Universe (or anyone reading),
I have to make a decision today. I have to know the answer within the next 2 and 1/2 hours.
Take graduate class for summer session 2.
Option one will cost me $1,7000 (public university). It is the class that I REALLY WANT, more than any of the other 6 classes I have to take to complete my degree. I don't have $1,700 and I can't get a student loan for only one class (and there are no other classes that I can or need to take available this summer). The cost will max out a second credit card.
If I take the class, then it screws up my schedule for next year. I need 6 more classes, and I have to take 3 classes a semester to be full-time, which is required in order to be a GA. I have to be a GA in order to afford to take the other classes. The Dean I work for, if he decides to keep me on, wants someone for the whole year.
But it is the only class I am excited to take. It will not be offered again while I am at the university.
Option 2 allows me to go full time for 2 more semesters, all paid as a GA.
But if I did take it, maybe I could do an independent study in August (and complete my research proposal as a "thesis"--the university does not have a thesis option). The Dean is opposed to independent study because (he says) it costs him money. But if I talked him into it, maybe I could then spend next spring just working part time (like I am now) and doing an internship somewhere. Maybe I could find a job in the spring somewhere else (almost an 'anywhere but here' thing).
What do I do?
I am at a loss.
Mike at the coffee shop suggested that I flip a coin (I asked if it's heads I take it and tails I don't). But he said it was not to leave it up to chance, but to let my mind decide as the coin fell.
The coin was heads.
And I thought. . .I want to take it.
But I still don't know what to do.
I kind of wish for a sign or someone to just tell me what to do.