my computer has betrayed me
after so many
late nights
sleepless hours
we spent together
it humming softly
me glowing in its light
pouring my
thoughts
into excited
finger taps
on comfortable
keys
I trusted something
that had no heart
whatever power it did possess
froze
and deep inside
the cold metal bowels
were words of my soul
private thoughts
and love letters
dreams
poetry
secrets
memories
photos of children who will
never
ever
look like that
again
the cold metal ate all of it
chewed it up
swallowed it down
before it died
no amount of digging
tinkering
or praying
will ever bring any of it
back to me
Note: I have an external hard drive now, but it doesn't make me feel any better. It won't bring back any of what I had before. It's a loss. I feel like I should have a funeral or something.


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Comments
External hard drives and discs.
Did you email any of your writings/pictures to anyone? That may be one way to get *some* stuff back. As for the rest, I'm sorry.
Karin--I have told myself the same things...that's very funny that you do that as well. Guess we are glass half full kind of gals!
wschanz--if only I had not taken it to the Apple store...they kept my hard drive. Sent it in to Apple. So there is probably no way to get it back.
hourglass--I did print some things out to keep in a folder in case I wanted to read through and edit hard copies (I do that sometimes). But who knows if they are the most recent versions of things. Other writing I know for sure there are no copies of anywhere. Some photos I did send...some are on Facebook...some I still have on memory sticks...time will tell what all I really lost. :(
Chuck--Let me be your cautionary tale...back everything up--this does not need to happen to you! So you don't have to be afraid!
Boanerges!--So sorry that you are in the club with me. You are so right. Hard drives are predictable in that they WILL crash...but unpredictable as to when. Such a pain in the butt.
New Buddha Fun--Read first. Compliment later. About the writing...the writing...
Rated.
I have a new Mac too...but this one seems noisy for the first time, the fan keeps running....grrr.