spotted_mind

spotted_mind
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PHX, Arizona, USA
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July 17
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Overall a survivor of the universe's cruelty. Not a professional writer, but always enjoyed writing and hoping to find it, and the support of the OS community, therapeutic. I have plenty of stupid things that cross my mind and I apologize in advance for exposing you to them. ;-)

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FEBRUARY 18, 2010 11:14AM

"Help I'm Alive"

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Ever wake up one day and feel amazement at the fact you’re alive? 

Seeing yourself from the outside is tricky, but every so often, I play my life story (like a movie in my head and finger on the fast-forward button), and simply think “Wow…”

…in a good way, in a train-wreck kind of way, but overall, at times I am in awe that my heart keeps beating like a hammer.

 

 

To me, this song represents making it through some extraordinary experiences.  Being surprised at how much one can handle, and still having the will to go on and create more fantastic memories, in spite of the fact that poor decisions have been made along the way.  There have been times when I really felt like giving up on life and couldn’t take anymore.  I suppose the passion to see what is around the next corner has kept me going.

Sometimes I am afraid of screwing up.

 Maybe I have already, and probably will again. No matter; I keep trying.  I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself, which may or may not change, but I do “get wherever I’m going.”     I do “get whatever I need,”  although I don’t always immediately recognize this.  

 “Hard to be soft, tough to be tender” describes me perfectly, except here on OS--you tend to smooth out my rough edges.  ;-)    

Nothing monumental has happened in my life recently, but on occasion I am struck with an epiphany from nowhere, and I wanted to share this one with you.  This song has been with me for days and I love it.

 “If my life is mine, what shouldn’t I do?”

Indeed.

 

Now, go… live your lives, and I hope that each one of you finds inspiration in a random song.  J

 

 

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Now I gotta get my happy ass in the shower & go to work soon.
;-)
Check out Easy to be Hard by Three Dog Night.
This is the song that plays in my head each morning when I wake up. It helps remind me that my life is MINE.

Thanks, rated
I like your attitude.

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I love Metric. Help I'm Alive is one of my favorite songs and I like the bits you've pieced together here!
Feeling for a pulse....
Yes!
What shouldn't I do?
Great, Spots, my kindred girl!
good on you, spot. i love happy. it makes me want to dance, so i do. keep it up, kiddo.
beating my hammer... sounds familiar.
I've said many times here on OS; life is good, mostly:)
Bobbot: I will—thanks for the tip!
Stephalupagous: I haven’t gotten sick of it yet…it’s a good thing. :-)
Mike: Thanks—it took lots of self-reflection and years of suffering to cultivate. ;-)
Ryan: I love Emily’s voice! And thanks, glad you liked this.
Sharon: I knew you would like this! xoxoxo
Femme: Sometimes you gotta make your own “happy.” xoxoxo
Carpentrig: What’s wrong with you? ;-) xoxoxo
The sounds of tractors plowing these fields around my house means this damn winter is almost over, and SPRING is just about here, Yeah!
I've said it before, and I'll say it again . . . you ROCK spotted_mind!
After a certain age, my dear, similar thoughts occur every morning one wakes up, I'm afraid. (r)
After a certain age, my dear, similar thoughts occur every morning one wakes up, I'm afraid. (r)
Livin' is quite an art form, ain't it...? Have a great day. ;-)
I find inspiration in the Oscar Mayer Bologna jingle...
You Go Happy Ass Girl!

Yay for sharing Metric. Emily is tres cool.
Living is more frightening to me than dying.

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What a great song; and a really interesting interpretation. Every artist should have someone like you to make their music seem essential and meaningful. Every music lover like me should have an enabler like you to give me good reasons to add to my life's soundtrack....
I tend to think about the problems we face as a normal aspect of life itself, and not something "added on", the same way the good stuff is. Thinking of them in this way allows me to cope with them better and not be miserable about it all.

