I'm not someone who reaches out and asks for help. That isn't in my nature. So, someone upstairs decided to make it very easy for me the last few days.

First, that young lady from the Al-Anon meeting I mentioned in a previous post reached out to me. I told her what was happening and she provided a good ear and invited me and the kids over to play with her 6 year old son while her two older children were at sports practice.

It took me out of the situation here at home with my alcoholic wife who is in a serious tailspin. Her car keys are safely in my pocket. Today she called in sick and spent the day in bed passed out drunk ... I guess. I wasn't here and neither were the kids. 

I spoke with another friend about me possibly taking over a leadership position with the club we're in togther. He's the current president and I'm his second-in-command. When we started talking a little about what's been going on with me, I found out he is familiar with Al-Anon because he went to it with his mom as a pre-teen and teenager. His aunt was an alcoholic who passed away from a shot liver.

"You need to take care of home and family," he said. "If you can do something to better your family, do it. Don't put that energy into bettering the club."

He's probably right. My sponsor said I needed to look at all my commitments and start cutting back and prioritizing. 

Another bit of reaching out happened today when someone I work with -- and have known for 10 years -- called and asked me if I was OK. She could tell I haven't been myself lately. When I explained a little about the situation here, she offered to help me in anyway she could. I asked if she knew of anyone who could watch the kids for me on Tuesdays and she said, "Yes. Me."

Her previous boyfriend was an abusive alcholic. "If I didn't have the help and support I did, I couldn't have gotten through it," she said. "I have to pay that forward. I'm here for whatever help you need."

I told my wife she has to go if she isn't actively working her program. Tomorrow is the deadline.

That's all I have for tonight.