You are the daughter that I desperately wanted. You are sensitive and generous, kind and giving, intelligent and insightful, loving and funny. You are my rational introvert, seeking knowledge and pushing yourself, and always wanting to make others feel better. It makes me so proud when you put other’s needs ahead of your own, but I hope that you learn to find balance and fit your needs in there too.
I wish you all the best of luck in life, whether you decide to be a scientist or a writer or a teacher, or something else entirely. You possess so much that you have the ability to succeed no matter what you choose. It is within you.
You make me laugh. And you make me want to be the very best person that I can. I ache to the be the very best mother to you.
I wanted you from the very beginning and I fought with all of who I was to bring you into this world. I do not regret a thing. I wanted to love you. I knew that you would be special and I loved you for it. I would make you again in a heartbeat.
When I made you, I didn’t realize how much you would want to have a father to know. I thought that I would be enough. I am sorry that I am not. I am sorry that he cannot love you. I can only hope that your uncle Chris and Grandma Karen are able to fill that hole you feel inside of yourself. I wish that I could just make it go away.
I know sometimes I am not the best mother to you, sometimes I am busy and I forget to cherish you. I am sorry. I would never want to be anything but intrigued by what you say and do, and are. You are my whole world. There is nothing I would want more than to be there for every second of every day and witness the wonder that you are.
I am certain that you can do anything that you put your mind to do. Just take what is inside of you and forget those things that make you afraid. The naysayers are just angry that they are not as beautiful and smart and talented as you. Ignore them and find yourself. Accept nothing less.
I want the very best for you. I am so excited to discover the person that you will grow into as you age.
Love your sister. She can be your best friend. She was there for every second of your life and she will be your family to the very end.
My favorite memories of this life were of cuddling with you, holding your in my arms, and listening to your amazing stories. You fascinate me.
You are my sun, moon, and stars.
I love you best. You are my baby and always will be. I will love you always.