I dig your attitude.
Every day above ground and breathing is a good day.
You inspire me today Spotted.
Thank you. Just being Happy is great, no matter whether something wonderful has happened or not.
Awesome reminder here for us all.
great song! & yeah, it is scary sometimes being all happy & recognizing that you've made it this far in spite of a past that held odds you wouldn't...I like your "epiphany from nowhere."
Scanner: And that is reason for MUCH rejoicing!
Owl: You'll always be my favorite--Shhhh! Don't tell the others! xoxoxo
WAH: I heart you, too, Happy Girl!
ClarkK: Yup...I also could have posted about the "Now what the hell was doing?" moments. ;-)
dynomyte: To some, yes! I love that thought--thank YOU! xoxoxo
Surly: Why am I not surprised? ;-)
Scarlett: I think you mentioned Metric to me a while ago and I was gonna PM you, but didn't have time. Glad you liked it!
littlewillie: Absolutely. :-)
Ann: Thank you so much! Life soundtracks are important; music has always been a huge part of my life.
kerc: Rock on! Life isn't "fair" or perfect. Don't get me wrong, I'm not always sunshiney, but I do believe everything happens for a reason.
Mission: "Mission Accomplished." Of all people I would hope to inspire, you're at the top of the list. :-)
Lady Dove: Good to see you smile. :-)
Pilgrim: I am deeply flattered to have you find my thoughts inspiring! :-)
suzie: I love sharing great songs and happiness with my friends--glad you like it!
I am crazy about your happpy spotted ass.
xo, Spotted. Great song--great album, btw. Buncha Canadians. Wouldn't you know it.
Metric is the coolest!

"Ever wake up one day and feel amazement at the fact you’re alive?"

Sometimes I do, and it's something I especially try to do when I'm feeling just the opposite. Every day above ground is a victory....
You did it Spotted. You did it very well.
I shout out a big TY too!! ;=)
Sending thoughts of peace and love for putting a smile on my face this fine day! Another song to add to my collection, thanks a bunch for sharing with us all! :-)
I am recognizing more and more that the pressures to accept things, that aren't acceptable, live a certain way that is vacant and empty and the simple insanity of our culture affect us all no matter how much armor we put up. I am on a rampage. I have not turned on my television for two months now. I am going to be happy as much of each day as I can. I listen to music on headphones and have tried to fill up my life with positives. I look up at the clouds and walk around. I am washing my brain of all the bullshit and it is working. Thanks for this song; I will add it to the collection. What is so great about misery?
1_I_M: Aw...I'm crazy about your irritated ass! ;-)
Ken: Canadians rouck! xoxoxo
Nana: I've had days that sucked bad, but even pretending you're happy, when you are sooo not, works. Amen to living.
Mission: XOXOXO!
Raven Windsong: Thanks for the peace & love. Really, it's my pleasure to share.
Dr. S: I find this song to be a profound juxtaposition between self-doubt and self confidence. Self confidence and happiness wins. Good on you for rising above the bullshit. xoxoxo
I often narrate my life--especially when I have a situation I'm exploring. I don't see the film, but I hear the narration and in the event I'm ever inspired to put most of it to page--I'm using a pseudonym.

I won't burden you with my theme song...smiles.
Mine right now would be "There coming to take me away" hahaheeheehoohoo. But I love your message!
I'm amazed to wake up every morning. Great song; music truly is a great way of expressing the highs and lows of life.
Now if I could only bridge the gap between what I'm good at and what people will actually pay me to do.
Oh, yeah. You'll screw up again. We all will. But that's no reason not to BE FEARLESS. (I'm screaming in all caps because I don't know how to make italics here.)

I adore this line: “If my life is mine, what shouldn’t I do?”

And in the words of WalkAwayHappy, I heart you.

xo
Thanks for the great reminder.
Every once and awhile, I'll have a 'reality glitch' and realize that I look like the way I do. I'll look in the mirror and say to myself "Oh lord, I'm a person. I'm a person living this existence in this body. I'm..." blahblahblah...

It's rare, but I have them. Maybe...once a year?
It's eerie how much I know what you mean here:

Ever wake up one day and feel amazement at the fact you’re alive?

Seeing yourself from the outside is tricky, but every so often, I play my life story (like a movie in my head and finger on the fast-forward button), and simply think “Wow…”

Great post. rated.
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