
The eulogy would have
made him proud,
I like to think.
Oh, how they
laughed, followed
by hiccupped tears
and the soft swoosh
of kleenex pulled
from the box.
One by one my sisters
and brothers
joined me.Sharing memories,
some of them
broke. sobbed.
face in hands,
shoulders heaving.
But not I, not I.
You should have been
a speaker, someone said,
and my mask smiled back.
How are you holding up?
another asked
ever so gently,
touching my shoulder.
I'm fine,
I lied.
I would give
almost anything to
hug him just once more.
I seek the words
but they escape my
lips and seep through
eyes instead until
silently, I float away
on a sea of tears.


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Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
Take care.
R
Sending you good thoughts and prayers, and know that he knew you loved him.
It's such a heavy burden to wear that mask. I hope baring yourself here has helped lift that weight.
My sincere condolences.
Harriet, I may post the eulogy when I'm dealing better. It would be nice to share some of the memories in it. Not sure I can just yet, but perhaps one day.
Cartouche, thank you. For this, and for all the times you lent an ear along the way. Caregiving, I'm good at. Being tended to, that's unfamiliar territory for me.
Grif, you're so right. Not for better or worse, just forever.
Bill, thanks. And for the PMs along the way back when, too.
OM - had to smile that you picked up on the mask part. You're right, it is heavy.
Emma - thank you so much. You, too, have always lent an ear and I appreciate it more than you know. It's rougher than I'd thought it would be. In time, I guess.
Bonnie -- thank you for what you PMd. I will take you up on that when I think I can. Still kind of raw.
I am very sorry for your loss.
Holding on now, hold on. You did real well.
Mark - it's it true. We lost Dad's cousin this week. She was my godmother.
Kim - sometimes, it comes down to hanging in there, true enough.
Anne - thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
Matthew - thank you for saying that. There are times when finding words is so hard.
Dave - thank you. And for including me in your list, too. Keep up the great work there.
darkside - thanks. Hope you're doing well these days.