There’s some kind of undercurrent running through my brain. Some as-of-yet unidentified but fast moving river of discomfort that is about to blow up and destroy all the current settings of my inner iPod. I’ve had two dreams that tell me something’s up.
First dream – my throat swells up like a bullfrog.
Second – my kitchen countertop buckles.
The throat swelling probably means I’ve got stuff to say and it’s stuck in my throat.
The kitchen countertop probably means the basis for everything I create is about to shatter (kitchens=making meals=creating the stuff we can’t live without=you can’t live on bread alone). Either that or I had a premonition of the Haitian earthquake – which is highly unlikely.
Amidst all the new revelations I've had recently, one of the most powerful was when Chicago Guy introduced me to the StrengthsFinder test. I had never considered how I operate intellectually. Honestly, I had never even pondered my strengths. We typically are told our weaknesses over and over – in the hope that we can overcome them. While our strengths are ignored or downplayed – as if we will appear boastful or prideful to recognize them and nurture them.
My Five Strengths resulted in the following analysis: I love ideas, I have a craving to know more, I’m interested in the process of learning, I am introspective and appreciate intellectual discussions, and I go with the flow. Bullseye.
This fascinated me because I never realized that I was doing this – I just did it. I remember when I was about 13 years old, studying the Cyrillic alphabet because it was in the back of the dictionary. The dictionary was one of my most oft-used books. Nowadays when I’m confused or curious about anything, I head straight to the half-price book store (they’re cheap and a lot of books that would not interest the major chains can be found there).
For a long time I thought most people did this. Then, after realizing that they did not – I thought I was weird. Now I’m happily pursuing my own brand of knowledge gathering – going with the flow for the most part anyway.
The problem I’m having lately is one of thinking stuff I can’t put into words – yet.
I don’t have a circle of friends who like to discuss intellectual matters. “Intellectual” makes it sound so froufrou – it would seem to me that anybody who lives and works and plays and participates in life would be interested in the world around them. That’s a rare breed in my neighborhood.
I just want to let you know that there are so many things floating around in my head lately that I’m off kilter. I apologize to anybody who’s posts I regularly read – if I’ve missed a few it’s because I’ve got too much going on at work, at home and in my head.
And in the meantime, here's what it's like inside my head: