"I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians.
- Florida, U.S.A.
- December 31
- I'm a divorced mom of one, a self-proclaimed cat-lady, and mildly misanthropic. At least in-person. I'm still feeling my way through this whole life thing, and realizing that I'm still growing into my own skin.
I've taken to using this blog as a free therapy couch, it seems.
If you don't like what I write, I'm a huge self-critic, so chances are you're in good company.
MY RECENT POSTS
- Working the Cycle
February 20, 2015 08:26PM
- Part 1.
December 27, 2014 11:52PM
December 06, 2014 12:55AM
November 26, 2014 07:23PM
- Torrential, Part 2 of Stepdad
November 20, 2014 11:00PM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “so you're saying I need
to run around naked, Tink? I
February 22, 2015 10:48AM
- “That's how I look at it.
And thank you. I need
February 20, 2015 08:51PM
- “I as well, Myriad, for
December 07, 2014 07:58AM
- “yeah, they're gone for
now. talking like they're
December 07, 2014 06:17AM
- “The kittens look cute
and naughty. I was going to
December 07, 2014 06:12AM
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be absent for so long. I started a job last month; back in Corrections, and it already sucks. I think I need to leave Corrections alone.
I'm noticing that there is no set cycle to grief, but there are some familiarities. I grieve for my… Read full post »
She trudged up the two-lane country road that hugged around a mountainside. Rolling behind her was a well-worn suitcase, the floral detail of the fabric long since faded due to excessive sunshine and grime. “Just around this bend, it should be there,” she thought to herself, t… Read full post »
So you would think by now my stepdad would be in the ground.
You'd be wrong.
One of his brothers was flown down the day of his death but just didn't make it in time. Now understand, I have never had a very large opinion on his family, but his… Read full post »
My stepdad passed at 9:17 this morning.
I was already grieving him, so this wasn't a huge deal. But it's pretty final, as opposed to the other option we were facing.
Yesterday morning the family and the medical professionals had a meeting about what can be in store for my stepdad.… Read full post »
So what happened is my stepdad was at Walmart and felt bad. He's been having issues with shortness of breath and dizziness for a while now (at least a year, which I didn't freaking know), and they've been getting worse within the past week or two. He's a type of man… Read full post »
Lost the job.
Lost the car.
But goddamn it, I'm not losing this one without a fight.
I got a call from my mom an hour ago that my (ex-)stepdad is in the ICU, and it ain't lookin' good. I've been a complete wreck, but I want you guys to… Read full post »
On October 21st, 2014, I was called to the office. Long story short, they forced me to sign a letter of resignation. Their reasoning was that due to my back issues and also due to their lack of being able to tell the truth about what I'd be doing in my… Read full post »
I've been having a real hard time lately of dealing with what my reality is. Yeah, my job sucks. It's a new level of suck every day. So there's that. Thursday morning I was actually crying on my way to work. But this isn't even about that.
This is about… Read full post »
There are two things that have come to me very solidly since I've started this job on August 12th. One is that I do work well with kids, whether or not I think I'm the best person to be around them due to my cynicism. Two is that I have lost… Read full post »
Lately, memories have come veering past me at breakneck speed. I suspect if I were dense enough to try and take a step out into my mental traffic, I'd be flattened like a pancake due to the volume and girth of said memories.
Memories that were set years ago, that as… Read full post »
I survived the first week of being back to school. My school started on Monday, and my daughter started back to her school on Tuesday.
Let's start with my daughter and her school experience.
For those of you who read my blogs last school year, you'll remember how many… Read full post »
After the unexpected passing of one of my most favorite comedians, and having received word that the college of my choice had denied my transfer, I felt that the mood was set for today, of which being my first day at this new job. A new career, as it were, since… Read full post »
Didn't pass the math.
Got a new job though. Starting on August 12th as a Teachers' Aide in a private Christian school, elementary side. Going from working for Department of Corrections as clerical to this is one end of the spectrum to the other. I figure with my longshoresman vocabu… Read full post »
In order for me to get my generic Associates Degree in Liberal Arts, I have to take and pass two math courses with Cs or above. Before I started college, I never really felt dumb. My, how that has changed.
Spring semester I passed Liberal Arts Math I with a B.… Read full post »
Sometimes I really crack myself up when I'm tired.
Really, really tired. Like 5 hours in two nights worth of sleep tired.
Guess who's going to bed at a one-digit hour tonight? Not this gal.
My boyfriend has this very large and awesome movie collection, so he's been exposing… Read full post »
Yesterday on the bus, I was looking through my little notebook that I write everything in (grocery lists, food journals, bill confirmation numbers, my weight), and noticed I hadn't weighed myself in about a month. That was a shocking realization, so last night I did. That was shocking, but also nause… Read full post »
I was sitting in church last Sunday when the brethren mentioned in third hour that our missionaries were no longer allowed to track; that is to say, they're no longer allowed to go door to door, proselyting. I can't find anything online that states that's worldwide, so that makes me think… Read full post »
Six months ago, a young man got up in front of a St. Petersburg, Florida, church congregation in borrowed attire, a Bible in his hand, pleading for someone to love him.
Six months later, this young man, Davion Only, still has no home to truly call his own.
My original… Read full post »
This blog started from this article I read today: http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/elephant-bullhook-guide-safe-ringling-bros-big-article-1.1620674
Janice Aria is the director of animal stewardship with the Ringling Brothers Circus. Because apparently titles mean that you kno… Read full post »
One of these days I'm going to mentally run myself into the ground so deeply that there will be no retrieval of anything. I can only hope I won't be sane enough to realize what's happened.
I've been driving myself in circles lately. Like, more than usual. Regarding dieting an… Read full post »
Happy Singles Awareness Day, to whom of which it applies.
For those for whom it doesn't... well... psh.
My friend, the male bff, is back to pushing me. Relationship crap, love crap, I'm surprised he hasn't said the "M" word today. Out of the guys I've dated… Read full post »
As of yesterday, or rather earlier today, I've found myself to be single once again. I borderline wonder if it was because he discovered this blog and read my entry from December; but since he won't talk to me, I won't really know, and it's all over and done with now… Read full post »
With this whole Woody Allen molestation thing, people are saying it's because Mia has had so much anger towards him over the years. People are saying that she's fashioned the children to be against him, to have them (Dylan, really) making up these allegations in order to hurt Woody.
Sure, maybe… Read full post »
Dear Mrs. D.,
I find it in good timing for you to request a conference.
You and I have butted heads since the second day of this school year. You had called me that day to inform me of a few complaints you already had about my daughter, and you… Read full post »
Last week was rough, and this week so far hasn't been too bad, but I'm still emotionally feeling the effects from then. Having my own place again means I grapple on and off with the "nighttime depression wave" that hits me... if I let it. I'm doing a lot better in… Read full post »