APRIL 15, 2010 5:18PM

And You Wish...

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Not poetry... I'm no poet. Just broken prose, really.

In the beginning, they’re wonderful, the cheerleaders.

Soul pumping inspiration that sings to your psyche

until one day, perhaps at 8 pm

on a cloudy Wednesday evening

when you realize

you’re the lone player on the field

the only one carrying the ball, or washing

an old man’s soiled buttocks, and

not for the first time that day, as

the phone rings and the business needs

tending and the kitchen needs cleaning

and the laundry needs washing, and

they fade into background noise,

the cheerleaders;

and you wish,

wish

for another player to carry the ball

just one more yard

a tag team player, even, to

leap the rope in the nick of time

and high five your broken body

so you can roll out of the ring

gasping, bruised

but still breathing, thank God,

and rest, just rest, breathing

one long breath after another

long enough, just long enough

to go one more round.

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(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
We can all use a little help sometimes. Usually, not for long, just long enough to catch a breath. I understand. Beautifully expressed.
You need a hug, and I understood only too well what it's like being the one holding the ball. Know that I am thinking of you, and that you are not alone in spirit.
Anyone who has been a caregiver should identify with this poignant and heartfelt piece. I hope you get a chance to catch your breath.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, dearest....

I wish I could come and take over for awhile (I worked in a nursing home when I was 18, so I'm qualified!). I think it would do us both a lot of good. You'd get a break, and I'd be in good company.

So sorry it's so hard... I'm so dang sorry.
Thank you... we've had better days than these past ones, to be sure. I'm feeling a bit like something the cat dragged in. Or coughed up.
Ouch. Been there--though we crapped out and did get help. It was helpful. But understanding what you feel.

Get help.
I was just thinking about you and wondering how things were going. So sorry to hear of your exhaustion. This is beautiful writing--and yes, a poem. My heart and head are right there with you. Things have settled down a bit for me--haven't been writing much about my parents, except for my poetry class. Things have settled down some into the assisted living routine (after all the falling and hospital visits). My father's been declining physically, but yesterday my mom and I sat outside their place in rockers and did a crossword puzzle. When they went in for dinner, I was able to go to their empty townhouse and have a couple drinks on the deck and watch the lake in the beautiful 80-degree end-of-day before I went home to needy hubs. God, that hour was blessed.

How I wish I could be there, really, for you, so you could have an hour.
I finally gave up waiting for reinforcements. At a certain point you know they aren't coming, and as for me--I forfeited the game. I don't know how you do it. Thinking about you, as always---
I so get this. Too well. Here's hoping things get better for you...