Scylla the Rock

Scylla the Rock
October 28
Rogue Soldier Bad Cop I always believed in redemption through violence until I became crippled and retired. Now I seek redemption through forgiveness. "...fear, that secret fear that follows every professional to the grave. Namely, that one day, out of a past so complex that he himself could not remember all the enemies he might have made, one of them would find him and demand the reckoning."-LeCarre "Men die and they are not happy"- Camus


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DECEMBER 19, 2014 11:40PM

To The Pain at 50

At 50

"At a certain age a man has to be what he deserves"-

John Cornwell



Scylla can’t stop staring. It’s the mirror and this thing he sees there as he prepares to shave. This slight and very thin ugly man staring back. Ugly he knows… Read full post »

APRIL 7, 2014 4:16AM

Worse Things

Worse Things

“You’re going to do things you won’t be able to live  with … it gets worse. And you’ll do worse things, just to prove you can take it.”-James Ellroy

A man stands outside in the early morning, fecund dark and  dew wet, the moon is down.  Read full post »

APRIL 23, 2013 7:49PM



“…the veteran dreams of the fight,

fast asleep at the traffic light.”

-Jackson Brown

The William Jennings Bryant Dorn Veteran’s Administration hospital in Columbia, South Carolina is a sharp looking building residing on the campus of the University of SoutRead full post »

APRIL 14, 2013 3:13PM

The Finest of 2013

The finest of 2013


It was MRSA and it was raging and kicking ass in the bones of your spine.  The docs missed it for almost ever, finally they figured it out.  You survive but you’re fucked, let’s count coup; three vertebrae, two ribs, one lobe of your/Read full post »

OCTOBER 1, 2012 1:38AM

Shave and a Haircut and War

Sarah worried.  She departs for a long tour of Afghanistan in a few weeks and frets for Scylla.  Her man appears well and strong now but Sarah, having a long, intimate relationship with depression fears he will suffer depression again whenst she leaves.  He is alone, says he… Read full post »

JUNE 24, 2012 9:59PM

The End of the Day

The End of the Day

"Beauty is truth, truth beauty

that is all ye know on earth

and all ye need to know."-John Keats

"My fears are reserved for the deeds of the day,

that are fading away..."-Doug Paisley

The 25th Infantry Division (Tropic Lightning), Schofield Barracks,… Read full post »

MAY 30, 2012 7:00AM

Kolekole Pass

Kolekole Pass

"To climb and climb forever."


The Wainae bowl from the Kolekole Pass


Sarah and Scylla moved back onto post just short of one year ago.  Their neat three bedroom home sits in the shadow of the Wainae mountain range.  Near their home runs a road up to… Read full post »

DECEMBER 30, 2011 10:56PM

Pure Ablution

Breaching Whale 

"The moving waters at their Priestlike task

of pure ablution round Earth's human shores."

-John Keats

The truth is that if not for the poke Brother Thomas would not have dragged me out to sea. 

Tuesday last, bright and humid after the morning winter rain. After the heavy iron… Read full post »

DECEMBER 11, 2011 2:49AM

Being Wanted

"It takes a long time before we cease to feel proud of being wanted.  Though God knows why we should feel it, when we look around and see who is wanted too."-Graham Greene

She comes at night like a wraith.  Her lips and kisses a gossamer whisper. Faint, subtle yet stronger then… Read full post »

OCTOBER 31, 2011 5:23AM

The World is Grown so Bad



"He saw very clearly how all his life led only to this moment and all after led to no where at all.  He felt something cold and soulless enter him like another beRead full post »

OCTOBER 28, 2011 11:32PM

Aceldama or Peace in Our Time.



"War was always here.  Before man was, war waited for him.  The ultimate trade awaiting its ultimate practitioner."
-Cormac Mcarthy
On 22 October, Sergeant First Class (SFC) Kristoffer B. Domeij was killed in Afghanistan by an IED.  Two other soldiers were also killed (1… Read full post »
OCTOBER 18, 2011 10:52PM

A Beautiful Day

 What shadows we are and what shadows we persue-Burke

 Scylla pushes the Cobra hard down RT 750.  His son's car that they rebuilt from the suspension up, the supercharger whines as Scylla steps on the throttle. His son's Rottweiler is standing in the passenger seat hanging her head in… Read full post »

JULY 22, 2011 10:41PM

Scylla at rest


 "We cut, we scratched, we rend, we slash

and when he opened up at last

found a cul-de-sac

deep in black."-N. Merchant

Old man steps, that shuffling gate with a cane.  Scylla moves slooooow.  He cannot believe he is doing this again.  How many recoveries can one man  m… Read full post »

JULY 8, 2011 1:34AM

A Sacrifice for Sarah

My son, my son 

John Alexander, Our Son

25 September 1987-6 May 2009

A pain without end. 


