AnnMarie MacKinnon

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MAY 28, 2009 7:54PM

Between Bones

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I’ve often heard that if you put your trust in the universe, good things will happen. For the most part, I’ve always viewed that idea as a little too ‘rainbows and unicorns’ for me. But there’s also something very compelling about it. You mean, if i take the lazy way out, things will work out for me anyway? Sweet! But I don’t think being lazy is what’s intended. What’s really going on here is a friendly reminder to not worry about things over which you have no control anyway.

So, with that in mind, I’ve been attempting to carry out my life in such a way that I don’t worry about all the things that normally get to me: the rude or insensitive comments, what appears to be a population imbued with a giant sense of entitlement, the external pressures to be a certain way or to achieve certain things. Instead, I decided to only offer my precious brain power to the service of working on things I can control: keeping a positive attitude, fulfillment of wishes and dreams, helping out friends.

And as soon as I did, something weird happened. I got a phone call that would change things for me. It felt great. I was elated. I thought to myself: That was just what I needed. But after a while, when the initial excitement wore off, I started feeling anxious and not at all sure. Things weren’t really meshing with my original plan. I got another phone call. And the situation rectified itself. I was off the hook.

I started to attribute this to the universe, I have to admit. Sometimes she just throws you a bone, I thought, and I’ve been between bones for quite some time. And while I normally believe I make my own “luck,” such as it is, it’s tempting, and sometimes even pleasant, to believe you’re being cared for by something else.

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Odd that I derive the same level of comfort from an interminable belief in the exact opposite... that we are, as we are, the end all and be all of our own existences. There is nothing guiding, nothing derailing, nothing determining my path without my consent or input. Sometimes, rarely, but sometimes I wish I did believe in some cosmic force... it would give me something to blame my shortcommings on.

I have no idea what is or isn't true, I only know that comfort, like so many things, is a matter of perspective.

Excellent post, AnnMarie. I'm looking forward to more... and more often :)
"You mean, if i take the lazy way out, things will work out for me anyway? Sweet! But I don’t think being lazy is what’s intended. What’s really going on here is a friendly reminder to not worry about things over which you have no control anyway."

This was very funny and insightful - I've often thought about that as well.

"believe you’re being cared for by something else." great ending - I couldn't agree more - glad to have found this today! thanks
Thanks. I was following the feed and listening to Morning is breaking (like~water's sharing)' Caution too. Hesitant Movement. Yours is not a path of extra caution and hesitant movements. You are a Lady, not a little child. Steer clear of the abyss. Yes, to those rhythmic vibrations. Yes! spirituality (dharma). Beware of religious dogma.
Tantrikas- You already know there are crude forces, a pause-less struggle against inequality and cowardliness. A 'dog' may gnaw n a bone. he lips drip with blood. The human too (Homer) may think the taste of blood is good. The beast who lost his/her humanity may chew splintered bone. And, what is sad ... think the momentary

pleasure is stolen,
a tasteful pleasure
You are so lovely
A inward thinker
Ay, Nova Scotia
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Ann Marie MacKinnon.
You reminded of this:`
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When I heard the Learned Astronomer. - by Walt Whitman.
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Then I heard the learned astronomer,
When the proofs, the figures, where ranged in columns before me,
When I was shown the charts and diagrams, to add, divide, and measure then,

When I was sitting heard the astronomer where he lectured with
much applause in the lecture room,
How soon unaccountable I became tired and sick,
Till rising and gliding out I wandered off by myself,
In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time,
Looked up in perfect silence at the stars. W.W.
Skip - Thank you for the kind words (and insight into the brain of SR). I sometimes often wonder if maybe I *am* the cosmic force. How's that for self-absorbed? And point taken about posting more often. ;)

Y Heron - As much as I think about it, I don't really know which position I prefer more frequently. But then, I never really have to decide, do I?

Arthur James - Thank you. You're right. Mine is "not a path of extra caution and hesitant movements." Beautiful. I am just so enamored of your mind.
I struggle with this too. Daily. The ebb and flow between what I want and what the universe delivers. And how I sometimes fuck it all up. :)