I am not a religious person. I've probably been in three churches in my life, and two of those were for weddings. Do I believe in God? I don't know, it's too hard to get a handle on the whole thing. By thing, I'm talking about the Bible. It just cannot be true, everything in it, it's just not possible. I've read the Bible, and have studied different books on the differing meanings of it. I just can't believe something that was written thousands of yeas ago, by man no less, could be completely true. Men have done more damage to others in the name of the Bible than all the plagues and wars combined.

The Ten Commandants would be great if everyone lived by them, but I know of no one person who can. You can't stop what goes on in your heart, or head. It's just not possible. I will not covet! Even if you don't do the act, like Jimmy Carter said in a Playboy interview, he lusted in his heart. That in itself is a sin, according to the Bible. I have never been sold on the whole idea, of a God who is so mean. A God that will kill men women and children on a whim is no God.

A God that would let some people live like Kings, even though they have blood on their hands is no God. To let a child starve to death doesn't seem to me a Godly thing, especially if he could just stop it with a flick of his finger. What pleasure could this God get watching people die agonizing deaths? I know, he works in mysterious ways, right? Bullshit! This isn't mysterious, it's deviant. It is deviant behavior to want to watch people or animals die in such gruesome ways. It just is.

Do I believe in a superior being. Yes. I believe at one time people far superior to us must have traveled this earth. But I believe they were a decent people, who came and tried to help mankind out. Not send them to wars to die. There might have been a Garden Of Eden for all I know. This whole world may be, or was, the Garden of Eden. And we just screwed it up, as we're doing such a good job of now. Somewhere, mankind went off the tracks. Greed and lust took over, and we all know the one with the most power gets the biggest piece of the cake. It's human nature.

I do not begrudge anyone their beliefs. If this is what it takes to sustain you and your family, go for it. I'm also not saying there is anything wrong with religion. I might be wrong. Believe me, it damn sure won't be the first or last time  I was wrong about something. As a matter of fact, I've been wrong a lot more than I have been right. So see what I do, and do the opposite and you'll never go wrong. I guess I'm just in mourning for Zoey, or I'm just on the doldrum express going nowhere. Maybe I'm back in my depression period, who knows. I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round' and round'. Thanks John!