"I think you did your duty.

Unfortunately there are many kinds of loyalty and we cannot serve them all at once.  Next time you will make a better choice."

-Le Carre

Sarah.  She is beautiful,… Read full post »

JUNE 25, 2011 11:05PM

Scoring dope and the unwanted dog

"Once upon a time we try our laughter.

On the blackboard of pain"-E. Perkins


Alexander II, Alec (or Duece as I called him in our private joke) came home from Iraq in early 2008.  That he was suffering was obvious to his father.  12 or 16 or 18 months fighting in… Read full post »

JUNE 17, 2011 12:25AM

Things fall apart

 "...Things fall apart; the center can not hold;

Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned..."-W.B. Yeats

 Scylla squats in the bush above Makikilo Heights.  Facing east, watching for the Hawaiian sun to… Read full post »

MAY 28, 2011 10:28PM

Felony Manslaughter


"Take note of what you seek, for it is seeking you."-Anon

So there it is.  A few days after two years, the lad who murdered my son pleaded guilty to felony manslaughter.  He was sentenced to ten years with five suspended.  So five years in prison.  Five years f… Read full post »

APRIL 29, 2011 1:21AM

Doc Departed

"Men die and they are not happy."-Camus
     Doc died in my arms.  On the filthy, dirty floor of a YMCA gym as I shouted and then screamed, "Stay with me!  You fucking stay with me Doc!", while I craddled him in my arms he blew his last breath… Read full post »
MARCH 14, 2011 2:16AM

Brothers Paladin

Point Panic 

Brothers Paladin

"He stood by me when I was crazy, and I stood by him when he was drunk, and now, sir, we stand by each other always."

-General William Techumseh Sherman discussing his brother-in-arms General Ulysses S. Grant


The car moves swiftly up from lower Kapolei beach… Read full post »

JANUARY 1, 2011 1:23AM

Days of Auld Lang Syne


 Should auld acquaintance be forgot, and never brought to mind?

Should auld acquaintance be forgot, and days of auld lang syne?

So a hard year.  A very hard year.  We must live and remember and love those who've gone.  Their strength, and heart and love course through… Read full post »

Editor’s Pick
NOVEMBER 12, 2010 7:23AM

The mercy of the dead

The mercy of the dead.

"...all stories, if continued far enough, end in death, and he is no true story-teller who would keep that from you."-Hemingway


After my son was murdered, after the Coroner, after the Requiem Mass, after the burial, after the detectives I was provided with the contact… Read full post »

OCTOBER 27, 2010 5:17AM

St. Crispin's Day- We Happy Few

I recite this speech and pray a rosary each St. Crispin's day (25 October)and Veteran's day.  I think of my dead both friend and foe, wish and pray them well.  So if any read this; pray for our fallen and remember our soldiers. 

-Saint Crispin's Day Speech-

-Henery V-WilRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 26, 2010 4:38AM

While you were sleeping


"While you were sleeping our babies grew,

the stars shined

the shadows moved...

While we stared for hours in our makers face."-E.P.



     Today (25 Sep) is my son's birthday.  He is 23, yet now he is always 21.  He was shot to death 6 May 20… Read full post »

AUGUST 10, 2010 11:47PM

The Book of Love To OS

The Book of Love is long and boring

and written very long ago.

It's full of  flowers and heart shaped boxes

and things we're all to young to know.- P. Gabriel


I am in debt to OS.  I can not single out those of you who have saved meRead full post »

JULY 10, 2010 5:10AM

Each Day a Lie

"He knew only that the child was his warrant.  He said:  If he is not the word of God God never spoke."-Cormac McCarthy

6 May 2009

His son is dead.  He stands silent and hard at his son's bier.  His tremendous arms hold up two sobbing, wracking women. … Read full post »