First vlog post, laughing too much to get to the point:



Second post, just forgot the point:


I did a third one, too, when the Plain White T's Rhythm of Love song came on a minute after because I thought I'd remembered the point but all I could get was "I like songs…

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Imma do this periodically to get rid of tweet-like thoughts and others that haven't formed into blog posts, yet.

• People I know from offline have been reading this blog and not telling me they've been reading it and I find that a little weird (that they're pretending they haven't read it).
  
• Some of
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Not Home Depot or Lowe's. No. Hardware stores. Everything is packed in so tightly there's no free shelf space anywhere. Lots and lots and lots of little bins of things. Price tag stickers from pricing guns from twenty years ago. Nails, screws, bolts. Hardware.

I love being in the aisles at a…

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Just a very quick note that I realized I've got to take away my blogging keys for a few days. It's like drunk driving. When I'm just tipsy, I feel invincible. I do things that could get me into trouble or hurt me. I'm spastic and unpredictable and without any secure…

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It's been less than a day since I stopped tweeting. It's been less than a week since I stopped using tumblr. I've blogged here a lot, but it's filling a different need than those places were. This blog, so far, is a place where I write. A lot. I share my…

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In school I was always that student who asked questions. I've never known what it's like to hesitate in asking whatever comes to mind. Because this is a part of who I am, I spent a lot of time talking with people who don't ask. I find them fascinating. There's having…

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Just an admin note that I posted the "Google following" list over there on the right side of this here blog. It's got the main personal blogs I follow, plus Glenn Greenwald for some special serious sauce. At some point I'll likely share descriptions of these folks and their work. That'll…

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• When I leave my laptop in an awkward position but start writing something I convince myself it will be for only a moment because it's too uncomfortable to stick with for very long but instead I keep writing and end up really stiff and achey. (Note written at the end of
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There are a few reasons I'm not going to share the two photos I took of myself in just my underwear. I was going to write about body image on a larger social scale. When I considered the implications of posting the photos, though, I realized that I would feel too…

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There's just no way to complain about it without hearing echos of people's voices that I'm taking it too seriously, that I'm egotistical and imagining things, or that I should just be flattered. And, sure, as I've said before, my mood affects how I respond to the attention. But, today at…

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Who wouldn't behave badly if their lives were like this?

Simply walking can be challenging. Falling down instead of getting across the room if I go just a little too fast. 

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I did a little vlog entry (1.5 min) this morning and I almost deleted it because I was horrified at how I looked. I must have muttered something out loud because my daughter said, "What's wrong with your skin?" I said, "It's all blotchy and has red spots and..."

"It looks like…

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This week I got an iPhone. I've held out for years and years with a "dumb phone." I've been afraid to own a fancier phone for fear I'll never, ever disengage from online life. The whole experience has been really funny because I've always been the hardcore tech geek who people…

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My mother was totally sure it didn't happen that way. I was totally sure it did. Months ago we had a conversation about how we were supposed to bag, in sealed bags, any trash we put down the trash chute. They live on the 9th floor. It was one of those…

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A tweet I read just reminded me of some thoughts I've been having as I walk around our new apartment complex. For a variety of reasons, I get stared at by men a lot. Some of it has to do with cultural differences, social class norms, and maybe simply an absence/…

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In Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, Robert Pirsig discusses his belief that because technology has rattled our world, we must find new roots of rationality to sort out our relationship with it. He says it's not that we should abandon rationality, but that we need to "expand the nature…

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The post I wrote about "not having time" for things ended with my pointing out that I was choosing to not take the time to write the post well. This has left me feeling unsettled. I believe in respecting the reader. Even if it's "just" my friends coming by to read…

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The post I wrote about "not having time" for things ended with my pointing out that I was choosing to not take the time to write the post well. This has left me feeling unsettled. I believe in respecting the reader. Even if it's "just" my friends coming by to read…

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I'm continuing to update the "America's creeping fascism" page (see the tab on this page), but it has grown into a cumbersome and awkward layout. At some point I'll organize it in a way that makes it user-friendly. For now, it's a manual list of links. Some have descriptions, some don't…

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People argue with me quite a bit when I tell them how I feel about this: There is no such thing as having not enough time to do something.

Sure, that's an exaggeration, but it's more true than false. The same holds for money. You could spend money on lots of things…

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The tattoo on Stephanie's leg reads: "If you understand, things are just as they are. If you don't understand, things are just as they are." Like Steph, this saying holds a lot of meaning for me. Unlike Stephanie, I connect it entirely with my concept of god. (She's an atheist and…

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It could be an old easy chair, a good flowing pen, and some fine linen paper. Maybe a cup of tea to round out the stereotype. Instead, it's my laptop as I'm sitting on the one tiny clear corner of my bed.

I'm going to write a letter (or two) tonight. A…

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A few days ago I something changed for me. Similar to my experience with the 2nd step of the 12 steps from the program in the book Alcoholics Anonymous, key parts of me have shifted. I'm not sure if I'll end up describing it as puzzle pieces falling back into place…

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A vlog post (2 min) after I realized how the state of our home reflects the place I put myself on the list of priorities. It has to be this way (it's not too bad) for my daughters' sakes. I'm also a strong believer, however, that when I put myself higher…

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