(What I am about to say makes me laugh. You’d have to read any prior blog of mine involving sex to understand.)

I think I might need angry sex. It’s hard to explain why. I’ve never had angry sex and I am not particularly fond of sex in/… Read full post »

So you have to work two jobs, huh? Three? No worries. Just follow these easy steps.

Step 1: Stop sleeping. You can sleep when you’re dead. Get over it. Maybe you can even pick up a fourth job. Don’t be so lazy, people! Take one for the economy. We’re not… Read full post »

Several days ago, I wrote the following:

I possess a strong fear of meeting or seeing anyone that I greatly respect for fear that they may disappoint me. I wonder if possibly I should never meet anyone. Am I not constantly disappointed in the behavior of others and so why would… Read full post »

I need to think through something. 

Where my thoughts began. . .

It’s funny how everything seems to relate back to television. It took me a couple of weeks but I finally finished watching Apt Pupil. And strangely enough I also watched The Human Stain on the/… Read full post »

So I forgot to go to my child’s parent teacher conference today. I suck. It’s official. I am in such a funk today too, probably why I forgot. 

That fact that I am a single parent of two kids (teenager and almost teen), going to school full time… Read full post »

Uncle Sam gave me almost five thousand dollars this spring, and I guess I put it to good use.

$62.50 local taxes

$170 doctor bill

$87 doctor bill

$595 car insurance

$4,000 on credit card (to bring the total balance down to $10,000)

Still owing ten thousand dollars… Read full post »

I am so screwed. I mean other than the fact that I am flirting with flunking (B or Cs) my grad classes (and would then ultimately lose my GA position). 

No, it’s just the same dang inner conversation I’ve been having with myself since I came to… Read full post »

I dreamt that I was in our barn and helping my father. I didn’t think until it was time to leave that I had to be somewhere and I now needed a shower. All I noticed was that he had quickly brought me my stool and that he seemed happy that… Read full post »

Another year has come and gone. It’s a strange sort of anniversary. The first couple of years passed with little notice, little care. I was too busy, consumed with day-to-day living. 

I have begun to notice.

I remember thinking how I couldn’t imagine a decade passing. B… Read full post »

The enemy is not the person pleading, with their hand out, starving for some truth that isn’t there; the enemy is the person denying that person their human rights. It’s not about what is mine or yours, but about what is ours. We cannot steal from each other, within stealing from… Read full post »

I sit here reviewing my entire semester assignments for my 3 classes. I am on the precipice of either a great fall or an enormous leap forward.  I can’t decide which.

I see an image of myself. . .I am studying in my free time, actually finding a way to… Read full post »

As a writer (and I cringe slightly describing myself as such), I am all about protecting my intellectual property.  So much so that I do not post anything that I might potentially profit from (you’ll notice I have no posts containing my short stories).  Trust me, they ex… Read full post »

January 23rd.  What a day.

It’s the day I start full time in my graduate program.  

It’s the first day I start my grad assistantship.

And it’s the day I see my neurologist.  

Well, actually, I have to work at my other part time job that day too,… Read full post »

T’was the night before Christmas, when all through the house,

Not a path existed, no, nowhere in the house.  

Nine boxes of Christmas decor, scattered where ever it’s clear,

In the hopes that someone will but them up this year.

My children are nestled all snug in their… Read full post »

I’m human capital.

What does that mean, really?  

Our society has finite resources.  

For example:

• lumber (for heat, toilet paper, tables, and to hold bird nests)
• coal (for heat and electricity)
• sun (for electricity and to grow our crops)
… Read full post »

I cannot afford expensive shampoos or lotions.  But I’ve found ways around that.  We can all do more with less.  

I am no expert, but I’m poor, creative, and willing to improvise.  I combined that with ideas from Cosmo circa 1994, my hair stylist (a woma/… Read full post »

4:21 Shannon

Be not afraid of your life.

Really that’s the time that I woke up, my body refusing to go back to sleep, unable to let go of the creepy dream (another day, another blog).  But then my mind began its race, more of… Read full post »

From about 2000 until 2005 I was regular user of my local libraries.  There are 5 within about a half an hour of my home (in a rural area).  I homeschooled my eldest child, while my youngest was a toddler, from grades 2 to 4.  It was a great… Read full post »

I tell myself that life is what you make it.

But maybe it’s what life makes you.

Sipping and savoring my $3.70 latte (almost half of my new hourly wage) on my day off before Thanksgiving, I resist going home and baking pies because it also means… Read full post »

I’m sick.  I know it.  My family knows it.  My doctor knows it.

But do I want my insurance company to know it as well?

Part of me thinks. . .no.

About 3 or 4 years ago I developed strange symptoms.  My left hand went numb,… Read full post »

Lately, commentators have been referring to my generation as the new Lost Generation (the Atlantic and Bloomberg, for example).  This once referred to the generation lost to the Great War, but it’s now being flung, draped over today’s young adults.  Including mysel/… Read full post »

 Someone recently asked what people were doing to survive the recession.  So the OCD in me made a list.  Some are simple, others maybe a little strange.  

Obviously, I stopped donating money.  I stopped volunteering at my local library to save money on ga… Read full post »

a.k.a.  How I am SURVIVING the (“POST”) RECESSION

Knowing that I am one of the millions in that 99% doesn’t make it any less lonely.  I was angry for so long, but at the wrong person. I was angry at myself.  

 I always felt like such a… Read full post »

Stop leaving me.

Just stay inside of me.

I never left you.

I need you.

I am not the same without you.

I was always there.

I cannot write, cannot be, without you.

I cannot be myself when I am… Read full post »

It’s been awhile.

But I found my way back.  I am not a constant force on this site, rather a mere occasional intruder.  I, for better or worse, use this blog to vent my feelings of betrayal, love or hatred, and hopefully, once in a while to shed some insight… Read full post »