Can I turn?
Did I travel too far?
Can I steady the floor?
I cannot leave go the spot.
I cannot leave go the need.
I cannot leave.
I cannot stay.
Am I strong enough yet?
Do I have wind for this now?
Will I make this yet another go?
I feel all of the old frustration
rising.
Did I lie when I said it had left?
Why did one stick?
How can one sleep?
How can one sleep?
The eldest is seeking employment.
Why, mom?
The middle has come undone.
Why, mom?
The youngest sits bewildered with the span.
I am not sure, mom.
What now, mom?
How, mom?
When, mom?
Wasn't it just last year
it seemed like an easy breath?
Hadn't the cars slowed?
Hadn't the wrecks ceased?
Weren't they all wearing belts?
Weren't their lives all settled?
Weren't their friends responsible?
Is it always on a slope?
Is it always on the fall?
Will there always be another crash?
Should I expect more bad choices?
Solo,
I forgot.
I traveled.
I slept.
I loved.
I laughed.
I swirled color.
I dreamed speed.
What if I forget again?
Must I always remember?
Scupper © 2/2010


Salon.com
Comments
(And, I don't think you really forgot. I think you took a little break, and maybe they were all on the up slope for a bit.)
But such talk is fix-it talk, and I suspect that what you need right nowe is "Poor baby" talk. Hugs to you, scupper. Hugs.
So, without the thinnest thread of qualification, I dare to say this is a powerful poem. (r)
love this:
"Wasn't it just last year
it seemed like an easy breath?"
When will they be independent?
How can one sleep ? '
The hows and why's and whens
and must I's, I'm thinking, turn on your answer,
so beautifully expressed.
We forget, and we remember - if you want to help a child,
love their mother. Cliched for good reason, I'm thinking.
I love your writing.