated me so much I  left the gym well before my workout was completed. Today I tried to make her sit quietly while I organized the chaos of tax papers and receipts, but she continues to act up.  Right now, as I type, she is nagging me for aRead full post »

JANUARY 11, 2011 9:15PM

Identity theft...happy new year....

I joined OS, coincidentally, on the day I learned I was a victim of identity theft.  My first three blogs were written in a state of shock and disbelief.  I resort to a strange kind of humor  under that kind of stress..sort of a flight of ideas, tongue in cheek, sayRead full post »

JANUARY 11, 2011 12:01PM


In my "extreme" youth, everything was drama..everything was all weighed the same. And love was new.  Separation was an abyss. This is a writing from a time..the first time.. that I did not plunge into that abyss. It was a revelation.  



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JANUARY 10, 2011 3:13PM

Drea..Growing into her Training Vest

 Mom has been home with me a lot this week. She had something called surgery, so she didn't go to work.  It was fun having her here to teach me stuff. I know a lot of words now. My brothers help teach me too. Mom will tell them to do something,Read full post »

JANUARY 9, 2011 11:46AM

Crossings..a Poem

But first, the inevitable explanation..I don't make GOOD friends easily- but some years ago a person came into my life who just seemed to fit naturally. That is rare, and I "went" with it. This was a person with  many issues,  much heavy personal baggage.  It seemed, ultimately, that IRead full post »

JANUARY 8, 2011 7:04PM

Speak Drea. Good Dog!

 My name is Drea, and I am a 10 week old labrador retriever. I don't know what that means, but evidently I am going to grow up to be much bigger, because people keep saying so. All I know is that right now I have a new home and 2 newRead full post »

I retired early in order to pursue more than just the daily work grind before my health gave out.  I wanted to travel. I wanted to volunteer, I wanted to give something back to-- someone-something..but the decision was difficult.  Hard to travel and do all that.   But the one thinRead full post »

JANUARY 7, 2011 12:14PM

Obligation and Insanity

“Lend money to an enemy, and thou will gain him, to a friend and thou will lose him.”  Benjamin Franklin

I can’t recall ever lending money to an enemy..nor can I think why I might do so.  But I can say I have lent money to friends, and my score onRead full post »

JANUARY 6, 2011 6:02PM

Haikus (Open Call)


 Response to Heidibeth's Open Call.



Fragrant rain from tearful sky
Sad soul – dark clouds
Greet the day


Anger creeps in, edging fear
Boiling, erupts, then
Quiets once again

Navajo National Monument (2)*

Sinful, decadent delight
Trickling evidence
The melting cone

*ice cream

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Humor is often used as a weapon--offensive OR defensive.. It comes in all forms- gentle, coaxing, witty, double entendre, slapstick, in your face, cynical, sarcastic, teasing, visual, audio, pull my finger, pun, play on words, ethnic, political, morbid, juvenile..oh it goes on.

My parents were the&nbRead full post »

JANUARY 5, 2011 11:47AM

The Struggle Against "What Is".

It's a popular expression.."It is--what it is". What could be more true? I say it myself, in an effort to force myself to stop attempting to take control of something I have no power over. Long ago I stopped saying "If only..." and  "But if..."  When it rains on your

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DECEMBER 29, 2010 8:44PM

Re-hash.....a poem to my mother

I am always asked why I don't publish more of my poetry. Honestly, it's because I always have to overthink it first. I have to tell you why it was written how I was feeling, blah blah.   This one is pretty self explanatory. My mother was dying--and I knew it. IRead full post »

DECEMBER 27, 2010 9:42PM

In Response to Dave R's OPEN Call

Dave asked for poetry- a poetic prediction set in the future--100 years from now..what will the world be like.  I sort of chose --how one person would feel about what the world is like..So here is future man--still alive through science--:

 ( To the cadence of “Hello Muddah Hello FaddRead full post »

DECEMBER 27, 2010 10:23AM

OPEN CALL---Describe Your Perfect Day

I was doing a "positive thinking" thing the other day, and the exercise was to describe-in a fair amount of detail- your perfect day.  How would a perfect day look in your life.? It wasn't supposed to be completely outlandish - like- I would win the lottery, buy everything I wantRead full post »

Christmas 1956
This morning I awoke to the expected Christmas morning excitement and frenzy.
Little feet jumping on my bed, toys strewn about the floor,  competition for my attention and approval.
But I don't have children. And this is how  I am greeted EVERY morning--by my two… Read full post »
DECEMBER 24, 2010 3:31PM

The Eyes....

...a poem    


 The eyes, I knew, I’d seen before.

I remembered them so well;

Yet could not put a face to them,

Nor time - nor place could tell.

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 A continuation of was such a full rich day.
Late in the afternoon the mailman brought to me......wait for it...three MORE fat "Welcome to ATT" envelopes (sans phones) .
It was like Christmas in Hell.
I opened them with much the same attitude with which I'd haveRead full post »
So that was yesterday.Lily as Ernestine
See previous blog
This morning I got back on the phone with ATT and called their fraud department.
 A guy named Guy took the info/story, checked the file, and concluded that since the account was suspended, and would be canceled once they receive the phone back, andRead full post »